I love connecting with people. I love sharing my work.. my thoughts.. the little moments of life.
It’s almost like a mini self healing session for me when I share my thoughts out loud. Getting it out of my mind and off my chest.. onto paper (or notes app) (Is that even a thing? Well.. it is for me)
But the fear of being seen? That’s something I have struggled with for a very long time.. as long as I can remember.
Which is kind of insane, because as a kid, I wanted to be a famous singer 🤣 Imagine? That would be absolutely terrifying for me as an adult.
One-on-one or in small groups, I’m perfectly fine. Put me in front of a big group and I forget what I’m saying, I muddle my words.. I even stutter when I am really nervous.
But this.. my friends, is something I am dead set on working through ❤️🔥
And I think there’s something quite interesting about that, especially when so much of my work involves holding space for other women to feel safe, supported and seen.
I am still learning to offer myself that same space.
The past few years have really challenged me to look at the ways I cope with discomfort.
Because disappearing (Or alcohol) has always been an option for me.
The easiest. The fastest. Deleting a page. Walking away. Starting again. Disappearing when things get hard.
BUT.. there is another way.
I can also allow myself to move through the hard stuff without erasing myself.
To allow myself to be seen without feeling like I need to control how I am perceived.
And perhaps that’s what this little corner of the internet is becoming for me.
A space to share when I have something to say. To have a little more fun with it all. Without the pressure to constantly or consistently show up.
And without feeling like I need to disappear every time I feel uncomfortable.
And perhaps something I share might help another woman feel a little less alone.
And that.. to me.. feels ABSOLUTELY worth it 🤍
Kylie x
#fearofbeingseen #fearofrejection #socialmedia #youcandohardthings
7 days agosoulsafetyenergetics
Relate. At the end of the day people committed to misunderstanding me will. I'm not here for them. I'm here firstly for ME, my self expression, my voice, my art, my soul work. Then im here for the women who relate, who are on a similar journey, whi want to grow and learn, who can be open minded and accept we may think differently on some things but still steeped in respect of our own authentic journeys. The more I embody and embrace my unique voice the more the right people will find me and the wrong people will hate me and try to tear me down - im not here to change their mind about me, i just leave their comments to speak volumes about them. I prefer in person but being a widow leaves me pretty isolated so here I am 😜
7 days agosonjacourtis
Oh gosh my love. Good on you for attempting to find balance and all of this. Visibility is how you get to share your gifts! 👏❤️ With intention and with purpose. Thank you for staying around
7 days agoanna_thegroundworknz
👏 Yes! Exactly how social media should be - flowed. Especially for women finding their way and releasing fears. Showing up online is huge. But soooo incredibly healing. I started my fear facing journey on Tik Tok- nobody knew me and I liked that. I could practise speaking to the camera, sharing big thoughts, and authentically clearing my throat chakra ( which is huge for so many women). I find the algorithm takes you to your people quicker there too… so I felt more supported along the way. I found I felt the most fear from the people who knew me- or at least a past version of me - and they were all on Instagram so Tik Tok felt invigoratingly freeing. But I’m the same as you…how I show up depends where I am in my cycle. Sometimes I’m fiercely passionate and opinionated other times I’m reflective and light hearted and then sometimes I get so in my head I’ve tried to post and overthink, delete, repost and spiral. Ha I’ve learnt to step away from the phone in those moments. 😅 But I do think that’s a huge part of the being seen awareness. And you’re so right… the only way to face the fear is to go through it. I can see your growth from the outside and the authenticity suits you!! It’s needed. Repeat after me… “who cares what anyone else thinks!!” 😎 Now repeat it until you believe it.🥰👏
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