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Mira

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spa lover. living in a reality of Terrence M's films. just ask WHY

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I feel so exhausted, where's my favourite 《living on love 》state! Maybe I should move to a forest or to an island ( as the ocean is so important) to get back to it?! I feel like I need at least 2 years to recover from interactions with people. I'm so tired of crying in public. I can't hold my tears anymore. I can't hold anything anymore! Neither my anger. I guess, that's the time for isolation. Cutting everyone off? Except those, I am 1000% sure about? It's so serious, actually. What/who do you want me to be? Who are you trying to turn me into? A victim? A narcissist? A great manipulator? Someone who ruins lifes? An angel? I don't believe in the idea of victims and heroes, but yet, who can understand my point of view profoundly...I feel everyone is allowed to think whatever they want to think. Once, I said to my friend《even if the whole world betrays me, I can't betray myself 》. And I can't. I wish I could. But I can't be someone else I'm not. No matter who I think I am. No matter who you think I am. I can only grow or go downhill but can't change my nature ( I did try). Cheesy not cheesy. I feel like I'm 7 years old, anyway, sometimes 13.

P.s. I've been in a therapy for a decade. I did ask psychologists to test me and tell me if I have narcissistic traits after my mum called me a great manipulator and people pushing me away. They didn't confirm it. If you think I'm a narcissist, help me! If you think I'm a monster, help me. Just fucking help me. I'm crying for help. by @permitmirr

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I love you so much sooo much. by @permitmirr

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Take five. @hcdany taken in Maastricht, Netherlands by @permitmirr

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taken in Oost-Maarland by @permitmirr

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a fairy land, indeed. 5. the dancing doggy! 15. the wine is so pure just like us. taken in Mavilly-Mandelot, Bourgogne, France by @permitmirr

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thank you. I never feel insane in your company.💕 by @permitmirr

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How is my healing going?
I dream every night I play violin, and other musicians speak German to me. I watch psychological thrillers in my sleep, with strange mysterious homicides happening.
I have no filters and I’m unfiltered. I am too much but it’s fine, I’m not too much for myself. This is too much in the world and I’m not fine with that. I promise I’ll stay being open chested and open to love no matter what happens. by @permitmirr

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