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Ryan Millar

@rymillar

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Left my heart in San Francisco ♥️🫶🏼
Thankful for such a beautiful late-summer daydream.
New friends, familiar faces, honest conversations.

A few weeks left in California before the Prodigal Son returns to Denver 🏔️💘 taken in San Francisco, California by @rymillar

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a year ago

West Coast road trip continues! 🌲🌊🏕️
Next stop: Oregon and Washington.
Need your expertise, internet friends! Any must-see spots or cozy places to crash? Also open to short-term rentals, temp work, or communal living spaces.
If you’re local, let’s meet up! ♥️👋🏻 by @rymillar

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a year ago

Lost in fond memories of this afternoon with the one and only @thehumblelion_
Miss playing around @realmdenver with you 💅🏼 by @rymillar

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a year ago

I've seen a lot of tarmacs lately. Lots of flight attendant safety demonstrations. Baggage claim reunions and security checkpoint farewells. I've become a master at killing time in Concourse C and finding the best spot for a nap at Gate 42A.
I'm a restless fucker. Maybe someday I'll sit still. Until then, I'll break in this new luggage and enjoy the chaos. NYC tonight 🗽💅🏼 taken in Highline Ballroom by @rymillar

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9 years ago

Rewriting some stories 🖋️🌊✨ taken in Mazunte by @rymillar

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a year ago

I have completely fallen in love with The Netherlands.
If you need me, I'll be daydreaming of owning a flat with flowers in the window and a record player spinning by the fireplace. Pure rainy moody magic. taken in Amersfoort by @rymillar

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10 years ago

From Oregon with love 🫶🏼 by @rymillar

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2 years ago

🚨Sensitive content- trigger warning🚨⁣
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I have been thinking about whether or not to post this. I hope doing so takes some of the weight off of my chest & will be a benchmark for my road to recovery.⁣
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I woke up on the last night of November to a stranger standing in my bedroom. When I think of the stuff in movies about home invasions & crime scenes, it seems only real on screen. I wasn’t prepared for the feeling of absolute terror or the tangible taste of violation. I wasn’t prepared for the way my body drowned itself in adrenaline to keep me safe. I wasn’t prepared to look someone in the eyes & beg them to let me live. ⁣
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I was put into an ambulance at 4 A.M. with 30 stab wounds & a collapsed lung. ⁣
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I have been advised against sharing too much regarding the attacker, motive & legal battle ahead (much of which is still a mystery to me). But I do want to share about the multitude of people who have helped me since that moment. The hospital staff who cried with me, sewed me back together & tolerated my bad jokes. The friends who washed the blood off of my feet, gave my family a place to live & donned hazmat suits to pack up my battleground of an apartment. The countless names who sent text messages, donated money & prayed for me. And my family who spent a month in Colorado dressing my wounds, looking for a new apartment & letting me break down in the HomeGoods candle aisle.⁣
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There aren’t enough words in the universe to express my gratitude for each of you. I have been shown community & love in the midst of my darkest chapter. Thank you for your grace & understanding when I don’t have the words to respond to a kind text message. Thank you for your patience as I navigate the return to social life. I don’t know how to do this but I know I have an army of beautiful people around me.⁣
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In the meantime, I hope I can continue to reflect on the kindness I’ve been shown & choose to focus on that. It seems like so many of us are in pain. Wildfires, senseless violence & COVID. Hold your people close & be kind to those you interact with. Praying that 2022 is a better world for each of us. by @rymillar

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5 years ago

There's a box in my closet on the highest shelf. Even as a taller man, I don't reach for it often. It's black and used to be the home of fancy shoes that I only wore once a year. Italian leather and less comfortable than I will ever admit.
Now that box is full of other things. Letters from the students I spent half a school year with. I'm not sure I will ever read them again, but it's nice to know they're there. That they exist. That those moments happened to me.
There are also photos from when I was a kid. One of my dad, brother and I sitting on a tree stump in our old backyard. We had a dog named Jesse and I played with Barbies. One of me with long, black hair. I hated the red and would do anything to hide it.
And another photo of a road trip I took years ago to this spot. It ended up being the reason I moved to Colorado. Even now, states away, I can still smell these flowers and remember how silent it was up there.
I have a love/hate relationship with that black shoe box in my closet. The box with concert stubs and foreign currency and photo booth strips with friends I don't speak with anymore. Rocks from Israel and bottle caps from my first night in Austin. So much has happened in the last 28 years. It's nice to have a morning like this- cups of coffee on Memory Lane, writing down lyrics to songs that give me misty eyes.
"There's only so much letting go you can ask someone to do." taken in Saint Mary's Glacier by @rymillar

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9 years ago

I think the Universe reveals our true selves slowly.
It takes heartache and broken bones and bloody knuckles. I wish it didn’t involve tears, but it does. I wish it didn’t include goodbyes, but there are many. I wish it didn’t take so many years, but I’m going on 30.
I feel like I’ve finally been introduced to myself. It was an awkward introduction, considering I’ve slept in this skin for so long. But here we are. And since we’re here, I’ll lean into that mysterious magic. The magic that gives unclouded eyes and a lighter heart. Prefers “I love you” to “I’m afraid.” Chooses pride over shame. Includes everyone, not just those who look like me.
I’m sorry it’s taken this long, but that’s the only way to do it.
Photo by @adamnbove.
Shirt stolen from @koangoedman. by @rymillar

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7 years ago

still here ♥️ ⁣
still thankful ✨ ⁣
still moving forward 🩹 ⁣
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📷 @ramonchristian.photo by @rymillar

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5 years ago

#35mm from what feels like a lifetime ago. ⁣
Lakes and laughter, we’ll be reunited soon 🧜🏼‍♂️⛰⁣
📷 @moldymoloney by @rymillar

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