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hello.
i have a few words…
you ever have a day where it’s so quiet that it’s loud. you hear every single thought in the silence around you. fighting negativity that’s constantly infiltrating your mind & heart. i feel like i live that constant cycle each day. so i’m praying you all find peace of mind. i wish tranquillity in your lives. i hope that you not only find love from others but within yourself first. i want to see each one of you grow into not only who you aspire to be but genuinely the best version of yourself. for those who struggle with insecurities, self hatred, abuse, mental illness know that you are loved , you are FULLY deserving of love, & anyone who makes you feel otherwise is not deserving of YOU, your time , energy , or love. Do not let the weight of the pain others have given you make you bitter. & it’s hard i understand. there have been times i look back & think to myself why did i let someone else’s actions influence me to act out but i’ve learned from my mistakes & you will too. we are so much stronger than we think we are. you cannot change the past but you can work with the present & better the future. spread love . do the things that make you happy and when u feel apathetic take your time & reflect. you don’t have to pretend as though you’re okay. you may hit rock bottom 20 more times before it gets better but that’s life. there’s nothing wrong with letting yourself feel because you are human , that’s what humans do. so i want to end this message with a quote i read.
“ Life has taught me i am not always in control. life is full of experience, lessons , heartbreak & pain. But, it has also shown me love, beauty, possibility and new beginnings. Embrace it all. It makes us who we are, and after the storm comes a clear sky.”

-abby wabby by @seedsofmyheart

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4 years ago

honestly i really hesitated posting this but I think it’ll help at least one person feel less alone. last week I turned 18. if im being honest with you , I did not think I’d make it this far. I didn’t even think I’d get to high school. i tried for so long to not be here . for a long time I’ve struggled with my mental health & each day I realize how much stronger I get just by waking up in the morning. living is hard … very hard. there have been times where I decided to just give up. I stopped eating. i stopped sleeping. i stopped caring about myself. i started to get more stressed. this led me to get sick. my body was essentially in emergency mode. i got so weak i had to go to the er just for fluids because I couldn’t even bring myself to part take in giving my body it’s basic needs . i started to skip school so I could work from home just to give myself a break from the facade I made each day. this was all happening as I was receiving help. there were even points last year where I got so stressed that my hair was falling out hence why I cut it last summer. the irony of it all was that I had people telling me I was “perfect” or how they looked up to me. it’s so easy to pretend. so easy to smile . so easy to laugh, yet so hard to be happy. I don’t think I’ve been happy with myself for years , whether it be because my appearance, personality, circumstances, grades or emotional well-being. I’ve always pushed myself, but it was never an encouraging push it was always a “you need to do better, you need to be better ” type of mentality. my psychiatrist calls it “imposter syndrome”. I believe things will get better with time, but I just want others who have felt the same to know that it’s okay to not be okay. we can, not be okay together as we build ourselves back up. you never really know what people are going through. be nice. be kind. be loving. not only do this for others but for yourself as well. which is something im working on right now. I found comfort in being sad because that’s what was so familiar to me. but eventually i will break my habits. I will heal completely. I will blossom & so will you. even if I don’t know you, I love you & im always here.

-abby by @seedsofmyheart

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4 years ago

• hello my friends !
knowing that we are now in fall & approaching winter rather quickly that times may be harder for some of us. trust me i understand that seasonal depression is very real , so i want you to know i see you & i hear you. i urge you to try to go outside (i know it’s cold :p ) to get some sun or at least sit by the window where light is being let in, it’s good for you. the second thing i would like you to do is try to talk to at least one person you trust about what’s on your mind or anything that’s been going on with you. the third & last thing i would love for you to do is check on a couple of people. don’t always wait for hints or signs. you should check on your loved ones as often as possible, you never know what they’re going through. please be kind , do not spew hate but love & be slow to anger. these are things i’m working on daily. there’s a lot more negativity & hate in this world than love but who is stopping you from changing that ? you know one kind gesture could brighten someone’s day. thinking of something nice to say instead of making fun of someone could actually make you feel a bit better about yourself ( the meaner you are the uglier you get 🙀 so if you want to be beautiful inside & out forever you have to be kind) . sending an encouraging message. buying someone flowers. writing an appreciative note. helping a friend out. even taking part in self care is something you could do because the better you feel the more likely you are to treat others well. please take care of yourself as best as you can & do not feel guilty relying on others for help. no one has ever gotten through this life without help or support. as always i love you , i care for you , & im here for you.

• The other thing i’d like to talk about is the holidays. I know not everyone is fond of family holidays & not everyone’s home situation is great , but i do want you to know you are loved & soon there will be better days. i will be your family. idc if you need me to be your sister, brother , mom or dad . if you need me i’m here <3 im sending love , warmth , joy , laughter & positivity to you all during these times.

- abby wabby <3 by @seedsofmyheart

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a quiet life with love🎞️ by @seedsofmyheart

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Today is my last day of undergrad 🎓🍾

A lot of you know i'm very big on mental health. I've written many messages to you all throughout these four years. I wrote to you what I wish I could've heard when I was struggling. I wrote from my heart which is my biggest asset. As a future mental health professional, I think it's so important to connect and to feel. Thank you to those of you who have allowed me to be there, to those of you who have trusted me with whatever was weighing on your heart, to those who have read anything i've posted, & to those who have encouraged me to continue spreading light & love. I won't stop now.❤️

These last four years were so challenging. College definitely wasn't what I expected it to be. I didn't create many friendships but i'm grateful for the ones I did make!! I didn't really go to any events or games either (sorry Pounce 😅). As someone who was used to putting myself out there, I quickly became reserved. I was severely depressed & suicidal my freshman year. I was misdiagnosed and given medication that essentially made my mental health decline even more. I wasn't doing too well in my classes that first semester but still all I could do was sleep and cry. I think about that time and i'm so proud of myself for pushing through to get to where I am today. Thank you to those of you who showed me empathy & kindness. To those who treated me less than when I was struggling, I pray you never go through such turmoil. This ended up being more so of a solo journey, but I did it. Every time I felt like giving up, I picked myself right back up. I persevered.

To my future patients, I promise to lead with empathy, patience and open ears to provide you a warm space for growth and healing. ❤️‍🩹

#gsu26 #thestateway taken in Georgia State University by @seedsofmyheart

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i'm so thankful to be here.
blessed to see another year <3 by @seedsofmyheart

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