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Moving forward and forever moving.
Fashion, makeup, and mental health.
I'll alwyas love me first 💖💞.

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I built this life grain by grain, through darkness and storms no one knew I was drowning in.
I said many goodbyes to people, places, habits, and beliefs.
I let the high and low tides teach and shape me.
But I ultimately chose this, I chose a life of creativity, expression, love, adventure, healthy relationships, and myself over everything and everyone designed to bend and break me and I'd do it again.
Here's to a life I never knew was possible and here's to me for creating it.
Let's create more looks and memories ✨️.
#fashion #mentalhealthmatters #MUA #chooseself #story taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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Omg.... I can't tell you how much weight feels lifted off of me... I did not expect to cry and feel the way I am feeling right now making this video. I didn't expect to cry and I didn't expect to have so much memories flood me 🥺😭😫 in between each makeup look is something you've never seen. So many breakdowns, tears, late-nights up worrying, over thinking, anxiety attacks, phone calls with therapists. So much darkness and pain but what kept me going was being able to turn to fashion and makeup to find happiness and love. I fell in love with myself so many times over when all I wanted to do was crumble and give up. Fashion and makeup truly did save my life, my heart and soul. I cannot believe I dragged myself out of hell while carrying so much weight all by myself. Passing my makeup artistry exam to me means I did something right and I did it good enough to pass. I've never really finished any programs or projects I started (I still have beadwork sitting on my table 😅) I always quit because I normally don't believe in myself or see myself accomplishing anything in life, so I self sabotage and give up. I almost gave up this makeup artist program so many times because of dealing with health issues, abusers, mental health problems, and getting back on my feet. But I would force myself to go and look! I PASSED!!! This means so much more to me than anyone else can understand, I did something for me and I was great at it 😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺 I finished the program and I accomplished something that I never thought I would have been able to do if you asked me two months ago..... I did it... I did it while crying, unable to eat, unable to sleep, and unable to function some days.... I did it.... I passed... I passed 😫😫😫😭😭😭 I passed...... thank you, to me 💖💖💖💖💖💖 to my son, my nieces, my little brother, my nephews, to my best friend Danielle for always believing in me, supporting me, up lifting me, and loving me in my deepest darkest places, you are my sister, my best friend, my soul mate, the love I always needed and I love you so much! Thank you to anyone to ever believed in me and supported me! I see you! Your love is noticed and acknowledged (cont in comments) taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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A video I did a while back with a program that helps abused women fleeing from DV.
As an Indigenous woman and a decendant of residental school, sometimes our abusers are the ones around us. Our families can very well be abusers.
The time for change is also a time to hold our abusers accountable and to take the time to heal those wounds.
We as indigenous people's were extremely negatively affected by colonialism, and it led us down a dark road.
It's our own people too who need to be held accountable.
I stopped going to ceremonies for a long time because of the abuse I've faced there by both men and women. I'm slowly making my way back. And I'm so happy to. I want to take you all on the journey with me.
Lest heal these wounds together ❤️ it's the only way to make it through these hard times ✨️🪶.

This place I'm speaking about was the women's shelter in Rocky Mountain House. I lived in a 2nd stage shelter and the programming we did there was amazing in helping me heal. The workers there were so kind, funny, and had such beautiful souls.
You can find more info on their web page at:

https://www.mrwsa.net/

#indigenous #thriving #healingthetrauma #healingjourney #residntialschoolsurvivor #intergenerationaltrauma #inidenousstrong #inidigenousculture #healingthepain #yeg #lovingmyselgbacktolife #plainscree #resilience
#womenshelter taken in Edmonton, Alberta by @sjohn223

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Fr. taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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I totally needed this gift and love from the universe right now 🥰 it came just in time!
p.s we no longer live at this address so it's ok! lol
✨️ Thanks Sharon ✨️
#gifts #art #quills #thankful #giftsfromtheuniverse taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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5 days ago

never a dull moment with the orange boi
#orangeboy #orangecat #nature #mouseandcat #catsofinstgram taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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#everychildmatters🧡 taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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#indigenousinstagram #indigenousbeading #beading #catsofinstgram #orangebehavior taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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6 days ago

Therapy ✨️😌💚💅🏼
#therapy #selfcare #pamperyourself #manipedi #nails💅 taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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6 days ago

You ever pass by a place a million times but never notice certain details?
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Goodbye Alberta?
#decisions #synchronicity #777 #signs #thankful taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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🌕 taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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7 days ago

I surprise myself with how far I'll come with my singing voice, I trained myself and I'm too shy to sing in public and anytime the camera is on me I choke so this was a surprise for me.
I need some pointers! 😁
#singing #vocals #singinglessons #fyp #yeg taken in Treaty No. 6 Territory by @sjohn223

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