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Christina LeBlanc

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Gotta drop some photos of my puppy girl, Quila. 💕🌙 8 months old. Time is flying by, she’s so big! And such a good girl. 😌 Love her so darn much. #husky #siberianhusky by @spectraflow

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3 years ago

One candle can light a thousand other candles and still remain lit itself. Be that candle. 🕯️🩵✨
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#ddrcityfest #flowtoys by @spectraflow

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Starting my @ssbdfest posts with what truly makes the weekend what it is - COMMUNITY. To this group of inspiring, hilarious, creative, kind, generous, and all around wonderful humans - I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH. 🥲🩵✨

Creating this camp with this crew fills me with so much happiness and fulfillment - it is really hard to put into words. This was the first official year as “Bad Nanners” 🍌 and our largest camp to date. And we’re still growing! Having a home base both at camp and at the stages where I know homies will be around was everything. I love that these friendships are continuing to grow and strengthen. I love how we all look out for one another and take care of each other. I love how warm and cozy it all feels with you. I’m so grateful for what we have together 🩵

Thank you for making this year so special. 🧚🏻‍♂️🪩 🫧 🎈🫟

P.S. Sorry if you’re in here and not tagged Instagram wouldn’t let me tag more than 20 ppl 😤 taken in Lake Perris State Recreation Area by @spectraflow

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18 hours ago

Rinse Retreat 🌲🩵

Still riding the high from this absolutely incredible weekend. Submerged in nature and community. It was so incredibly healing. Thank you @nikkiraebose for curating such an amazing getaway and for leading us through so many intentional practices. Thank you @abbyyflynnn for dropping the Ayurvedic knowledge and for such delicious and nourishing food. Thank you to my friends - old and new - for the laughs, the deep conversations, and for the love all weekend. Shout out to the babe cave 😋😋

This was just what I needed and more 😌 I’m proud of myself for always finding ways to deepen my practice and find inspiration. Finding my way back to Self, always. Lovin’ on my body, mind, and spirit ✨🕉️

#oregon #rinseretreat #reunify by @spectraflow

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14 days ago

I know I should feel grateful … and I do. But I also feel really sad. This was our third retrieval and we now have a total of 2 euploid embryos. That means 2 that are genetically normal. This round we had the highest # of blasts and the greatest chance thus far. I had a glimpse of “comfort” in knowing we were going to be able to build a family.

Clint and I want more than 1 child. I feel very strongly in wanting my babies to have siblings. They say for every 1 live birth - you should have at least 2 embryos banked. This is due to the chance of a transfer not sticking or a miscarriage.

We now have 2.

Processing another let down is so hard. The roller coaster of IVF is the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. Seeing others get pregnant so easily. Even seeing other people go through IVF and get better outcomes or have it “easier” than I do. I’m finding myself feeling resentful and angry. That’s not me. I’m tired of the hormones wreaking havoc on my body and mind. I’m tired of feeling unfulfilled because I’m meant to be a mother at this phase of my life and I’m not. I’m just tired.

I’m deep in my processing about this… but I want to share it all with you. The good and the bad. In hopes it makes someone else feel less alone. In hopes that if you know someone going through this journey - you’ll offer them more grace and compassion. And in hopes that my support continues to pour in because even though it’s hard sometimes to ask for it- the love from friends, family, and community is everything to me right now.

❤️‍🩹🌧️

#ivf #ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #pgt by @spectraflow

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Possibly the greatest reunion of all time is the return back to Self. 🌻

One of the best and most potent ways of doing this, for me, is practicing gratitude. And I’m not saying you have to just “feel grateful” period - I know at times that’s hard. I’m saying to look around you and finding something, anything, that can bring you gratitude. Maybe it’s the ocean. The sweet scent of a flower. A yummy meal. A friend that’s only a phone call away. ✨🫧

Life is certainly not always a featherbed. Sometimes it’s pokey and sharp or hard and rough and dull. Oh, the duality of it all is so beautifully painful, isn’t it? I am grateful to feel the fullness of it all.

This morning was special. Nurturing for the soul. Making this video and capturing some of the magic I felt was so fun 💛 🌊 Thanks for watching ! ☺️ by @spectraflow

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3 blasts from this round 🥲🪺💘 I’m so grateful! Fingers crossed that we get some good news back from PGT testing. This is genetic testing to basically ensure I have a chance at a healthy pregnancy. 🤰🏼 They say for every 1 child - you should aim for at least 2 banked embryos. This is because the egg retrieval process is pretty intense and sometimes the transfer doesn’t stick. This way, you can move straight to another transfer instead of doing another retrieval. Science is wild! 🧪🧫🔬🥼

So grateful for the @hanabusaivf team and especially our absolutely incredible doctor, Dr Chang. The peace of mind from working with a doctor you trust is priceless. 🙏🏻 THANK YOU.

#ivf #ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #eggretrieval by @spectraflow

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a month ago

Today (Saturday) is trigger day! Which means my egg retrieval is Monday morning. I’m feeling a roller coaster of emotions - fear, hope, excitement, anxiety. I’m happy that we’re at this part, that’s for sure. Praying for good results 🙏🏻 I will keep yall updated. Thank you for all of the love and support that has been pouring in - it has meant so much. 🩵🪺🤞🏻

#ivf #ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #retrieval3 #prayers by @spectraflow

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2 months ago

We’re still moving and grooving for now. I did sob in the doctor’s office but it’s fine 😅🩵 IVF is such a waiting game. So… more to come tomorrow (Wednesday) 🤞🏻🐣💉

#ivf #ivfjourney #eggretrieval #ivfwarrior by @spectraflow

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2 months ago

In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) 💉🐣💛
We’ve done 2 egg retrievals so far, and as of yesterday started injections for round 3.

I’ve been through a fair share of my own challenges in life but this is like nothing I’ve ever experienced. Hundreds of injections, multiple blood draws and ultra sounds each week. Surgeries, hormones completely unregulated. Phone calls that absolutely destroy you. Tears, so many tears. And still through it all - choosing hope. Hope that’s driven by the feeling of loving someone so much, so fiercely, even having never met them. A willingness to do ANYTHING for them. I know this will all be worth it.

I am asking my community for prayers, for some extra love. My friends for patience if you’ve not seen or heard from me as much.

A big thank you to those who have checked in, who have brought food, who have sent positive texts. It means more than you could ever know. 🩵

And to the other IVF warriors - I SEE YOU. I’m with you. We’ve got this. 👊🏼👊🏼

#ivf #ivfjourney #ivfstrong by @spectraflow

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Earlier this year I was in a music rut. Nothing was hitting. I was craving a certain sound but couldn’t put my finger on what that was. So, I went searching through different genres and landed on Dave Matthews Band radio. Soon, it was all I could listen to. This year has been pretty intense and this music has really gotten me through. So soothing and uplifting ☺️

So… It’s official, I’ve caught the @davematthewsband bug. So grateful for this music. So grateful for the most amazing Uncle in the world who made this night possible for me 🥹 Can’t WAIT till the next show 🩵 by @spectraflow

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2 months ago

Photos from my trip back to philly to see my fam 🩵

Being long distance from them never gets easier, but I am so grateful for the love that we share overcoming the miles in between.

I love you all SO much and cannot wait till we see each other again 🫶🏻 by @spectraflow

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