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My dear Florida,

I had some of the lowest lows with you.
Working long hours late into the evening/morning and constantly getting yelled at and called names by rich people who think I am trying to ruin their vacation really takes a toll on ones well being. But the moment that I felt like a true failure? I was hustling for everything, going to every class I could, jumping on every opportunity to meet someone new and network in different areas. I even auditioned to be a character performer. But literally everything that could go wrong or not according to plan... went wrong. I had a severe case of bronchitis on my audition day and was so sick I couldn't breathe. That bronchitis took me out. I ended up missing some classes, which is a massive no no in cp world. And everything just felt. Wrong. And that's when I realized that my dream I have had since I was 10 years old of working for Disney and someday becoming the next ✨️Bob Iger✨️ wasn't my dream anymore.  How do you tell yourself that the path you have been imagining for half your life is the wrong path? 
I'm not sure but when I realized it, I was in turmoil. I think I cried for 3 days. Trying to grieve that part of me while working, alone, in a foreign land, was one of the hardest things I have ever done. 
The DCP is certainly not for the weak.
Although I no longer felt like I was there for my career I didn't feel like my time as a CP was over infact I knew there was a reason I was there, I felt divinely called to Florida, but I had no idea what I was doing! 
This is where infinite beauty appeared. 
I became incredibly broken hearted (like into 9 billion pieces) and wholly surrendered to Christ and His will. I don't think I ever truly understood what that meant until that moment. I spent days begging to understand my purpose. 
Income angels 😇 
I mean God sent me his literal angels. People who showed me christ like love and gave me a space to grieve, laugh till my abs were sore, cry till my eyes were puffy, dance until my legs hurt and become closer to my savior. 
To my angels.
 I could not have made it through the last 6 months without you. 

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Yep another Disney post🙃
Had the best day in MK 💙
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