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the wisdom i’ve gained through suffering deeply for thousands of hours & at times beyond the natural world can be applied to all circumstances in life. 

death is hollow. i’ve learned to be content in any circumstance. hope is alive. 
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Fastest tumor growth I’ve ever had. Swelling from neck up to head. Root tumor about size of a baseball right neck. Several tumors are spreading in lymph nodes. Was growing about 0.5cm per day starting a couple weeks ago. We’ve used chemo/meds this week to slow it down some. Getting tough to swallow, right hearing effected, into head, lotsa pain…at worst breath gets squeezed…fever, dizzy, need to sleep a lot, sweats. 

So we’re gonna begin radiation Monday. The risks are greater than most cancer patients, because we have graft vs host issues from a bone marrow transplant, coming out of a trial that is unknown in effects & all the treatments I’ve had.

I’ve been doing this a long time. I’m the best in the world at it. I know what I gotta do. God at my root helps the most & He is in control. The encouragement & prayer is what helps most from people šŸ™šŸ¼ So grateful to be bonded with Ara @arabellehanan . We only have grown closer & stronger. Most amazing beautiful human I could ever imagine!

It often hurts to talk & when I do a lot of talking I pay for it later. I mostly have time/energy to focus on spending time with family, exercise/time with God to battle cancer stuff & the rest goes to TRC. It is non stop work. I also love it. There are very difficult moments which leave way for very beautiful moments. Sorry if I’m slow to respond or not available to hang. I miss Jiu jitsu training & hanging with extended family so much. I’m very hopeful I’ll be back strong in a month. 

Last time I did radiation was 10 yrs ago. Tech improved some. I was fitted with a plaster head/chest cover a few days ago. They strap me tightly to a table. We hit it daily. The battle with radiation is more emotional for me than chemo & last time I struggled with claustrophobia…it was my most growth Spiritually in learning the power of praising my God. The God of Abraham, Isaac, Jacob & Jesus Christ who died on the cross, rose again & became God for the love, opportunity & joy of us all. This is why I don’t struggle with fear or negativity. I’m trained up to my best, battle ready better than ever. Recharged at the Center. šŸ’ŖšŸ¼šŸ’›šŸ™šŸ¼šŸ˜„šŸ˜„šŸ˜„
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