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I wrote for about 5 hours on one of the days it rained at Burning Man and had planned to burn all the pages at the Temple, but I didn’t make it there this year. So instead, I’ll share part of it here…

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A year has passed, and I stand here at the temple… both changed and the same.

I am surrounded by my best friends, celebrating a love so pure it gives me hope for my own. It reminds me… I will not settle for anything less.

The woman I was a year ago felt broken. She is still inside of me, but I have reclaimed my power. I don’t need it all figured out. I just need to keep ascending… as the mother my girls deserve, the daughter filled with gratitude, the friend who always shows up, and the woman building her own path.

I forgive myself for what I couldn’t control, and I take ownership of what I can. I give grace so easily to others, and I am learning to give it to myself. I see now what is not for me, I honor my own needs, I set boundaries and I will continue to do so as I become more fully myself.

I lay down the weight of this year. I carry forward the hope, the clarity, and the promise to keep choosing me.

I am so grateful to celebrate my favorite couple. I constantly say, “if it’s not what they have, I don’t want it” and I will stand by that statement through and through until it finds me. Congratulations, I love you @therealdjshallow @brisul1871

As @bearclaw112 said, may your love continue to burn brighter than the Man.

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I can’t Decide which one is the best so you get them all. Also, I love these fools

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Summer nostalgia pt II

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Historically… New Years isn’t my holiday. New Year’s Day 2023 is when the words “I want a divorce” escaped my lips and I finally left (catching him ‘horse 🐴 around’ with my ‘friend’ that day provided an excellent exit strategy 👀 lowkey thanks, Elizabeth.)

2024 started off no better than ‘23 but while I could fill a whole ocean with tears this year, I’ve also unlocked top-tier relationships.

Being married to a narcissist is a mind fuck. Constantly having to retrain your brain from truths you’ve been conditioned to believe. “You could never be loved… no one’s truly your friend… everyone is using you… everyone talks behind your back.”

I was also living by a belief that I’m a better version of myself in a relationship and kept trying to heal an ache that was haunting me… being without a companion felt like a wound that wouldn’t close… so I had to make a conscious effort to live for ME this year, I’ve never felt better.

I’ve discovered how to breathe with solitude. I’ve made space to accept healing. I’ve dated my friends. I’ve made time to embrace Art. I’ve learned to grow in the dark.

He was right about one thing… there were people in my circle that dropped once I stopped providing a service or monetary gain to them (I’m so sorry for your loss ✌🏻)

But the rest were all his insecurities.

This year was about growing closer to people who really truly fuck with me. Platonic soulmates. People who love me and care about me on a deeper level, who don’t want me for what I can give to them but just to enjoy my company. There were times I gave up this year… they didn’t let me. I couldn’t begin to put into words the selflessness and care and genuine decency I’ve been shown. I’ve experienced thoughtfulness so beautiful that it hurts.

I don’t really believe in the ‘new year, new me’ saying… but instead I’ll approach 2025 as I do with everything else I take on, with endless hope, thriving despite it all.

My kids don’t need a perfect mom, but they do need a happy one and I thank each of you who has shown me grace this year to help keep me afloat. You know who you are.

The hard things always lead to good things.

Xo 💋

#2024recap #trending #motivation #love #newyear

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January
🎟️⛸️ @disneyonice
🚘 @borgataac
🎟️🏈 @nygiants
🚘 @greatwolflodge
🚘 @borgataac
❤️ @yeahhhmegan visits

February
**Tattoo - Self-love is revolutionary
🎟️🎭 @mattrife
**Tattoo - portrait @tombeans
✈️ Malibu
❤️ @isitcharlese visits
🎟️🎶 @meduzamusic

March
✈️ Vail
📍Aspen, Glenwood Springs
🎟️✨ @kellyclarkson taping at @30rock
🎟️🎶 @odd_mob
✈️ Sedona
📍Antelope Canyon, Grand Canyon, Devils Bridge
🚘 Scottsdale
📸 Photoshoot with @livegrowphotography
🖼️ @metmuseum
🎟️🎶 @gamblersbaby

April
✈️ Scottsdale
⚾️ @yankees game
🎟️🎭 @ilana
🎟️🎶 @Marievaunt @maddixmusic
✈️ Vail, Colorado
📍Capitol Reef/Bryce/Zion
🚘Vegas
🎂 Birthday
🎟️🎶 @sicknewworld

May
🎂🎉 Birthday party
✨📸 @babesinbusinesslongisland event
🎟️🎶 @audien
✨📸 BDSM boudoir showcase
🎟️🎶 @loudluxury
⚾️ @yankees game
**Tattoo - Marvel @rebel_ink_tattoo
🎟️🎶 @lunarloungepresents
🎂 Sully’s 50th
⚾️ @mets game
🎟️🎶 @gordoszn
🎉 Anything but Vanilla

June
🏐 Start of beach volleyball
⚾️ @yankees game
🎉 Last Party at the Manor
⚾️ @yankees game
🎟️🎶 @bastianbuxmusic
🎉 Last Last Actually Last Party at the Manor
✌🏻🏠 Move out of 203 Store Hill
🎟️🎶 @soulsummitmusic
⚾️ @yankees game

July

❤️ @isitcharlese and @_tiahmarie_ visit
🚘 White Watee Rafting in PA
✌🏻📸 Move into new studio

August
✨ Gatsby event @ohekacastle
🚘 Glen Falls
⚾️ @yankees game
🎟️🎶 @acraze
✈️ Vegas
✈️ Salt Lake City
📍Wyoming
📍Grand Teton National Park
📍Yellowstone National Park
📍Montana
📍Idaho
🚘 Reno
🚘 Black Rock City
🎟️🎶🎉✨Burning Man

September

⚾️ @yankees game
**Tattoo - Bitch @ianreyestattoos
✨San Gennaro
⛵️ @tallshipboston
⚾️ @yankees game
✈️ Chicago
📍Chain of Lakes @cypressresortandmarine

October
✈️ Miami
⚾️ @yankees playoff game 👎🏻
👻 BFF photo shoot
⚾️ @yankees playoff game 😮‍💨
🚘 Philly
🎟️🎶 @echonomist_music
📸 @jlwithus photoshoot
❤️ @isitcharlese visits

November
🎉 Halloween party
🐱 Salem and Pumpkin
🖼️ @metmuseum
✈️ New Orleans @emerilorg
🍿 @wickedmovie 🧙‍♀️
🚘 @borgataac
🎉 Friendsgiving

December
🎟️🎄@themagicoflights
✨⏱️ @vacheronconstantin
🎟️🎶 @dannytenagliaofficial @len_faki
🍿 Movie/Mufasa
🎟️🎶 @gamblersbaby

#2024recap

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Bring a friend and check out what’s new each week! Every Tuesday @ethylsalcohol.nyc #everytuesday #rubybluesday #ethylsalcoholandfood #tacotuesday #rockandroll #livemusic_uppereastside
#uppereastsidelivemusic #ryanbrahms #jessography #datenight #neighborhoodbar #uppereastside #cocktails #nycbars #barlife #ethylsalcohol #cocktailbar #nycnightlife #dance #danceparty #party #drinkspecials #summer #summertime #summervibes

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Awww back at my sweet 16!! Can’t believe it’s been 16 years since!!! With my brother Dan - lighting his candle!

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Visiting my brother Dan in NY! @bearclaw112

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MIDSUMMER @ VILLA SOLHEM

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@inwoodcountryclub wins the 2021 5-Towns cup! Congratulations to our team for the first victory in 26 years!
Sam Horowitz, Gary Spector, Jared Braithwaite, Dan Fairclough, Spencer Tichner, Jerrold Weinstein, Rich Begun, Robert Chwalik, & Joel Napach! Way to go boys!

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Normally when a customer says "I need to show you something..." it's a bad thing. 🎯 #robinhoodedit

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Made a new friend in the country this weekend... I could get used to this
#buymeahouse #countrypup #dogsofmillerton #wakemeupwhenseptemberends #puppyoftheday #puppygram #cavapoosofinstagam #cavoodle #mayheminmillerton #anupstateaffair #thedogistpuppies #siroliverekstrand

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