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I never rant or really share too much about my personal life on instagram , but there is a reason we are all in this community and I want to take time to share my story. I was born one in a million just like you but I was born with a disease in my veins. The left side of my body is a shock to even the best of vascular surgeons. The pain I experience from this has started from birth. I was born a fighter and I could always push through the pain and try as hard as I could to live normally. No I couldn't play soccer like I wanted and I couldn't wear shorts to school because kids would stare. But that isn't what my life would be about. I started using cannabis at 13 and started to smoke daily by the time I was 15. There was no medical option for marijuana, and even my family wouldnt see it as a street drug. This mentality pushed me to move to Amsterdam. (my dream since I was a little girl) and medicate myself properly. I was operated on about 12 times before I moved. (embolizations)  in the past two years I've been there I have been in the hospital more times than I can count. I can't eat and I've lost most of my weight. I am now having to give up my dog and move back to the states for care. This was two days ago. I rushed to the hospital yesterday and the doctors told me what I already knew. My body is dieing quicker than I could have imagined. I'm stuck between choosing to live my life to the fullest capacity like I have or to focus solely on my health and not get to do the things I want in life while I can. It's the hardest worse experience I've been through but I'm still that little girl fighting. And without the support in this community and by everyone I've surrounded myself with I would not be here. In the end No doctor has answers and no doctor ever will because a disease is not a book. It's a self journey and pain is the loneliness thing you can experience. But life is so much more than what we make it out to be and this part of my journey sucks. But that won't stop me from being happy and loving me and loving you 🌈
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