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For a long time I wondered how I would acknowledge the 10 year anniversary of fleeing from an abusive relationship. The truth is, I had envisioned a much different version of myself for this milestone. I pictured an entirely healed me, one completely unfazed by the assaults I endured. But in October, something in me shifted. Old wounds reappeared in painful ways and it impacted every avenue of my life: work, relationships, creative abilities. With each passing month, it continued to get harder. It is in these seasons that my instinct is to hide. To shut my phone off, to shut out the world, to isolate myself in sorrow. So for several weeks, I did. I left dozens of calls and texts from my loved ones unanswered, unable to find the courage it required to express how deep the pain felt. 

Living with trauma is a complicated dance that I thought I had learned all the moves to. But this decade has taught me that healing really is a lifetime commitment, one that requires adjustments as you continue to grow. Whether it be a new therapist, a new routine, a new perspective, a new approach. For me, it’s looked like all of these things and one more: trusting that I’ve built a community strong enough, dependable enough to help carry the weight of my existence. 
So, for now, I’m sitting at the intersection of celebration and grief with people that love me in ways I never knew I needed. Though it may not be what I had planned, I couldn’t be more grateful for who I’m becoming and who I’m lucky enough to lean on. Here’s to another decade of blooming (and hopefully many, many more) 🤍
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Janvier-le-mois-le-plus-long-de-l’année.
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Recap d’un mois un peu fou : on a vendu le condo, c’était le bachelorette de ma @sharelaude, on bouclait le numéro de Noël du @magazine_vero, Fel a commencé une nouvelle job… et on a acheté un duplex. Rien que ça.

(En prime: plein de moments le fun – et de bonne bouffe – à travers ce marathon!)
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