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SAMĀDHI༴ ། Transformation Heartchitect ♡🪶✨

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Trauma-&-bliss-informed mentor+ transformational guide
For visionaries at an identity threshold
Alchemizing pain ➾ purpose & leadership
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trust yourself & your inner magic ✨

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the moon, wind, waves
at dusk we all return
to what we know,
you can follow me home,
i’ll show you my wings
of golden gilded starlight

📸 photos by the wonderful @freewilding

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Just a couple of flow fairies vibing🧚🏽‍♀️🧚‍♂️

It was my first time in the @labyrinthartbali dome and wow, such epic projections with a wonderful floor to dance on👏🏽

and with music from
@equanimouslove

it was a beautiful experience🙌🏽

🧚‍♂️flow fairy
@freewilding

⭕️⭕️my mini babes are from
@moodhoops

#flow #flowarts #fairies #minihoops #buugeng #toys #

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🪷🐚🌞 What have I been busy with lately? Living life, heart expansion, creating, to name a few. Walking a path that is uniquely mine and SO freeing. Embracing new communities and friendships, finding love and soul tribe. Connection with family, sitting with gratitude. Rediscovering what it feels like to embody my divine feminine and the magic that contains 🪄💫 Undoing years of programming that no longer serves me. Tapping deeper into my intuition, my gifts and talents. Building, recording music to share with you all (sooo soon!). Remembering the sacredness of the present moment and the magic of new beginnings 🕯️to everyone that’s been showing up along the journey, thank you 🫶🏽

Photos by my beautiful friend @freewilding - thank you for making this spontaneous photoshoot come to life, and styling meee ✨✨ such magic creating with an angel 🧚‍♂️ (If anyone in Nosara needs photos taken, Samadhi is the real deal!)

🕯️🤍❀༉‧₊˚. ✿ ⋆°｡⋆♡˚ ‧₊˚✩ 🤍₊˚🎧⊹♡‧₊˚✩ ✿

Below is a passage by one of my favorite poets #KhalilGibran that has been deeply resonating lately :)

“It is said that before entering the sea, a river trembles with fear. She looks back at the path she has travelled, from the peaks of the mountains, the long winding road crossing forests and villages. And in front of her, she sees an ocean so vast, that to enter there seems nothing more than to disappear forever. But there is no other way. The river can not go back.

Nobody can go back.

To go back is impossible in existence. The river needs to take the risk of entering the ocean because only then will fear disappear because that’s where the river will know it’s not about disappearing into the ocean, but of becoming the ocean.”

~ Khalil Gibran

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Nosara February photo dump, last but not least 🤲🏽🪐💫 🦜

A journey starts with a single step, the blueprint is inside you. What a blessing to be able to co-create sound and music experiences with some of the people I love most. See you again soon Costa Rica 💗

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I reached a new embodiment of integrating my “too-muchness” wound ⬇️

Because it’s not “too much”; it’s simply me in however the heck I want to express & be

Sooo story time 📖..this one’s tingling my vulnerability but I feel it’ll resonate

I went on a recent date & we had lots of similar interests, values & intentions for life

Great start

As we walked and adventured around nature/town for about two hours w our matcha & coffee 🍵

He looked at me & said he was catching himself getting frustrated

I just paused & received him in that

He went on; “you’re really cool, this is what I’ve been wanting”

I stay silent & hold space for that to simply exist

“Yet I feel I’m at a capacity; I’m not used to someone being even more open than me..I’m usually that person digging” *it’s all a game of capacity we’re playing 😉*

I took a breath and stayed with myself
Witnessing

“Ok; I understand & I see you, I feel you”

He said he needed to go

I said ok; I respect that

Shocked he goes “I have never had someone receive me in that way like that” & asked for a hug 🫂

We hugged long & deep for awhile
We let go
Our eyes smiled; he goes “that was nice”

I go “yes; yes it was”
*as I felt the imperfect perfect messiness of humans being human*

We parted ways
We didn’t connect at all after that moment

*after digesting that experience a bit*

I was so proud of myself

When back in the day that would have absolutely CRUSHED my self esteem

I felt ease; I felt peace

Because I KNOW deep down; the right person will be able to hold all of me

I hold all of me

And god was giving me the perfect opportunity to hold myself then in that moment; all of who I am

Not making myself wrong
Or bad or even good

This is accepting & loving all of me in action; real time trust and embodiment

When we can do that; we align with the motha-fuckin stars 💫 ppl. To our greatest deepest fully owning desires because we get to be fully who we are

You are not too much for the right people

And maybe; just maybe, god is giving you the chance to EMBODY that truth & feel/respond differently - to fully integrate that knowing truly into wisdom ✨

📸: @freewilding

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Where are you half assing your authenticity?

A question I just recently had to get real honest with myself about.

Your sexual expression.
Your femininity.
Your sensuality.
Your code of how YOU live your life.
Your deepest desires.
Your way of being.
Your unique LIGHT.

How & what you feel is TRUE for YOU in this moment.

I’m not talking about a rebel over exaggerated version; from a place of needing to prove or showing.

I AM talking about what simply wants to be & expressed in the moment AS IS: Authentic.

See the thing is:

Your continuous mirrors around you; playing out in different form. 🪞

Are just reflecting back to you parts of self YOU are indeed rejecting within.

Coming back home to yourself; the journey of embracing your wholeness is one of reclaiming these pieces and parts back.

Usually rooted from childhood & constantly playing out with new faces until we choose to heal; to RECLAIM.

Your authenticity is your biggest activation of your wholeness; it’s your fullest essence that wants to be expressed through you.

It’s all of you.

It’s also hand-in-hand; your biggest magnetizer to your deepest desires, your dream life.

And there’s many deeper rooted variables as I said to WHY we subconsciously continue these.

There’s nothing “wrong” with you.
It’s easier said than done.
Because it takes conscious healing & inner work; having yourself guided gently back home.

To who you’ve always been & are.

And quite honestly; not everyone is ready to face & embrace their authentic self and being.

It can be massively confronting with doing so & the endless projections you will indeed receive from those not ready to walk themselves back home; yet the reward of ten million times liberating if you ask me.

And honestly; is the half assing preventing these things truthfully…definitely not. Only making it harder if you ask me.

So I invite you to simply take a step and ask & inspire within yourself: Where are you DILUTING your very unique authentic existence?

This may be the very key & opening into your greatest healing; into the very life and version of self you so deeply yearn for. 🔑🌹

📸: @freewilding

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Your feminine energy is a direct reflection of the amount of healing you’ve done🪞

I used to be in hyper masculine
Go go go
Defensive
Reactive
Protected
Guarded
Strong-willed overpowering demeanor

“It’s who I was”

Which couldn’t be more FALSE

When I first had powerful mirrors of “feminine energy” in my field & I was still in ^ I was confused AF at how to embody this

In my own version
For my own self
What did this even feel or look like
It was SO foreign to me
I had no healthy role models growing up demonstrating this to me

What I noticed - over my healing journey

The deeper I dove into freeing myself
Liberating myself from the endless conditioning
From the root causes

As all fragments that left me; came back into their natural arrangement of loving wholeness

As my wounds truly transformed into embodied wisdom

As all parts, stories, beliefs began to be given the proper love, attention & care

To gently and lovingly rewrite, reprogram and integrate ✍️

I started arriving into not only my natural authentic beautiful essence that IS & always has been ME

My feminine energy & embodiment; NATURALLY took form
Healing
Radiated
Relaxed
Softened
Open IN my HEART
And simply WAS

Without “trying” or “forcing” it to be as such

Because that doesn’t work when you have a fuck ton of trauma “under the hood” as I’d like to say

It’s like MAKING something be; yet painfully experiencing it in your own personal felt experience differently

It’s fake
It’s forced

To naturally have yourself land back into harmony, peace & your mesmerizing energy and nature…

Healing; true healing from the root is needed.

Only then can you experience the embodied miracle; full spectrum that you ARE & always have been before everything else came/told you otherwise.

And It’s always right there inside of you to access if you choose.✨

📸: @freewilding

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MARCH 29

WE LIVE TO BE NEAR HER

When beauty walks into the room and sits down close to you and is willing to let you gaze at her as much as you want,

no one has to tell you all is alright now, no one has to parrot again... someday your pain won’t exist.

For we live to be near her. She oozes grace. Part of her benediction is that all the hormones you want to come alive do.

Passion in full throttle says to the past, says to worries—go fuck yourself, and the past will crouch down or run... like a pup in the presence of a fierce dog.

When God makes itself more known and all our attention rivets on some aspect of Splendor,

all our internal dialogue—what can it do, but cease to deplete one,

then something lifts our heart toward the Sky.

- Hafiz (A Year With Hafiz)

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Pt 3: I’m not afraid of home anymore. 🏠

For as long as I can remember: I have been.

Growing up I barely was at my own home even.

And I’ll speak for majority of the humans I’ve met that are nomadic & left their roots as well; a lot feel similar.

After healing my roots. And really devoting myself to this.

I genuinely started to FEEL the pulse of a deep desire to be at home.
To be around family.
To spend time in my roots; where I’m from & who is my family, always.

They are a huge part of me.
They are my system.
The ones who surrounded & lived out similar.
Where I was born.

I was even surprised by this deep desire at first; bc it was so new.

Because it’s always in the past been such a “traumatic” experience for me.

I wanted to gaslight it.

But I couldn’t deny what I felt.

So many ppl who I first told I was leaving Nosara asked “for good?”

I said all I know is I’m going HOME.
The rest will unfold exactly how it should.

And after “doing” a lot of the healing work I have been; the real work as we all knows occurs when we’re indeed at home.

Of course fears came up.
Old memories that brought up old patternings surfaced.

But the ultimate freedom of not NEEDING to escape/avoid home anymore; is beyond.

The true freedom that lies in desiring to spend & explore this new me with my family where I’m from is a treasure.

This time - extremely rooted & fully equipped. 💪🏻🌳

The pulse of desire, gratitude & love; endless.

After being nomadic & living in 5 countries now long-term; I know I AM ALWAYS HOME.

That comes with me.

And there’s a lil something special that fills up your love cup when you get to immerse with your own blood, roots & family-kinda home; memories/deepening you’ll never get back.

With the embodiment of curious child-like wonder wandering into this with new eyes; what feels like truly meeting home for the first time in a long time.

We don’t need to be scared of our roots; we need to reunite newly with them. Can you get truly COMFY with the idea of that? *real homey feeling that tingles our souls*. 🫂🥰

THAT’S the real work I believe most of us deeply desire at the core of our beings. Let me know how this lands with you. ⬇️

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My weirdness is my superpower.

My humor is my medicine.

Repeat after me. ⬇️

I’ll not take & make this healing journey so fucking serious.

I’ll do deep work AND laugh my ass off.

My FAVORITE thing to do/have clients do: is pause, zoom out & absolutely cry ridiculous tears of joyous laughter; on the DAILY.

Hysterically might I add where I can’t breathe & takes me several tries to calm down. If you’ve been apart of this experience with me; you know and have joined in. Probably watching me grab 🧻 bc I’m snotting my brains out telling you I think I’m allergic to laughing. 🤣

This WILL guarantee save you your sanity & life on this type of path. Not joking now…😏. I flirtily switch between the wisdom & jokes..now that’s on you to sense into. Hehe.🙃

And I’m inviting you to try this out in your own way to welcome in more of it. It truly HEALS the heart; more than “the work” at times lol.💛

I quite literally see it as a scene in my grand life souls journey & in the moment see how ABSURD what’s happening actually is - that ALL I can do is laugh. HOW could I not?!🎬🌎

One moment you can actually feel like your being is dismantling right before you in the depths of hell - the next you’re in snotty tears of laughter beyond belief. Make it a practice; you’ll get really good at this I promise. 😂

Really; behind the scenes though - if I told you HALF the shit that I’ve experienced; you would think I made it up/couldn’t believe. I need to write a book one day on these alone. Lmao. Tempted to start this bad boy….📖

If you feel me on this drop a “🤪”. And double tap for a “FUCK YES I’m taking on the challenge of doing this” as a confirmation. A-FUCKING-HO ppl! It’s your sacred responsibility to keep it light AND playful at times.🫡👆🏻🥳

📸: @freewilding

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Bringing your pain and upset to family members; my perspective ⬇️

Is that your pain, anger, sadness; all of it is VALID

And to bring it to them can cause even more pain..on both ends *ultimately not leading to the intention most of us have; which is LOVE*

A lot of us “in the work” have a lot of family members that well..are not

It takes a tremendous amount of courage & strength to take responsibility over your healing; esp with family members bc a lot of trauma comes from these childhood wounds

But this doesn’t mean taking the full on mess of it all to them

My approach involves taking radical responsibility over my process & end of the street - where they actually don’t need to be involved

I actually recommend space here - esp for the deep work & really getting in there - it’s gonna get messy and raw 🌪️ which your inner child deserves her or his own space for

And once you’ve landed in a place; of true acceptance - give this time & patience; it’s a process

To then approach - and for me that has been re-building and transforming these relationships into the forms I desire

You come from a whole new lense of awareness and embodiment from this place - from a more healed space💛

Only then can you cleanly come to them from a true place of unconditional love & compassion

This doesn’t mean it’s always butterflies & easy

I’ve learned reestablishing these important relationships comes with speed bumps; sometimes bigger 🏔️👀

And even if you have moments where you do spill over *been here too* you get to forgive yourself; being just as compassionate

Yet knowing it’s still for your deeper liberation & that it gets to occur completely differently 👏🏻

You get to know what to do - how to hold yourself - move through it

With defenses down; your vulnerability present, which therefore means your heart

Which is where you can really reach them

The path of GRACE & immense amounts of LOVE this type of path requires is truly beautiful 🕊️

I would love to hear from you your experience with this. I know it has been one of my biggest challenges; which has alchemized into such a strength. My dms are always open for a more private space. 🙏🏻

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