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Njalo Njalo produced by @madlib with @rapsody and yours truly. 

God is good, all the time
All the time, God is good!

See you tomorrow at 94a Santon Drive
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I’m an alcoholic.

I was so happy. I wanted to tell everyone I met. Like that story about Galileo and him screaming eureka eureka! That’s what it felt like the first time I said I’m an alcoholic. It was a revelation. An understanding. A peace. 

On Monday the 23rd of September 2024 I had concluded the only solution that made sense was death. A casualty of everything we are uncovering in the #madlangacommission I had been unemployed for 5 years. I was constantly in fear. My fear enabled me to be revictimised over and over again. My life, for the first time ever, was on a downward spiralling trajectory. That sounds like an oxymoron but it isn’t, i was spiralling with trajectory! 

Next thing my sister @thandiswamazwai was in my room in my flat, then mu uncle, then my other sister @miss_ntsiki_mazwai then my brother @osamazwai then a whole lot of family members and then, before I knew it, I was in an ambulance headed to rehab.

I never would have gone on my own.
I never would have said I’m an alcoholic
I would have had less of a life
I would never have known peace
I would never have shared presence with God
I would have died young even if i had lived till I was 80 years old. 

21 days after that fateful day, on that day that God came to find a lost lamb, I rejoiced! I’m an alcoholic. I have a sickness and the cure to the sickness i have is not chemo or dialysis, it’s community.

After that day my life has been in an upward whirlwind trajectory. Every today is always better than yesterday.

Since then, I’ve been back on my path and aligned with my purpose even though my purpose is not known to me, I trust that it is known to the universe, known to God, and so I surrender.

Tomorrow I have a song coming out with my sister @rapsody called Apple Juice. One of my greatest gifts of sobriety was reconnecting with Rapsody, showing off my home #Soweto, and kickstarting recording my own album coming out later this year. 

My greatest gift of sobriety though, is community. 

As an addict, my world kept getting smaller and smaller until i was sprawled drunk and despondent on my bed which had become my whole world. As a sober alcoholic, my world is limitless. #AppleJuice
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