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I am so excited to announce my new single, “Hard To Leave” on Feb 14 🥀
What an incredible opportunity it’s been to work with these amazing people. 
The way this song came together was perfect. The vocals you hear were done the day we wrote it. We went back 3 different times but couldn’t beat what we did on day one lol.
I hope y’all enjoy this one 🥀
Production/Mixing/Master: @brentmccmusic 
Guitar: @brentwilsongtr 
Drums: @kiplingallen 
Cover Art: @ashleyhaskins 
Photo/Video: @aron_duty_media 
#feb14
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Thank you to everyone who helped us celebrate Berks birthday this weekend. A little rowdy, a bit unhinged, but a lot of fun. I think we did Berk proud.
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Hey Berk,

It’s been a while since I last talked to you. This week has been a bit tough. Today is your 23rd birthday. We made it to LA to be with the boys to celebrate the way you’d want us to. Three days ago Mom, Chan and I filled urns of your ashes to be given to your best friends and leave a little piece of you in the ocean at your favorite beach. I still can’t wrap my mind around the fact that you aren’t with us any more and never will be again. Placing what’s left of you in little decorative containers was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. 

It’s surreal that this is what’s left of you. Looking at all the pictures of you, your trophies, sports jerseys, memorabilia and accomplishments you acquired in the short time you had on earth broke my heart all over again. I’d give anything even to go back to that hospital just so I could hold your hand and talk to you again. I don’t know if you could even hear me, but I tried to explain what had happened and everything the doctors were doing. I hope you know how much you are missed here. There’s an emptiness that will never be filled. We went out to eat at Sol last week, where we had your 21st birthday dinner and made you take a birthday blowjob shot. It felt quieter, a spot left empty, where you should be. There will only be 4 of us now. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to sit down as a family and not feel your absence. 

The boys built you a bar, so you will always be a part of any major life events and celebrations in their lives. I’ve been able to meet some of your friends from LA, and learn more about who you had been growing into the last few years. The stories I’ve heard make me happy and proud. You touched the lives of so many people and made a mark on their lives in such an incredible way. Your laughter is missed. Your enthusiasm is missed. Your love is missed. Your yelling is missed. Your presence is missed. You are missed. 

Happy Birthday, Berk-a-Bean. I love you forever. 

Love, Madi
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