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I had to write a letter I made a mistake I acted upon false narrative and my own believe but the truth was my brother couldn’t cope how could he at early 20s lose his mum and look after a baby brother and his own kids and deal with mental health I blamed him for so much and. I never gave him the opportunity to explain I’m sorry for that I’m sorry for. I could of been the reason you loved life but I was selfish I was stubborn I now understand your struggles I never thought I’d had to do this but I do and I hope you can forgive me for it’s to late. Rest in peace Wayne our mum holds you I let you down I let her down I let me down. Your always be my mums son your always be my brother but I had every opportunity to find you and comfort you an I ignored that now I live with that regret I’m sorry by @the.bigpad

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Its sad when someone you know becomes someone you knew and when your happiness becomes pain people ask why I don’t smile I’m never happy because I’m in a pain that can only be treated by my death I live for the fact I honour my mothers existence and that’s it i choose life over death because my mum would want me to continue this journey no matter all the trauma and the scars I have I do this for her don’t treat your mum special on one day treat her like she should be deserved everyday for today is a gift tomorrow is a mystery and we never no when the clock will stop ticking happy Mother’s Day to everyone’s mums present and passed to new mums and people who adopt kids that was in my world 🌍 ❤️🫡 I salute you by @the.bigpad

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How beautiful was my mum 😭 I was gifted this proper picture of my mum this evening yes it’s a restored picture to you to me it’s a chance to see her again in hd the fist clear view in 32 years to see how beautiful she is how proud she is how strong she was a woman with terminal cancer a daughter with the strongest form off schizophrenia me as a toddler and a son who abandoned her a man who left her to deal with all of this while being ill shes my hero she never gave up on me rest in peace mum you never heard me say i love well i love you more then anything or anyone in this world we missed a life of living together. And im so angry for that god took you because he needed you more then I do i don’t blame him for that you could only make heaven a better place @__naughty_but_nice__ thank you for this I’m truly moved and touched ❤️❤️ by @the.bigpad

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6 months ago

Official statement Sorry I couldn’t be there with the lads but it’s coming home The knee injury strikes again @england let’s go 3 🦁 🦁 🦁 I have all believe that the lads are well prepared and will do the nation proud by @the.bigpad

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11 days ago

Yh man little dump by @the.bigpad

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The city is buzzing What a feeling I found my self with the galatasaray fans celebrating there league title this evening what a moment I found myself in unbelievable Jeff taken in Istanbul, Turkey by @the.bigpad

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10 thousand feet above ground Something I always wanted to do but never had the drive to but Today a Achievement was unlocked and a dream came true and it’s a moment I’ll build off #skydive #completed #fyp by @the.bigpad

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I need to record man Its been a while since I wrote and even vented like this #pain #reallife #itiswhatitis #life by @the.bigpad

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4 months ago

You learn more from defeat then you do winning but to appreciate winning you must taste the trials and tribulations in defeat and appreciate pain by @the.bigpad

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6 months ago

Time to heal by @the.bigpad

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6 months ago

I DONE IT ….. It’s official I’m 365 days alcohol free 🎉 🙌 🙏 let’s go for 2 by @the.bigpad

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7 months ago

The first slide was 11 30pm on the 31 12 24 I said a year no drink no booze . It’s 2025 and there’s treble in the cabinet 365 days alchol free fit and healthy and that’s the man thing being fit and having good health yes there been lots of ups lots of downs but I hope to build of this year I hope my mum would be proud I’ve achieved so much in the way off mental discipline now. It’s time to practice what I preach thank you everyone who’s helped me this year thank you for doubting me even more so I wish you all health peace stability onwards from this moment let 2026 bring you what you pray for this years been better then last to say the least mentally we have work love all my brothers and sisters who have helped me this year I am truely grateful by @the.bigpad

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