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Leonidas A.

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3 months ago

To Okolo Nas - Reisetagebuch

Die Welt hat mich heute mal wieder überrascht.
Ich habe heute Liebe gesehen. Fürsorge.
Ich habe heute ein Eis bestellt in einer Sprache, in der ich vor zwei Wochen nur drei Worte konnte. Ich habe eine ganze Konversation geführt ohne dass ich sie verstanden habe und mal wieder gesehen - wir sind nicht so verschieden.

Bratislava ist ein sehr faszinierender Ort. Es ist gelebtes Europa. Es ist Deutschland gemixt mit..Slowakei? Bratislava eben. Es erinnert mich teilweise an Asien.

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I know I am doing something right. I'm on the right path, cause when the airplane takes off, all the worries get so much smaller and irrelevant. It points me in the right directions.

Die Slowak*innen sind nett und freundlich. Hier sieht man auch, dass Fördermittel der EU gut eingesetzt werden. Bratislava hat einen sehr guten, günstigen und oft verkehrenden öffentlichen Transport mit einem klaren, einfachen System. Bratislava fühlt sich an wie eine europäische Stadt.
Vielleicht liegt es aber auch daran, dass es eine europäische Hauptstadt ist, das habe ich seit Jahren nicht mehr erlebt.

- 25. März, cirka 8:15? -
We just left the borders of Bratislava and it's 129 km to Brno.

Vela body teťie
Dunajom så nesiě

Und auch das hat sich jetzt letztendlich bewahrheitet, ich habe wahrscheinlich zum zweiten Mal in meinem Leben die Donau gesehen (sie fließt in der Nähe von Günzburg entlang, wo meine Oma herkommt) taken in Bratislava, Slovakia by @this_is_leonidaas

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6 months ago

Wie viel ist ein Leben wert?
100 Euro? 100 Stunden? Wie wiegt man so etwas auf, und warum können wir nicht alle ein bisschen mehr Mensch und voller Liebe sein?
Idk, ich habe zur Zeit ein bisschen Schreibblockade, aber hier ist jedenfalls Ferdinand-Ute, die gerettete Taube, die zur Zeit Ihr Leben bei mir fristet.

Jedenfalls werde ich immer helfen wollen und ich bin dankbar für die Menschen um mich herum, die das gleiche tun.

(Luca, wenn du das hier siehst, ich liebe dich und bitte mach sowas nicht nochmals). by @this_is_leonidaas

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7 months ago

Picture from a trip with @matothiswater in September taken in Gjøra, More Og Romsdal, Norway by @this_is_leonidaas

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10 months ago

/shut your eyes and think of somewhere ~

What a year this has been, my lovelies 💕
What a year

( - my 2025 recap-)

-and with every broken bone-
I threw myself into the unknown

(Coming home from my friends and being inspired)

It all started with a pang and a stolen kiss. It started when I kissed my best friend on new year's, almost a year ago.
It continued on with hin realising he's not into men, blah blah, me staying with him cause I don't know how to fall out of love, blah blah, etc. Pp.
I moved into a new place. With the most amazing roommate, who has saved me quite some times and always made my life shine. Love you and miss you, Jon William. You came into my life like the flood you are. Gentle and secure.

I found a graveyard, I found my walks. I found midnight sun (or rather 2 AM sun). I found music.

First, I found refuge. Then I found a home. I spent more time in Heimdal than in Moholt, but slowly, I got there.
I planted flowers I'd save, one at a time, slowly picking out the rocks from the ground and filling it with life. I found @makentnu (a turning point), finally a spot where I'd belong to, be welcomed with my nerdiness, which was not a person.
I found friends who'd hold me close.

I spent some time in Oslo. I met amazing people. I lived with my friends. And in the last night, a intense embrace. He'd soon fall in love.
When I came back, after my first time being homesick, after finally seeing what's home again, things would soon change.
And after we broke, and after I learned the value of absolute honesty, love would soon come knocking to my door.
I met a boy in the sofa room, which made me wary of falling in love, cause he had a light around him, but in love, he could not be. And for foolness, I was not to be had. And yet our love was like a movie. A short one, but a life fully lived.

I met more friends. I packed up my things. Way too fast, the last weekend came. I had my friends around me, but it was not sad. Cause I knew I'd be back, I always knew. Oh goodness, what beauty. What beauty, when I look at my friends. All my world I'd give to them for they are my world.

-continued in comments taken in Trondheim, Norway by @this_is_leonidaas

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10 months ago

The one big lesson that I've learned in this season was about honesty.

How it does make and break things. How it is truly everything. And it's hard for me. Hard for me, who has lived his entire life as a lie.
There's things I'm not yet ready to face about myself. But some people make me braver. Honesty is everything. There is nothing more important than being honest.

Another thing I've found is loyalty.
I really never thought of myself as loyal. Turns out; I apparently very much am. (I am fiercefully loyal..) I got told that multiple times lately now

(That is because I don't know how to fall out of love)
(I
am
a lifelong commitment).

Little extra - text I wrote some while ago->

"Last year I read a poem about being difficult to love
Someone comes by and ..shows that you're not.
Like this guy would just hold my hand in public
And ..kiss me. In an airport!

There's people who'll say that they miss sleeping with me and that tell me they're happy I came over
And then there is the ones complaining that they're not your sleeping pill when you tell them how calm you feel when they're around

There is people whose eyes light up when they see you
And then there is those who don't even fricking care anymore if you stop liking them"

To be loved. Is to be held.
// Post from 25th September 2025 taken in Trondheim, Norway by @this_is_leonidaas

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a year ago

Throw yourself into the unknown
With pace and a fury defiant.

They say no matter how far you run, that you can't escape from your problems. And I can say now that that's true. As part of a history that has already been everywhere, it can be difficult finding and writing your own path.

I have travelled all this way to find family. To lose family. To still not know where I truly belong. To learn of new habits and find peace sitting in the sun and looking outside into the grass ❤️
I've travelled all this way to learn more about myself. Who I truly am and where life leads me. This summer I've learned the value of home and how there is nothing more valuable than something to hold. (And god damn, my amazing group of friends)

[More text might follow - not quite fornøyd with the caption yet]

Thanks to @andreas.eggen for the picture :) and the amazing experiences 🫶 taken in Narvik by @this_is_leonidaas

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a year ago

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Danke für die wunderschöne Zeit. Du fehlst mir aber jetzt schon.🥲 taken in Trondheim, Norway by @this_is_leonidaas

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2 years ago

Throw yourself into the unknown
With pace and a fury defiant
Clothe yourself in beauty untold
And see life as a means to a triumph

Today of all days, see
How the most dangerous thing is to love
How you will heal and you'll rise above
Crowned by an overture bold and beyond
Ah, it's more courageous to overcome

It's been a turbulent year I'd say, how do you think?
I've been hurting and grieving, I have been healing and growing
There's so many things I am still letting go and god, I am proud of how far I have come. I am a way better, healthier and kinder person now. I have become softer. I have become softer through the love I have gotten. Through the steady and unwavering support of all of my friends.
I am so proud. There's still so much I gotta learn and so many things in which I have to grow. I have realised my planning is sometimes shit. I have realised I take too little time. And I have realised that I laugh too little. I am grateful for all the people that are on the way alongside with me and who teach me all that. I am so lucky to get all this warmth from you. All the wonderful souls I have found and who really look out for me. I know I haven't always been the best friend. I know I haven't been so great all the time. Stuff has been tough and some things you only know later.

But I have also overcome so much. I am growing and healing. And God I am so proud of myself for healing. It's so courageous to overcome.

Here's to 2025. To all the things that are truly important. Cause isn't it great that we are all here? Isn't it amazing that we get to share this moment. Thanks for all of you. I have you in my heart and I will always love you. Please come home.
Takk for alt. taken in Fosen by @this_is_leonidaas

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2 years ago

✨️GIVEAWAY!✨️

(English Version below, 'cause we're mr. worldwide!)

So, ihr Lieben, FSME Impfung für Norwegen ist drin und ich möchte ein Giveaway hosten bevor ich erstmal weg bin!
Ich habe in dem gesamten letzten Jahr (oder vielleicht sogar zwei) nur ein einziges* Kunstwerk geschaffen
Und habe auch wirklich lange gebraucht, um den Prozess zu vollenden, aber Dank dem forwährenden Support der @druckgrafischewerkstaetten_ude und dem unerschütterlichen Glauben von @matthiasplenkmann (Tausend Dank an der Stelle!) habe ich diese limitierten Siebdrucke rausgebracht.
Und weil demnächst CSD ist, pride month war, non binary awareness week war und wir honestly einfach ein bisschen mehr Schönes im Leben brauchen, habe ich mich entschieden ein kleines Gewinnspiel zu machen :))
Jede:r darf kommentieren, also:

❤️liked den Beitrag
💬kommentiert etwas

(Könnt ja mal schreiben ob ihr beim Kölner CSD seid dieses Jahr!)
Und schon seid ihr dabei. Ich möchte niemanden dazu drängen mir zu folgen oder was schreiben zu müssen, aber freue mich natürlich, was Liebes zu hören und wenn ihr mich cool findet, könnt ihr mir gern folgen!

✨️Als Hauptpreis gibt es den special "ALIENS HABEN MEINEN PENIS GEKLAUT" -print mit ✨️Glitzer-"Penis" (davon gibt es nur zwei Stück) mit Rahmen, einen non native German learner aka "Aliens haben meine Penis geklaut", eine liebe Karte und eine Trans Flag 🏳️‍⚧️
🏳️‍🌈 Platz zwei und drei kriegen wahlweise einen "aliens haben meinen penis geklaut" oder die non native speaker Version
🦉Und zusätzlich verlose ich unter allen noch eimal ein plushie paket, ein normales für zu Hause und das Keychain equivalent für unterwegs!
(I might also throw in some goodies here and there! 🤭)

Ich lose am Samstag um 15 Uhr aus (damit es die Leute die am Samstag auch schon in Köln Feiern sind, es auch mitbekommen) und nachdem ich die Drucke alle signiert und durchnummeriert habe, kann ich sie in Köln auf dem CSD persönlich überreichen oder per Post schicken 💪(internationale Gewinner*innen müssen ggf. Auf den Rahmen wegen zu großer Paketmaße verzichten)

Gewinnspiel ist natürlich nicht mit Meta assoziiert usw., usf., keine Barauszahlung etc etc.
Drucke kaufbar! taken in Universität Duisburg-Essen by @this_is_leonidaas

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2 years ago

Because, you know,.. sometimes there are journeys from where there will be no coming back.

-19. Mai 2024, 14:45-

Is when I got the message. "Your uncle fell asleep. Forever" or as we in Germany tend to say haha.
Now without wanting to play favourites, I really don't- he was my favourite uncle (sorry to all my others). I loved going to his house and place. It was always so distinct. I loved being at their place. It was always like a home. It was so special. Haha. I can still smell his smell, the Cologne was so special that he wore and I know how his house smells like and I knew what would have been his favourite treats and what was for breakfast haha - it was almost always the same. I loved it (it was fruit salad) oh and ham. He loved serrano. They always had serrano. I love serrano, too. I loved him very much and I wish I could have been more for them there. - uncle tonis leaves behind 3 children and 3 grandchildren. Three siblings and countless nephews and nieces (uhm... 9 I believe from our family side) and countless people who loved him very much. He was a really great person. I loved his smile and laugh and his voice was so great and special. He had such a deep voice and the French kiss on the cheek for a goodbye.
Now what would be the worst is that I could not get to say goodbye. I never want to be denied that. Because to me that's one of the most important things in live. I will get to say goodbye I hope in the funerals. But please make sure I can say goodbye. I will come from wherever and that's why I write letters to say things to people if I die ; -
I think the shock will hit much later, maybe tomorrow or at the funeral - no clue where or when it will take place - but yes, right now I am just tired from my long journey and just wanna lay down and sleep -.
His last messages to me were (and I really didn't want to look at them) just organisational stuff. So that does not break my heart too much.
The best thing is that I got to see him last year at my aunts big birthday party.
I don't know how to deal with this yet.; and I don't know how it will influence me. But I am also glad for my great friends who listen to me. Thanks. I love you. by @this_is_leonidaas

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2 years ago

And - /it's finally quiet again/

Getting answers to questions long asked? - indescribable.
The clarity of mind and soul that I felt was indescribable.
Getting to know your best friend fell away cause of a girl he liked? - hmm, also indescribable, in another way. But it's always about explanations, isn't it?
But knowing that there are people who will wait for you and that not all home is lost, when -home- is lost cause home has always been a place and not a feeling and a person and always you. And that your home will never be lost, cause I'll always carry home in my heart. I will carry you in my heart.
Cause you have been my first home and you won't be the last; - cause I have learned that home is - not only what you seek.
But what one <builds> as well.
And how I would've loved to tell you that cutting off all your friends and the past won't make you happy but you would've not listened anyway -
This is for you nils, and this is not for you- cause this is for your parents who're not who've built you but only who have ceased- and those who would open the door for me and never wouldn't have let me in - cause you knew I'd be standing in front of that door and you would have known that facing yourself -
Is always the hardest part.
So I thank you and tell you that I know
That you have done the best you could. And the only things.
And I know it always comes how it comes and that people won't know me anymore - I once told you I'd forget your voice. And how you move - but I would never forget, how you danced, that night.
I don't know a lot about you anymore.
And people will forget your jobs. And your name. And your pronouns !?. But they would never forget your face And how much you loved to drink tea - ❤️
So when I rang and asked - and my heart was beating to my toes- and they answered and they answered, and said, come in, would you like some tea? And, where's the journey to? You are so packed - wait let me help you, yes, just put it down somewhere. Wait, you left your bow the last time, - I have kept it save for you. I hope I'll still find all the arrows. And you know about the sign language and you know about how the deaf people have it hard? And you know how- taken in Hilchenbach by @this_is_leonidaas

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2 years ago