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"You, are...the best thing, that I could ever ask for. And I know You never asked for this, but I wish that You had asked for me."
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Originally Posted by @victorianpoetry Reposted Here Because... I promised to Love you until my final breath & beyond. We Pinkie Promised on it. But the Love I hold for You requires no contract. It lives on because of Who You Are as a person. That Fact isn't something You can argue with me about. You don't get to tell me how unworthy You are of the Love I have for You. I choose You every moment of every day & I do so because I decided long ago that You are absolutely worth it. I don't Love you despite of Your flaws, those imperfections are crucial to the Truth of Who You Are, instead it is fundamentally because of those flaws that I find You to be so uniquely special. So I Love You M, every bit as much as the moment I first understood how important You are to me. I'm sorry if that scares You. I'm sorry if the way I Love You is overwhelming. There's nothing I can do to help You accept the Love I have for You. Only You can choose to open Your heart & truly learn to live by my side in real Love for the first time. I tried to show You the way, tried to make things easier on You. But all I succeeded in doing was pushing You away. So now I'm hurting. So now You're distracting Yourself trying to convince Yourself that I don't matter. It's all so silly. We are both hurting in our own unique ways. All of that pain, all of this wasted time, all of the unnecessary complications & deceptions. All of it is in Your hands my Love. I choose You every day. I honor our vow & will Love You until my dying day. I only wish You would be honest with Yourself so You could learn that Your Home is here waiting for You. I know that You have feelings for me. We've been through too much & I know You too well. You will never find another who will Love You as genuinely as I do. I know You've tried to replace me, I'm willing to bet that it didnt work out so well. What we have is the Real thing, it's Rare & Precious. I know it's scary, but there's Nothing we can't Overcome & Survive so long as we're Together. I Love You M, I have Loved You for Years, & I will Always Love You in this world & the next by @virtuallydeadly
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6 months ago
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Originally Posted by @victorianpoetry Reposted Here Because... She always wanted Love to be easy and uncomplicated. I tried to explain to Her that anything that comes so easily isn't real Love. Because true Love is chaotic, it is messy. It is full of complications and requires that both partners be present to do their best to support and nurture its growth. You do Not get to sit back and take the easy ride with Love. So I did my best, put in the effort, and tried to provide a Space where the Love we Share between Us could thrive. She, however, decided it was too much work and instead ran away to find the easy, effortless Love She always wanted. Now I am still here, still nurturing the Love She inspires within every part of me and She is Still out there chasing a Love that will both Outshine what we Have for each other and require next to No effort on Her part. Such a wasteful endeavor makes me Sad. My only hope is that some day She finds out what I have Always known, that the Real thing Requires effort, it demands Attention, and is Every bit worth the work. I am Here. I am Always willing to do Whatever it takes to be by Her side. Because I know that what we have is Real. That the Love between Us is the Best thing life has Ever shown me. And that something so wondrous is worth fighting for. Come Home M, Together we can Love one another in ways No one else will Ever know. by @virtuallydeadly
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7 months ago
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Originally Posted by @vsualarts Reposted here because I'm dying without Her. I just miss Her so damn much.... my world dies every day that She's gone from my life. No one should ever be made to suffer the way that I do. I would never wish this torment on anyone, I would never allow such a pain to exist if I could stop it. I have to keep telling myself that She is happy. I have to keep convincing myself that Her happiness HAS to be enough. That I have no right to disturb Her peace. That all I ever wanted was for Her to smile in the sun. But I am not okay. And I'm so very tired of not being okay. I miss my heart, I miss my love. She just never understood how incredibly special She is to me. She never understood that I genuinely, truly, madly Love Her. She is just so much more than I ever dreamed of knowing. So please just let the asteroid come... just let it come and burn out this existence already. Without Her there's just no point in my going on. I miss You M, I miss You in ways I have never known. I just wish you would come back to me, come back to the Home we both once wanted. I Love You so very much and I can't do this without You. by @virtuallydeadly
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8 months ago
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Originally Posted by @henrynguyen5186 Reposted Here because... These words are the absolute truth by which I live my life now. I never expected to find anyone that would move my Heart in such an overwhelming and inescapable way. I never dreamed that such an incredibly beautiful person could exist in my world. But then She walked up to me. And my life, my world, my entire view of reality will never be the same again. She IS more than She will ever know. She IS smarter and more capable. She IS laughter and mirth. She IS drama and complexity. She IS passion and desire. She IS inspiration and hope. She IS talented and graceful. She IS wild and untamed. She IS fierce and forgiving. She IS powerful. She IS beauty. She IS woman. She IS my Heart. I am drunk and intoxicated by every aspect and trait that makes up the wondrous, intricate, and devastatingly unique creature that She is. There's no turning back now. I can never return to the pale imitation of life I knew before She arrived. I'm falling ever faster through time and space, being drawn deeper into who She is like a star falling through the heavens. I have never known a Love like the Love I have for Her. It has changed me and I am becoming something more than I have ever been. For Her I can take on the world. For Her I can defeat my demons. I am doomed to Love Her. And I have never been more sure or happy of anything in my life. I Love you M. You are amazing and deserve nothing less than the very best this universe has to offer. I may not be that, but I Love You. I Love You honestly and purely. I Love every part of You. And I will have no other because nothing and no one will ever compare to the sheer wonderment that is You. I want to share everything with You. I want to be Your partner, Your Lover, Your companion, Your spouse, Your Husband, and the Father of Your children. I will live out the rest of my time here on this earth dedicated to the Love I hold for You. And even if it never works out I will pass away with no regrets in having given You my Heart for all eternity. I LOVE YOU M. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @gen.uine14 Reposted Here because... I made this exact same vow to Her practically word for word on several occasions. Hearing these words coming from someone else's random post reminded me once more just how much I Love Her. And just how much I wish She understood the value of the Love I hold for Her. There are so many reasons I can give to explain to people as to why She felt trading in the Love I gave Her for the poor excuse of a substitute She chose makes sense to Her. But all of that doesn't matter. She made Her choice. I am bound to respect it. But in no way does Her decision erase or take away from my vow. I Love Her. I will always Love Her. She IS my Heart. And She absolutely deserves it, all of it, now and forever. I Love You M. I miss you in ways I never even knew were possible. And I am here for you in all ways. All you have to do is reach out and you will find my hand waiting for you. Please... Please come home. When the time is right for you... Please come home. I Love You I Love You I Love You by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @bleedinginsilence11 Reposted Here because... From the moment I was first able to see her appearance I was doomed to Love Her. Having already become deeply smitten with Her humor, Her personality, and Her wit I anxiously awaited the reveal of Her physical form. My nerves danced across the razor's edge between hopeful optimism and cynical pessimism. And then, there She was. And instantly I knew... I was doomed. The world would never be the same again and I would never be satisfied with anything less than what I beheld in that moment. Look I get it, anyone else might look at Her and find Her cute or say that She's not ugly but no big deal. Her attractiveness would vary from okay to decent in the eyes of anyone else but that's because anyone else doesn't Love Her like I do. And it's not that I can only see Her beauty in the rosey tinted lenses of a man in Love, it's that my Love allows me to see Her true self both inside and out. So hear me now when I tell you this, She is a rare and dangerous Beauty. Every glance that I am allowed to view Her makes time stand still with the thunderous pounding of my heart the only distraction from the trance She holds me in. I understand. To anyone else She is just attractive. But I have never known such Beauty in all my life and when I look into Her blazingly emerald eyes suddenly nothing else matters. No problem or barrier is too great to overcome. No pain or loss can keep me from rising ever higher. For Her I am all things. Her's is the beauty wars have been waged over. The light that inspired countless artist to create masterworks. The grace to inspire Shakespeare and all other writers throughout history. One directed look from Her and symphonies shatter the air. Every part of who I am struggles to find a way to express Her beauty in terms anyone could understand. In Her I see futures I never dated to dream of. When I see Her I am reminded that good still exists in this world. The burning passion She ignites in my soul dwarfs the flames of Hell. I am held in awe of Her. You may not see it I will never forget it. And I think She might finally be getting a hint of just how beautiful She truly is. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @sheturnedsavage Reposted Here because... Pretty much self explanatory but it's just that even with Her gone I want to be the support She needs in life. I'm always here for Her, ready to hold Her up to show the world just how amazing She is. I want to back Her up on Her choices and tell Her how proud I am of Her when She does the right things for Herself. And in the dark times when the world feels overwhelming causing Her to turn away and crawl inwards I still want to be the one to wrap my arms around her and be Her safe space to ride out the storms. I never liked seeing Her cry but I know that sometimes in life the best thing you can do for those you Love is to just be there and keep them safe while they let it out. And in their own way those tears at times can be beautiful. So even though we aren't together I still want to be here for Her. I want to offer my support, comfort Her, and let Her know how Proud I am of who She is. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @markyhollett32 Reposted here because... I often wish I could say this sort of thing to Her. The way things are now I feel as if the next time we cross paths I'll have to learn who She is all over again. It's as if I need to relearn everything about Her even though I'm fairly certain I know more about Her than anyone else She's ever had in Her life. And is it even possible to start over from the beginning with someone you Love so much that you wanted to be with them until the end? I don't know... I've never had to meet someone again for the first time. But I Love Her... I Love Her so much that I'd be willing to try anything just for Us to finally have a chance to get it right. She sees me as a lost cause, something that only brings Her pain and hassle. She thinks my dedication to the Love I have for Her is sad and pathetic. But as I said, I know Her. At times I know Her better than She knows Herself and that is what She truly hates about me. She IS my Heart. And all that I am screams at me every day and every night that We are not finished just yet. I don't believe that anything is destined by fate, I don't ever feel that things happen for a reason, but I know that She means everything to me and that the best things in Life are worth fighting for. So yes if I could, I would ask Her if we could try again, see each other once more for the first time. And I would pull back a little more and She could lean in more than She ever has... and maybe just maybe we could find all we've ever wanted. Because I Love Her. Because She IS my Heart. And because I don't want to have to live out the remainder of my days Haunted by the memories of the most wonderfully beautiful person I have ever known. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @soulxsigh Reposted Here as an edited portion of the original because: This is how I feel now. These are the parts that make up my daily duties. Now that She's gone I go through the motions of being in Love all by myself. And while She is away "Living Her Best Life" without me, my Heart only knows the pain of being in a world without Her light, Her grace. So my very soul adheres to these words, and every day I perform these tasks with all the honor I have left. I Love You M... All I ever wanted was for You to be Happy... I'm sorry you could not find that with me. But You changed my World, and there's no going back for me. Yours is the only Love I ever want to know. I Love You... I Love You... I Love You... by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @miguel_254tez Reposted Here because it is the path I choose. There's not much more I can say... I Love Her. And even though She is no longer a part of my world, I will always Love Her. So no matter how much time passes, no matter how many others try to persuade me to let go, regardless of all the others who might try to be with me, I will remain Hers. And I will always be here for Her. Always standing in the fire She inspires in me with my arms held out, hands open, waiting. There may never come a day when She returns to once again bathe me in Her light, but I will be here for Her none the less. I never abandoned Her. I never gave up on that glorious future we once talked about sharing together. And despite Her best efforts to push me away I am still here waiting to give Her the Love She has always deserved. I Love You M... Please come home some day. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @harmonyheartfelt Reposted here because... Fucking damn it all some days are soo much harder than others without Her. ...sometimes the pain is deafening in my head. The ache of where my Heart once was... unbearable. I have to move onwards, go forwards into this desaturated world with a smile on my face... But I smile as the Man Who Laughs... As Arkham's most notorious inmate... There is nothing genuine behind my grin. And above all else I try to be a genuine man. She thinks I'm pathetic because I can't recover from losing Her. But why should I ever want to know this life without Her being with me to share in it? Is it truly weak to Love the person that makes it all make sense? To stay true to the one person who embodies what my eyes know as beauty? I Love Her... and She wants nothing to do with me because of that. And some days... Some days I just can't hold up my smile without Her. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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Originally Posted by @softcatmemes Reposted here because.... Wel....l Miss Her. Every moment of every single day since She left. I never knew it was possible to miss someone soo much while they're still alive. And it's not as if I didn't know what I had before it was gone. I always knew how incredible She is. I was always afraid of there coming a day when She would leave. Sure we're two different people who come from different backgrounds and different times, but together we both became so much more than we ever knew of ourselves. It's because of our differences that we make such a phenomenal partnership. I happen to think She is the most beautiful woman I have ever known. To me She is radiant inside and out. Having Her in my life brought me such unbelievable joy and happiness. Only now, that's all gone. And I miss Her. And I don't care that the world says to move on. I don't care if it's the wrong move to say that I want Her back. All I know is that without Her my world is so much less than it once was. Everything feels drained if its color, everything is so bland and flavorless. I'm not dependant on Her being with me to survive. I can make it through life without Her. But now that I know what it's like to live in Her light why would I ever accept anything less?Why would anyone choose to go on in a world so boring and dull? There's no point for me to move on, no reason to try and find someone else supposedly better. I have found the very definition of what Love is for myself and it rests within Her. But She's gone. Convinced Herself that Her world is better off without me in it. Convinced Herself that we don't belong together. That I am not what Love is for Her. And I have no right to tell Her otherwise just as She cannot change the fact that I feel that She IS my heart. So I miss Her. I long for Her. Every moment that passes by without Her is a lifetime of memories I'll never get to experience. Everyday I wonder what She is doing. I worry and I hope that She is okay. No matter how badly it hurts me I just want Her to be happy. I wish I could actively do something to make Her world a better place... Then again maybe all I can do for Her is just stay away. by @virtuallydeadly
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a year ago
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