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〰️ "you are not breaking. you are not broken. you are unfolding." - @lucafogale in "unfolding" taken in Valley Bar by @xtrarodpitts

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〰️ these beautiful arizona sunsets taken in Downtown Phoenix by @xtrarodpitts

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〰️ great way to end the weekend at @pembertonphx @babyboyphx @eatsaintpasta with @alexisrozella!

fucking amazing all around! 🤤❤️ by @xtrarodpitts

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〰️ w k n d w / a l x s . taken in Phoenix, Arizona by @xtrarodpitts

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〰️ new books from my thrift adventure with @adelepena yesterday! 📚 taken in Downtown Phoenix by @xtrarodpitts

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me drinking whiskey and having a good ass time dancing in a ClubHouse dance party by an amazing DJ - @iamdcdjindia! 🥃🕺🏻 taken in Downtown Phoenix by @xtrarodpitts

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maybe i should just turn this into a selfie account. hahaha! i swear to you that when i clock out and sit on my couch, the sun reflects off of a window and shines right on my face (only for like 10 min) and makes me glooowwww. of course my skincare routine helps. also... don't judge my facial hair... i need to trim and shave. ok byyyeeee ✌🏼 taken in Downtown Phoenix by @xtrarodpitts

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〰️ "how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist..." - 'saturn' by @sleepingatlast 🎶 taken in Downtown Phoenix by @xtrarodpitts

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🍍 finally decided to shave again. 👨🏻 taken in Downtown Phoenix by @xtrarodpitts

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taken in Phoenix, Arizona by @xtrarodpitts

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〰️ whew...this one got me crying. 😢 there are a lot of times that i feel that i am both
too much and not enough
at the same time. i felt the full weight of this many years ago when i was still in college. i constantly neglected my own wants and needs so that i could pour my energy into investing in and loving other people. i was trying to find my community - and i thought i had. yet only a few of those people still exist in my life in some way. this feeling has stayed with me throughout the years. i self-sabotage things a lot because i get in my head. there are situations that i tell myself, 'rod, you're being too damn much. calm down. stop doing _____. be quiet.' etc. i feel like i often push people away because of my personality. that i become too excited about things that aren't that big of a deal to others. that i share deep things too openly and people don't like that. but then i over-correct myself and become too quiet and reserved. i stay silent with things that are important to me and don't voice my opinion because i feel like it doesn't matter. i feel like i don't belong in a lot of ways with a lot of people. i don't share a lot because i feel like i'm just noise in a world of people who have better things to say and can say them more eloquently than me. this pours into other aspects of my life as well like my creative interests. i feel like nothing that i do is really good enough, so i either don't do anything or don't share what i do. i feel like sometimes people are just too nice to tell me what they actually think about me. i feel like a background character most of the time.

but this isn't 24/7. it's just a prevailing thought that shows up a lot more than i'd like. just thought i'd open up and share a piece of my heart tonight. i've been learning and growing and loving myself a lot, and it's helped minimize these thoughts. and now with having started CBT (cognitive behavioral therapy) a couple weeks ago, i feel like i'm going to really be able to explore and get to the root of these thoughts among other things. thanks for reading if you actually made it this far.

photo belongs to @imjordanrandall. check out his stuff!

#latenightthoughts by @xtrarodpitts

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~ me needing to shave and get a haircut. 🧔🏻🤪 taken in Phoenix, Arizona by @xtrarodpitts

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