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Matching PJ’s by Christmas 😏🎄. by @_xuest

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Bigger dragons, Bigger story🙂‍↕️.

6 months ago I had a road traffic accident which meant I needed six huge injections in my knee before having every layer of flesh removed and eventually having the hole stitched back together again. Nine stitches in my knee.

Fun fact, hitting the ground at 20mph probably won’t kill you, but you will need to sit down for a bit 😂.

As always, much love to the @mafiamoves_ family! 💛🖤 by @_xuest

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Maybe you would’ve hated it. 🙂‍↕️🪭 by @_xuest

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Best foot forward. Missing toes and all.🙂‍↕️ by @_xuest

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16 days ago

Photo walk 12/09/26

HP5.

Developed at @21studio_photolab by @_xuest

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Day one of being an art student.🎨🧑🏾‍🎨

The anxiety of being SOOO bad is so refreshing. Doing my best though.

Ps - I feel like I’ve stopped caring about my appearance. But like, in a healthy way. Freedom 🙂‍↕️. by @_xuest

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a month ago

Cheeky Camden Step. 📸👀🪭

#streetphotography #shootingstreet taken in Camden Market by @_xuest

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🦴- If I was a dog, I would be a hot dog.🙂‍↕️ by @_xuest

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Karate 🙂‍↕️. by @_xuest

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2 months ago

Race Ready 64kg(11%BF) Vs Civilian Lifestyle 72kg(18%BF)

“ I’m not them.

I, am not them.

I am not, them.

I spent a lot of time wishing I could be someone else. Anyone else. Life felt unimaginably heavy, each win brought with it a multitude of losses.

Through all of that, there has always been one constant - sport.

My only respite was the track, the pitch, the field. Once the game started, I knew exactly how to earn appreciation, admiration, love.

Sport became a proving ground, and before I knew it…athletic ability became my substitute for a sense of self worth.
I didn’t need to feel secure in myself, I could just be secure in my ability to be impressive.

I didn’t realise that what felt like a well designed existence was really just me giving away my power to the people and world around me.
When your sense of self worth comes from how well you perform in front of others…their reception begins to dictate everything in your life.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been completely written off like this. Not being able to prove myself to myself has been an emotionally crippling experience.
The safety blanket of athletic capacity disappeared and every other loss hit 100x harder than it would have otherwise.

In this season, I have become familiar with a deep sense of disappointment. I have failed in ways I never expected to and despite my best efforts - I have not been able to salvage anything.

Yet somehow, my soul feels entirely whole.

I don’t have a “this is what I’ve learned” or “but now everything is great” section.

I guess I just wanted to vent a bit. We don’t always have to wait until our world is falling sport before letting off some steam.”

Ps - kinda enjoying being heavier. Haven’t been this heavy in 2+ years.

Pps - ran 1km today. First continuous real effort movement I’ve put my knee through since May. - felt amazing. No pain, No stiffness. Still 2 weeks of rehab to go though.🫠

“Love yourself, the messy version is still you. You don’t become a better you tomorrow by destroying yourself with self-hate today.” by @_xuest

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3 months ago

YOUR NET WORTH
IS YOUR CURIOSITY
IN CONFLICT
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MINUS
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YOUR PROJECTIONS. by @_xuest

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Reflecting on the purpose behind all this effort, keeping my eye on what really matters to me. 💪🏾🙂‍↕️ by @_xuest

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