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@ayyysthetic

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welcome to my autobiography :)
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june 2025, the month i started therapy, the month i spent time with friends and with nature, the month i stood up for what’s right, the month i celebrated @dvn.fmnn sobriety. also the month i learned to do a headstand btw. oh, and crowdsurfed (even tho these big ass men only carried me for 5 seconds). very happy that i started therapy that month after years of saying “i should really go to therapy”. very blessed to have found the perfect one right off the bat too. everything always works out better than i except it. ❤️ taken in Orlando, Florida by @ayyysthetic

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2 months ago

forbidden kingdom 2025 aka my first 100% sober like didn’t even smoke weed sober fest. i was gifted a wristband which was a huge blessing cause i was going THRU it (hence my sobriety. i put my mental health first) truly all i wanted was to surrender myself to the waves of a svdden death mosh pit (it was healing). i found a coconut that reminded me of a coconut my friend found at my first fk in 2020 (see the last video. it was a full circle moment after 6 years). anyways. i had a blast. i danced til like 4 am and had so much fun w/ my friends. they picked me up when i was in a major low point. that’s what it’s all about!!

also your girl finally got the upgraded ultra storage so i can actually access my pictures and use my phone properly now!! major life changes are coming soon so let me catch up finally like i’ve been saying i will for 10 years LOL taken in Forbidden Kingdom Music Festival by @ayyysthetic

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2 months ago

Babe i said i was working…. @victoriacrespinn @ayyysthetic @shambhala_mf
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#edm #shuffling #shambhala #shambhalamusicfestival #cloone taken in Shambhala Music Festival by @ayyysthetic

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3 months ago

last summer i created the first painting i ever sold. learning to part ways with my creations was a big step in my artistic my journey. when you sit with a painting for hours, you tend to get attached. as a sentimental person, i get attached to a rock i find on the ground. i had to rip off the bandaid. so, i worked on this angel for hours and i sold it for 40$ (and a few mushrooms lol) to my friend Dom who i met at Shambhala who was coincidentally going to Elements 3 weeks later like me. i was like okay, if just let it go for hella cheap than ill feel really good about selling bigger pieces for more money right??

the point of art is to share it with the world anyways. i’m happier knowing its with a friend instead of hiding in my room.

also shoutout to dom for being the first to be like “hey i want to buy your painting”. it was the exposure therapy i needed lol taken in Elements Music & Arts Festival by @ayyysthetic

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3 months ago

Meet Blue.

Blue loves to dance and create art live at our events.

Be like Blue 🩵

📸: @jmmh.media

#classictrance taken in IRON COW by @ayyysthetic

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3 months ago

“lovestruck” … where it all began
New Years 2025, shortly after midnight i stepped into the after party where a disco ball and colors would connect me to my creative energy
2024 was hard. i lost a lot like my mom, my dogs, my car, my job, myself.
i sent it away with gratitude. for the first time, i opened my heart to a new year of becoming better. i embraced the energy of change.
i didn’t know at the time but this night was the first step to me becoming an artist. i loved creating but never felt worthy of the title. the only answer was to create.
i found inspiration @lovestruck.music
i shortly after i created my first piece in a long time, embarking on a journey where i was creating myself in many ways. into an artist. into a healthy person. into a happy person.
under the disco ball: we are all one. we are all love.

prints available for purchase, just dm me ❤️🪩✨ taken in Bikurri by @ayyysthetic

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4 months ago

Meet Blue 💙

Creativity doesn’t stop at sound.

Blue brought her art, painted live, and transformed a corner of the room into something people could experience in real time. We love creating space for visual artists and sonic artists to exist together.

We’re always looking to collaborate with painters, illustrators, installation artists, and creators who want their work to be seen and shared to the local community.

If you’d like to create with us, send us a message!

Bring your art. We’ll provide the room.

📸: @jmmh.media taken in Orlando, Florida by @ayyysthetic

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4 months ago

Not everything is listed.

Some things are better found.

Independent dance music events.

Stay tuned for next event announcement.

Orlando, FL.

#UNLISTED taken in Orlando, Florida by @ayyysthetic

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4 months ago

memorial day weekend 2025. i spent the weekend both in paradise and in my head, but the beach has to be the best place to be during a mental health crisis!! my friend cut my bangs so i could feel new again (stereotypical crisis move, but they really suit me). (thanks @gracie.hairgoblin)it’s so funny looking back cause the fun of the weekend really overshadows the tears i cried. we went to melbourne beach twice, had a trippy moment in a crystal shop, chopped my hair, adventured to st pete, danced, i met a girl w/ a matching la dispute tattoo, we played mermaid with sea life, we flowed at movement monday. the anniversary of my moms death was approaching, i had a bad falling out w/ someone i cared about, and i was really uncomfortable with my life. i felt very lost. like “who am i and where am i going” kind of lost. i think it’s important to feel like that tho so you can find your true self. and its important to have friends who are true to themselves that remind you who tf you are too!! (and will (attempt) to take jumping pics w/ u) (we tried)

so grateful to get to experience my full range of emotion, in such a beautiful place with beautiful ppl. it could always be worse (like i could’ve been depressed af in iowa or sum shit)

alsoooo.. i might’ve felt list a year ago but you can find me this weekend @floridagrovesfest (link in bio) (if ur feeling lost, remember: music is healing) taken in Saint Petersburg, Florida by @ayyysthetic

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6 months ago

behold: the end of my london chapter from May 2025. the day i saw buckingham palace, a beautiful park,the big ben, river thames, met a chinese girl celebrating her birthday, and artist in the graffiti tunnel, a man busking by pretending to play the violin (he knew i was on to his scam! lol respect the hustle tho), walked thru china town and soho. it took a while to go thru these bc the trip itself was a lot to process. tbh, when friends asked me “how was london?!” i didn’t know what to say. there were beautiful moments and terrible ones as i was in a new relationship that simply wasn’t right, and wrecked my mental health. we parted ways shortly after (this was rough but for the best) and i was thrown into a crazy healing journey (im so grateful for it). characters come and go in your story but each chapter is important and deserves to be cherished, because they will shape the main character into something great (the main character is yourself). looking back now, almost year later, im so happy for the experience. it led me to making some big changes, internally and externally, that the girl who left the US for the first time would be very proud of. and london was cool as fuck.

i have so many more adventures to share from the last year, i can’t wait. my life got really awesome after this trip.

BUT. i want to share my upcoming adventure. i will be attending my first florida groves in a couple weeks and i want you all to join me. last slide has the lineup, link is in my bio (and the code babyblue will save u some bread) taken in London, England by @ayyysthetic

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7 months ago

london dump. 5/25 may in london is beautiful but i had really awful allergies from the pollen. i suffered all sneezily thru the british museum which was pretty cool actually, it was free but everything is stolen. also i think it’s weird to have mummies on display, like let bro rest in peace? after i got some loratadine and almost went home cuz i was soo unwell but as we were walking, got pulled into an adventure (the meds kicked in). got boba, went to a park, then china town, found some crazy art in soho, hit piccadilly circus, got sucked into a random club, went back to chinatown for food. the next day, went to kensington palace. the gardens were beautiful but the palace was ugly under construction. it was nice to sit with different trees and flow listening to tame impala. got lost on the tube otw to camden town, which was such a dope punk area w/ great food. i went to my first BDSM event, which was a theater circus performance that actually moved me to tears LOL (kink is more mental and emotional than you’d think). went back to camden looking for a rave, i made a friend there from brazil. we went to a punk bar, and ended up in an underground house club. the next day we went to the london bridge which we realized was ugly asf lol. the iconic bridge is actually called the tower which we walked alllll thru london to get to. i took my first double decker ride. we were supposed to see Astrix and he canceled last minute which was a huge bummer. but we ended up going to a different random techno club where i showed the brit’s how we do it in the US (stickers, elf ears, and flow star ofc) (they actually loved it).
now, since i commit to honesty: despite the fun, i was very triggered and anxious during this trip. the night i was sick, my bf at the time got upset with me for not wanting to have sex in a public bathroom??? and made me feel like i wasn’t enough. i really liked him and that disregulated me so bad that the rest of the trip was a roller coaster emotionally.
A PARTNER SHOULD NEVER MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE THIS. you should always feel respected and safe.
hold true to your boundaries.
and if he doesn’t?? dump him 💅 lol taken in London, England by @ayyysthetic

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8 months ago

MAY 2025 i did a crazy thing and took my first trip out of the country (alone). on a 9 hr overnight flight, i sat next to a dad and a grandma who gave me food and drinks and headphones (i was unprepared lol). they told me i was traveling at the perfect time, because the weather there sucks but it was to be sunny my whole trip (lucky me, i love the sun). when i landed in England i was given a rose that traveled from Italy (and eventually to the US). i took a train thru the (beautiful) english countryside to get to London which is just like the movies, old, “posh” and full of double decker buses. very different from orlando. after a much needed nap, took the tube to Waterloo for some food and the graffiti tunnels (im a huge graffiti nerd). my first meal in London?? was at an american themed dive bar in the tunnel LOL (my friends choice not mine) (but arguably some of the best wings i have ever had). the tunnel was full of art and we kept finding hidden paintings/trinkets that now live in my bedroom (pieces of London that travelled 4k+ miles). also, walked by the Thames river to see the London eye (unimpressive, its just like orlando’s) as well as Big Ben (impressive bc its iconic)

it’s taken a while to share this story because i never planned to go to london, especially for my first time leaving the country. i ended up there because of a brief but intense romance w/ someone who lived in EU. the trip itself was a roller coaster and things between us turned sour shortly after so there were a lot of mixed feelings around this trip. but after a lot of healing since that time of my life i can look back and be like “yo that was actually a super cool experience”. ive dedicated this account to vulnerable genuineness, and it would feel disingenuous to leave out that major plot point (that helped me learn a lot). just because things go sour with someone doesn’t mean all the memories need to be soured too. decide to focus on the positives and remember that experience shaped you (for the better, if you choose growth). i’m sure many can relate and hopefully sharing all my business online will help others view similar memories in a positive light. (: taken in London, England by @ayyysthetic

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9 months ago