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Caleb Leroy Erickson

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a poem i wrote about being in the process. been wrecking me for a year

the gardener’s throne

the king who reigns in the dirt.

the king who got his hands dirty with me.

making me.

crafting me.

the king who humbled himself to care with tenderness.

the king who speaks life to his creation to
watch them grow into beauty.

this perfect gardener has made his home

in the dirt.

in the process.

in the imperfections.

in the flaws.

the mess.

the gentle and scarred hands of the gardener king surround me with the example of love.

inviting me to join in the process of growth.

inviting me to experience his heart as lover.

inviting me to the process of cultivation.

the process of pruning.

the pain of pruning is no match for the belonging i have found in the gardener’s hands.

enveloped in his heart,

i see my reflection in his eyes.

close

in the dirt.

held

in the dirt.

spoken to

in the dirt.

made beautiful

in the dirt.

this is the gardener’s heart.

he isn’t afraid to make his throne in the dirt.

he doesn’t say, “come make yourself better to be near me.”

his patience screams, “i am with you in the dirt. there is no rush to be perfect, my beloved.”

i am forever welcomed home

at the gardener’s throne. by @calebleroyerickson

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3 years ago

overcast sunday afternoon flat whites🫰🏼

we’re getting very excited for sept 26 for the first perchance! by @calebleroyerickson

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2 months ago

look for something beautiful

as some of yall may know, i was recently a high school english teacher. one of my favorite parts was this was a prompt i gave my seniors each weekend to share on the following monday with all of us. it blew me away to hear what they would notice and be captivated by.

i was thinking of beauty and the importance of slowing down, noticing and appreciating. the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen is the face of Abba laughing and smiling with me, so here are some beautiful moments from the past couple years where it feels like the face of Dad laughing and smiling.

1. kitch and issy after a wonderful dinner in london
2. seeing daffodils for the first time in my life. i love daffodils. Dad calls me his yellow daffodil :)
3. sabbath dinner with my family
4. being poured into and pouring out love in the prayer room. such a holy meeting place.
5. the sawyer house boys. each of them loves with a deep ferocity.
6. sunny days with friends. feels like a gentle kiss from Dad.
7. colorado people seeing the ocean for the first time in a long time.
8. skipping and frolicking with my friends. childlikeness is holy.
9. getting absolutely wrecked by this kind woman and her understanding of how to draw close to jesus as a child.
10. slow autumn afternoons. felt like i was living in communion.
11. getting to go back to the land where jesus changed my life forever with some friends who have fought for my heart and becoming so well.
12. getting quality time with my siblings :) love them so much.
13. sharing this orange with theo. again with the childlikeness thing! can’t outgrow being a child full of wonder and simple delight.
14. cold morning fireplace delight.
15. on my last day of teaching, one of my students gave me this handmade gift she embroidered of daffodils with “look for something beautiful”. i cried :)

i love being a son. i love Dad. i love the gift of life.

ok now go look for something beautiful :) by @calebleroyerickson

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2 years ago

some of my favorite people the past few months :,)

loving the wonderfully beautiful community the lord has given me and i’ve been crying over it a lot the past few days!! wow wow wow. thank u jesus :) by @calebleroyerickson

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3 years ago

words.

abba has an important focus on words. he spoke and everything was made. he has the words of truth that we all long for. he has the words to pierce what needs to be pierced, and heal what needs to be healed. he has pierced me with beautiful truth, not letting me believe lies. and he has healed so tenderly with his gentle yet fiery love that he whispers to my heart.

here are some beautiful words that have both pierced and healed me recently.

i want to forever be marked by the beautiful words of the father. he gives life. his spirit-breath gives life. when he speaks, he breathes; and when he breathes, he is breathing his Spirit onto things that were dead and makes it alive again. may you receive his spirit-breath. by @calebleroyerickson

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4 years ago

when does God get to delight in us? when we say so? when we feel worthy enough? when we have a good week? when we don’t act in anger and don’t sin? when does he get to enjoy us? when did we believe that our actions determined the way God thinks about us? that way of thinking strikes against the gospel of mercy and grace.

his delight in us is not determined by how well we act. it’s not our “goodness” that makes him delight in us. it’s him delighting in his image.

it’s not about us feeling worthy. it’s about him getting what he paid for.

his delight is pursuing us. his love is in a relentless pursuit. HE is in a relentless pursuit. it’s time we let him enjoy us and delight in us and we stop making excuses for intimacy. let his love and delight and enjoyment change you. don’t try to change yourself so that he will delight in you. he already does. his delight will bring transformation to your heart.

he is the bridegroom-king. in song of songs, he is constantly referred to as this. the cry of the shulamite is “let him”. this is the invitation for transformation. would we let him delight in us? would we let him enjoy us? would we let him love us to the point of transformation?

when we know his delight over us, our only response is to delight back in him! it’s a dance. it’s a romance. taken in Greeneville, Tennessee by @calebleroyerickson

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4 years ago

Jesus is capturing my heart for him
like i haven't felt or known before. he's captivated and is captivating this generation. he's inviting us into intimacy to know him as Father, lover, shepherd, bridegroom, friend, lord, brother, and the King of Glory. he's creating in me a laid down lover of Jesus who know his beauty and worth and who's yes and surrender is all his at all times. he's removing the childish ways i've lived in - even when i only wanted him, leaving nothing left but him. he's given a divine hunger to know him (in a heart, experiential knowledge). he's showing up in power and love. he's bringing me back to my first love. he's giving me the heart and the attitude of the bride who is in deep love with her bridegroom. he's reintroducing himself to me as the King of Kings. as the One found worthy. we must know who Jesus is. we must be so captivated by his beauty, majesty, glory, and worth. we must encounter him and know him for who he is. he's been given the name above every other name. we're searching for something real, authentic, beautiful, true, good, lovely, purposeful and it's Jesus. only him. always him. the desire of our hearts. he's the One thing. the only thing. forever. and there is joy in surrender in giving him your yes. there is the fulfillment of our longing for home in his heart.
ps. 24:7-10 & 27:4 taken in Upland, Indiana by @calebleroyerickson

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5 years ago

Is Jesus worth our surrender? Do we know him to then know his worth? His worthiness for our yes? His worthiness for our surrender?
For the past few months, that’s what he’s been showing me. A deeper and more intimate look at who he actually is. And he’s worthy. With just a single glance of the king and the love in his eyes marks the heart for all of eternity.

This is a prayer of a man in Rwanda in the past hundred years who was a recent believer who’s tribe told him to recount his faith or be killed. He wrote this the night before he was martyred. It captures the heart of a person who knows the worth of Jesus:

I am part of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have Holy Spirit power.

The die has been cast. I have stepped over the line. The decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I won’t look back, let up, slow down, back away or be still.

My past is redeemed. My present makes sense. My future is secure. I’m finished with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, worldly talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals.

I no longer need preeminence, prosperity, position, promotions, applause, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded or rewarded. I now live by faith, lean on His presence, walk by patience, am uplifted by prayer and labor by power.

My pace is set. My gait is fast. My goal is heaven. My road is narrow. My way rough. My companions few. My guide is reliable and my mission is clear.

I cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy, pander at the pool of popularity or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I won’t give up, shut up, let up, until I’ve stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, preached up for the cause of Christ.

I am a disciple of Jesus. I must go till He comes, give ’til I drop, preach till all know, and work till He stops me. And when He comes for His own, He’ll have no problem recognizing me. My banner will be clear. by @calebleroyerickson

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Jesus it’s you. It’s always you. The one I long for. The one my soul deeply desires. The one who makes my spirit gets butterflies when I’m in your presence. The one who makes it all worth it because you are altogether worthy. The one who heaven never stops worshipping.

The one who I love. The one who I love. The one who I love.

You, Jesus are my desire. My fulfillment. My satisfaction. The most worthy. The most beautiful. The most wonderful.

It will never be enough just to know about you, and never call you my own. My heart was made for love. My heart was made for God. I can’t live without you, Jesus. by @calebleroyerickson

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mundane. monotonous. words that are not fun to anyone, nor do they appeal to anyone. yet it is a reality of life at times. its been the reality of the past few months. from sitting in a hotel room in seattle in february for two weeks, to the tedious and repetitious lull of the days going by leaving me sometimes with just my thoughts. i'm not sure if i've been the best steward of it, and i have to live with that. not that that's the end of the world by any means. just something i wish i did better. it is currently a friday night and i am writing a research paper about how children grieve. not the most fun time in any sense of the word. yet even still. i have been lovingly taught by the Father about his constant nearness. even in the mundane he is there. even in the places where your heart wants to cry and you can't even explain why. he is there. holding you. holding me. tenderly and gently.

bliss. mirth. emotions enjoyed by everyone. even sought after. this is the simultaneous reality of life as the mundane. it has been the reality of the past few months. from taking long road trips to georgia or tenessee, to deep laughter with people i adore. to listen to, and to be listend to. to know, and to be known. to celebrate, and to be celebrated. i have experienced this beauty in people and in Jesus. my heart rejoices in the moments of pure joy. i have known deeply the reality of being held in these moments. being held by tender and gentle hands.

this is what makes me feel alive. to experience both at the same time. there is deep gratitude in my heart for how we were created to feel. to feel pain and sorrow, joy and peace. to know the Good King is in both places with you, knowing that his nearness and character does not change based on our circumstances. being held all along. tenderly and gently. by @calebleroyerickson

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5 years ago

liechtenstein
pancakes
favor ain’t fair man
tree break
hey God yay God
chad & erica the baddie

my heart is wildly happy. thankful for these beautiful souls taken in Colorado Springs, Colorado by @calebleroyerickson

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mountains (check the jacket) and the beach. in the words of miley, it’s the best of both worlds taken in Michigan City, Indiana by @calebleroyerickson

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6 years ago