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𝐓𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐤 • 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞
Forever heartbroken RIP my beautiful husband🪽Camilo
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I never thought I’d be saying goodbye to you so young. I thought we had a whole future together. I thought we would grow old together. You were and are my entire world. I’m the woman I am thanks to you and the safety you always brought to me. You are my home. And now i feel lost with what a future even looks like without you. Nothing makes sense. Nothing holds meaning anymore. I hate hearing from others to be strong and that things will be better cause honestly fuck you because no one can understand the deep deep love we had for one another. One that we think is only in fairytales but I truly lived that with him. He is and forever will be my soulmate and 11 years was not even close to enough. I needed our lifetime together.

@tattoosbycamilo 💕 Mi amor divino te amo para siempre en este vida y en cada uno. Se que volveremos juntos algún día y en otra vida porque siempre nos encontraremos donde sea que estemos. Nuestro amor es para el infinito. Y osea mi corazon quebró en pedazos queriendo estar contigo te cargara en mi alma hasta que me muero 😔😔😔💕 RIP mi príncipe hermoso by @damndanii

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a year ago

These are pictures of our last anniversary together 💔 our plans were simple because our love was never defined behind money & things but experiences & emotions. Well today is the day we got married 10 years ago…

Today would have marked 10 years happily married to an amazing person who i truly grew up with. Camilo is an angel, he was mine on earth. He completely changed my life & he would always tell me the same. Since &. The knowing of being Soul mates & the fact we met so young made us both overjoyed because in a world where social media exists and apps its almost as if love doesnt exist. Im truly blessed to have Camilo as my husband, my life partner, & best friend. Ive met many people in my life & like i always told him, NO ONE CAN EVEN COMPARE A FRACTION OF THE PERSON HE IS. His kind heart, his understanding, & the way he shows love are just a few of the things that made Camilo special. I could go on for years with what a great man and person Camilo is. There will never be a day i dont miss him and love him unbearably. There will never be a day i dont wish life took me too. To be left on a planet that holds no meaning & has only shown me the saddest parts of life and humanity is torture. I miss my why. I miss my world. I miss having someone who actually cared & loved me in every capacity of the words. I miss not being judged. I miss nights being my fav time of day because it meant we finally finished work & got to hang out together. I miss the daily giggles & making you laugh. I miss the future we were building. I miss holding Camilo’s hand. I miss even being awoken by his snores.

Te amo amor. Te amo mucho pero te extraño demasiado mas 😞❤️‍🩹 mi alma separo y no se como existir ahora. Agradezco todo de ti mi amor divino. Te agradezco mas por enseñarme como tratar cierto situaciones. Se que me estas abrazando fuerte y pidiendo perdon por todo lo que paso mas despues. Se que me diras ahorita misma por todo. Lo se… te amo bebe. Te amo mucho. Nunca voy a tener un anor como la tuya porque eres unico. Eramos unicos y ningun persona en este mundo puede borrar eso❤️‍🩹😞🙏🏼 Gracias por siempre decirme cuanto amas tu vida y a mi❤️‍🩹 by @damndanii

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6 months ago a timeline me and Camilo have been building for almost 11 years vanished. Suddenly without warning and every fuckin day since has been a living nightmare. From the minute i saw that he hadn’t returned home everything in me shut down.

When you bond with someone like we did there is no future without. There is nothing now. Truly nothing left of my past life and self is left. I dont even know who I am anymore nor do I care for the future. I lost my best friend, i lost my husband, i lost my entire world 6 months ago and everything in me has shattered.

Unless you lost your soulmate you will never understand the depths of pain one has endured and you have no opinion or advice that can be given to help. I wish i had him to cry to, get hugs, to do everything with again because I’ve never felt as alone as I have these past months. I would have never expected the million turn of events that followed his death. Weird how the death of such of an amazing and loving person has made others show their ugly colors. It makes me sad. I know he is sad. Im forever wishing my turn to come sooner than later because this life isn’t anything unless I have him beside me. Say what you want. I love Camilo. I love him with all my damn heart and when I love, I LOVE. What’s beautiful is he did too. Camilo loved me like no one I’ve ever seen love someone. We are a match made in heaven and I knew that at the raw age of 21. Being young people thought we were naive but we always knew what we wanted. We knew the kind hearts we held and we were blessed to have lived all our twenties together. Which is why I’m so depressed that’s all we got. Life will never be fair 🖕🏼🖕🏼🖕🏼 I’m seeing it so strongly lately… 😓
May my prince rest in peace meanwhile I live in hell everyday till I die and can lay with him 😔❤️‍🩹 Te amo mi amor por siempre mi principe, mi mundo, mi esposo divino 😔 by @damndanii

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8 months ago

Yesterday was another day of shitty days being it was my first birthday without the only person i want to ever be with. I guess im officially older than you baby 😞 This was a pic from my last birthday with my soul mate 😞

😞🖕🏼 ugh. Never did i imagine I would be the saddest person alive and pray for my own death. Yesterday made me realize a lot. There is a lot i wont ever share with anyone cause this grief is too heavy for anyone to bear. Even me. This whole life now makes no sense to me and i pray i dont get older without you mi amor. I pray everyday. I pray to be with you laughing again because even after death we are one for another. Me and Camilo carried a love so intense that the pain of losing him is legit killing me alive. Im just a body being carried through the days now. Nothing of who I was remains. Nothing. Yesterday marked a day where I truly realize I’m on my own now. It sucks. I wanted to grow old with Camilo. I wanted an entire lifetime with him. Thats really all I’ve ever wanted. My every dream of our future shattered and everyday just feels like a living nightmare that i barely trudge through. I sometimes wonder what if it was me that died… how would he handle this pain of loss? Cause the love we had, ufff out of this world and although im forever grateful for him in my life im eternally sad losing him. 😓🖕🏼 so yeah i guess this is my fuckin thirties now. Boo 32…

#youngwidow #grievingoutloud by @damndanii

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8 months ago

Today would have marked 11 years since i came to get my hair done & met the most beautiful man inside and out. Today marks the day i met my husband in Colombia when visiting family that forever changed my life. Today we should still be together laughing & hugging & celebrating life but unfortunately life is a piece of shit and you’re no longer here to celebrate…

Everyday is a day further from the last time i laughed with you, kissed you, hugged you, played video games, slept in the same bed & more. Each day is another knife stabbing me deeper leaving a wound that’ll never be fixed. We were so damn lucky to have met so young. So lucky to experience that once in a lifetime love that most people dream about. Heck i dreamt about it & never thought it possible till i met you mi amor. Camilo will forever be my husband. Forever be the love of my life. He is everything to me & we grew up together in a way most people were shocked to see. People were shocked we were together for so long & still held such an immense amount of love for each other. Tons of people doubted us but only because they never got this type of love. So they wouldn’t understand. Now they wont understand the type of pain I’ll forever carry. I was so alone before meeting Camilo & now that he is gone I’m alone again. Weird how that happens. Weird how he was the glue holding me together. Weird but also not, because if you truly knew my husband, you knew what a special person he was. So very special. He deserved to live a long life & grow old with me… I love him forever & always. Today holds such a heavy sentiment & it hurts to be here alone without him. Te extraño mi amor. Te extraño demasiado y espero verte y estar contigo pronto 🥺🥺🙏🏼💕

I will never stop expressing the love I have for this man, even if no one asks me about him or no one ever speaks to me. I will forever carry our love, till the day I die & we meet again 😞🙏🏼❤️‍🩹

1st photo was our 3rd date together, 2nd was him taking me to the airport after just 3 dates, truly showed me a lot of who he was as a person, and last two photos are when we became bf/gf and i turned 21 yrs old 🥺

#youngwidow #grieving #11yearlovestory by @damndanii

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10 months ago

Today marks 4 months of my living hell without you baby 😓😓 life feels like a never ending nightmare since and life will never ever be as joyous as it was beside you. The world is now painted a dull gray and nothing will change that.

These past months I’ve learned the truth of loss and the lack of community and people I had around me before all this happened. Things you always told me but it took the worst tragedy and fear I had in life to truly show me. I always told you I couldn’t live without you yet now I have no choice to. And it sucks so much. Camilo baby, you truly were the only person in this world who understands me and is my person. I hate life and what it has done to both our lives. So much of us miss you here… I will never truly be the same without you. I’m not even sure I’m alive, just a corpse existing is all. You said we would always have each other and now I realize I only have myself. Very grateful for my family and yours. 💕 te amo baby. Siempre te amare, y espero estar contigo pronto 😞😔

There is so much I want to say to people and yet nothing at all. This is one of the loneliest roads I’ve ever been on and will continue to live on. Sometimes not knowing what to say is fine, grief just needs an ear. May you never be dealt these cards of absolute hell on earth. by @damndanii

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It hurts to even think we cant celebrate with you here today. Te amo bebe. Siempre y con mas amor cada dia. Feliz cumpleaños al mejor persona que voy a conocer en todo mi vida. Feliz cumpleaños a tu alma hermoso que voy extranar demasiado. Cada dia duele sin tu a mi lado. Este mundo no tiene sentido sin ti. Te amo mucho mucho mucho 🥺🫶🏼

#griefandloss #griefsucks #cumpleañosbebe by @damndanii

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Not my usual content but honestly idc anymore. I miss my husband deeply and its not easy grieving and running a small business. I haven’t been able to work since he passed and idk how to function. Creating is the only thing that helps me even for a little bit. So even though its hard posting and in no means do i need to even share my grief, I dont want to post like before as if I’m not going through hell rn. I am.

With Social media always being about the best parts of life i think its rare to see that a lot of us are going through heavy shit. As much as i want to be positive and light. Im not rn. Real shit. But i want to try when I can to show up and continue. Even if it hurts. I dont have to do any of this. I want to. For him💕🙏🏼

I tried my best to list everything on my Depop, check it out if you want. Anything helps💕

#ravefashion #ravestyle #myravebaby #festivalfashion #chainmailjewelry #chainmailnecklace #handmadejewellary #handmade #griefandloss #griefsucks #griefawareness by @damndanii

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Im missing a massive part of my soul & no one will understand the pain it is to lose someone who was the first person to ever love and accept you in every way. Lose them so suddenly and how the world continues on yet the life we were building together died. The future I was so excited to have with him has vanished before my eyes. His future is gone 😖😖 I miss him everyday and waking moment I have because it was my soul mate and the best person I’ve ever met in my life. No one will compare to his beautiful soul. I love and miss this man like no tomorrow 💔 I’m broken without him. I truly hate this timeline and just want to disappear 🫥 The absolute love we had for each other hurts to no longer feel in person. My life died with him 🙁 all i wanted was to be loved in this life and he served that purpose so beautifully, we had the best marriage that it felt unreal. It hurts to not feel his arms at night and see his success and dreams come true…

Te amo bebe, te amo tanto pero te extraño mas que nunca. Los dias sin ti es tortura 😞 Espero estar contigo pronto 🫶🏼🙏🏼 by @damndanii

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Maybe this is too much to share. Its been hard to work on things with the heavy grief i carry because my husband was a big part of me pushing myself in my small business. He was and is my biggest supporter and it hurts to not show him all the new stuff i’ve been creating…

I know he wants me to keep going and honestly creating is the only thing helping me through the grief. I know most of you see me normally as a happy bean and maybe its unprofessional to show this side of my life but as an artist first ( im not just a sales person) art is created through emotions. Art helps heal, helps deal, and I hope to continue creating when i do summon a bit of energy.

I started this business because i love to create. Not sell… and life is truly tough and i know im not the only one in this boat so sometimes i feel the need to share because social media shouldnt just be rainbows and sunshine and all things good. Sometimes life is tragic and sucks ass….

But anyways, ive sold a couple of these hats i made, only 3 available now. So check out my Depop for those that remain and hmu if you want a custom…. Much love to those hurting💕🫶🏼

#raveculture #raveoutfit #myravebaby #ravestyle #ravefashion #festivalfashion #festivalaccessories #crochethats #crochetplushies #crochetgang #griefsucks #griefawareness #griefisajourney by @damndanii

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The world moves on but I don’t want it to because everyday makes it harder without you. I found a love that I always dreamt of and believed I’d never find one till I finally did across the world and my entire universe brightened… but now it feels dark because the world is twisted and you’re no longer with us… a sad reminder I get every time I open my eyes and don’t see you here in my arms. I love you mi amor divino y te voy extrañar todo mi vida. El amor que tengo por ti nunca acabara porque nos encontramos en la próxima vida. 😔

I know a lot of people follow me for my dancing but it feels weird to even think about posting all of that… even tho I have some videos before what happened…. I know I’ll get back to it one day. Right now I just want to remember all the times I had with a literal Angel on earth 😔 RIP Camilo 💕 by @damndanii

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