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a mosaic of everything i love 🐇🩰💗 || written by sally rooney ❦
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the fairy is back 🧚🏻‍♀️☁️ and she has… a job?????

hi hello hi, it’s been a while and i think i owe this little corner of the internet a proper life update because somehow the last few months have passed in the most surreal blur ever. i blinked and suddenly i’m no longer a nursing student, no longer counting down to finals, no longer complaining about clinicals and assignments and osces and wondering how on earth i was going to survive another week because guys………

I AM NOW A REGISTERED NURSEEEE

three whole years of nursing school. three years of waking up too early, coming home too late, memorising approximately 847 medications at once, surviving clinicals that humbled me in ways i didn’t know were possible, crying over finals, celebrating passing osce, questioning every life decision and then somehow doing it all over again the next day. and now i’m on the other side.

sometimes i still catch myself thinking “omg i have to go to clinical tomorrow” and then remembering… wait. i AM the clinical staff now. ?????? 😭

it’s such a strange feeling to have spent so long waiting for this version of my life and then suddenly be living it. i spent years saying “when i graduate…” and now all those little things have become real. the graduation. the uniform. the name tag. the first proper working days. the feeling of walking into the hospital knowing this time, i’m not there as a student.

i’m there as a nurse.

and somehow that sentence still feels like something i borrowed from somebody else.

i also got posted to hemato & oncology which…….. is admittedly a little sad icl 🥹 because oncology is one of those wards where you walk in knowing you’re going to carry a little more than your clipboard home with you. there are difficult days, difficult conversations, and cases that stay in your head long after your shift ends.

life really said character development speedrun.
the past few months have been such a funny little in-between era. it feels like i’ve been standing with one foot in the life i just finished and another in whatever comes next. there have been so many endings, but also so many tiny beginnings that i almost didn’t notice them happening.

new routines.new by @everwhcre_

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2 months ago

the only book ever written…

this is definitely the shortest caption i’ve ever written btw, and for a reason because im CRASHING OUT so bad right now. by @everwhcre_

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7 months ago

back at it again with shitposting 😝 another attempt to get back and be active on here again😝
anyways, i was posted in psychiatric hospital 2 weeks ago and i hated every second of it 😭 i’ve never disliked a rotation this much but omg i did not enjoy psychiatric. im nervous for next week rotation though because im placed in emergency for 3 days and i have 10 osce stations back to back for 2 days 🥲 thoughts & prayers for me pls 😓
it was my friend’s birthday last week and i brought her to an omakase birthday dinner where i crashed out so bad because they cancelled my reservation last minute but we managed. i also got a new jellycat puppy that i named mantou 🥹
somehow i forgot that im reading the poppy war and after my psychiatric posting i decided to put it on the backburner first and reread intermezzo (i was rereading in the library overlooking a lake and i realised, i actually DO have a hobby)
this is so messy & chaotic i dont even bother to proof read this BUT IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK okay if you made it to this last paragraph, tell me your second favourite flower. mine’s orchid. hope the magic & whimsy reaches you, i lalala love youuu have a great day 🧚‍♀️💘💘💘💞🌬️🌬️🌬️🌬️ by @everwhcre_

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8 months ago

march is approaching, and if you’re new here, march is the month where i willingly put myself back on that emotional rollercoaster and reread normal people 😓
while i’m trying my best to finish the sleepover drawings (they’re coming… slowly but surely), here are some of the quotes i could most definitely talk about for hours until i lose my voice 💞
if you haven’t read this book, pls do pick it up like i am BEGGING you to read this one 😛 and if you’re planning to start it soon, i’m so down to reread together next month hehehehe so we can emotionally suffer and have a breakdown together byeee
also, happy ramadhan to my muslim friends & happy lent season 💞 happy fasting i la la la love youuuu 💘💘 by @everwhcre_

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8 months ago

almost a whole month since i last posted and A LOT has happened 😭😭 i turned 21 yayyy and somehow celebrated it almost every week like it was a sport… only to get sick literally 2 days after my actual birthday 💀 very humbling experience.
i finally went on a solo date earlier today (we’re SO back) and i also finally finished White Nights which lowkey made me miss this account bc why did i used to talk about all my solo dates on here all the time 😭💞
reading slump is still very much present but!!! i FINALLY started The Poppy War since i’m only busy with clinicals now hehehe so at least that’s something.
idk what else to yap about but i swear SO much has happened this past month… like actually a lot… i just don’t know if i can say it all out here 🫢 do text me if u wanna know HAHAHAHAHA
anyways my magic is still here. maybe a bit all over the place but it’s here. and i’m slowly getting back on here bc i miss this space and i miss all of u like crazy 😭💞
if you’re still here, i hope you have a great february filled with love, i lalala love youuuuu 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️💞💞💞🌬️🌬️🌬️🌬️ by @everwhcre_

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9 months ago

happy new year beautiful people 🤍
i’ve missed everyone here SOOOO SOOO MUCH. this is very much a filler post because i missed talking to you all and being present here. i’ll take more bookish pictures soon, i promise, but right now i just wanted to say hi and exist a little. it still hasn’t fully sunk in that i’m turning 21 this year. that feels unreal. i think i imagined myself being older and braver by now, but instead i just feel like someone who’s still figuring things out, only with more responsibilities . i’m in the final leg of nursing school too, i graduate in july and some days that feels exciting and other days it feels genuinely terrifying. like… after this, i don’t get to hide behind being a student no anymore.
i spent three weeks back home instead of going to japan like we planned on, because life had other ideas. it was one of those moments where things don’t go wrong exactly, but they don’t go how you imagined either. being home that long forced me to slow down, to sit with my thoughts and to feel things i probably would’ve avoided if i’d gone on the trip. i think it reminded me that detours are still part of the journey, even if they feel disappointing at first. reading has been quiet lately, finals really took over my brain. i don’t want to force myself back into reading just to hit numbers. my book goal this year is 20 books and i really hope to read more essays. i want a reading year that feels grounding rather than overwhelming. also yes, i ate 12 grapes at midnight HAHAHAHAHAAH if you’re still here, how was your new year? did it feel loud, quiet, hopeful, heavy? are you stepping into something new or are you still lingering in the in-between like me? until next time beautiful people, i lalala love uuuu 🧚🧚💞💞💞💞💌💌💌 by @everwhcre_

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9 months ago

this might officially be the last booksta post of the year from me! genuinely not sure if i’ll be back on december 22nd to celebrate this little corner of the internet turning FOUR YEARS OLD! Four years…can you even believe it?
Looking back at this past year, my heart is absolutely bursting with gratitude. So much happened, so many incredible books were read, and so many wonderful connections were made right here with all of you. Every comment, every texts, it has meant the absolute world and made this space feel like a genuine home.
now for the important part: you will see me eating grapes under the table again this New Year’s Eve, don’t worry! Some traditions simply must be upheld as we move into the next year….
As I sign off for the holidays, I’m sending you all the magic, love, light, and good reading vibes I have left. You deserve all the peace and joy the universe can offer. Thank you, thank you, thank you & i miss each and every single one of you.
i lalala love youuu beautiful people 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️✨✨💞💞💞🌬️🌬️🌬️ by @everwhcre_

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10 months ago

hi beautiful people, i finally picked up my journal after abandoning it for over a month. october felt like a waiting room and then november came and… idk what this month has been. it feels like i blinked and suddenly i’m carrying ten different emotions that don’t even belong to the same story. i genuinely don’t know if giving myself space was good or bad, but when i finally opened my journal again, it felt like i just burst. like i’ve been holding so much inside that i don’t know how to pour things out carefully anymore. everything wants to spill at once. everything feels like writing with a pen that bleeds through the pages no matter how light my hand is.
and somewhere in between that mess, i thought: i need to post bc if i don’t do it now, i might never come back again. and i don’t want that. i really don’t.
reading has been almost non-existent for me. the books on my shelf feel like old friends i miss but have no energy to visit. life lately feels like grieving everything while still being inside the grief itself, walking through memories that haven’t finished forming. it’s such a lonely feeling. but i’m also incredibly grateful that i have friends who refuse to let me be lonely. idk what i’d do without them.
i don’t really have any good news to give you… except that everwhcre is turning 4 next month (on the 22nd!!). honestly hoping i’ll feel better enough to celebrate it properly bc i really do have plans ˙ᵕ˙ it still shocks me that i’ve kept this little corner alive for so long. even when i disappear, even when life gets loud, i always find my way back here to all of you.
i miss being present. i miss posting without thinking too much. i miss catching up with everyone’s shelves, their thoughts. i’m trying to come back slowly, carefully… without forcing myself into a version of me that i’m too tired to be right now.
how’s your november going? what kind of month has it been for you? tell me i want to listen. i had my cultural themed prom last saturday & hurt my back from dancing too hard but oh well! sending you infinite magic i lalala love youuu 🧚‍♀️💞💞🌬️🌬️🌬️ by @everwhcre_

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a year ago

˙ᵕ˙ hi beautiful people, i’m shitposting again… i think i’m in a bit of a slump lately and all my datelines are creeping closer than i’d like. it’s wild to think i only have five more weeks of theory left, time really does fly. i miss being super active here and catching up with everyone, but i’m not sure when i’ll properly find the rhythm again.
my dog started his chemo last monday :( he’s doing a lot better now, which makes me so relieved, but it’s still hard knowing that such a tiny little thing has to go through all that. i’ve never been great at coping with this kind of stuff, but i’m so so grateful for the people who keep me grounded through it all.
also, i met up with @intj.reads last saturday 🫰🏼 it was such a needed dose of serotonin. and honestly, november’s been surprisingly kind so far, definitely better than the whole of october. maybe it’s because two of my favourite people were born this month!! it’s crazy how i used to say i’d never get along with scorpios and now i have scorpios to my left & right. (my bsf’s birthday is tomorrow btw. everyone do a #library4lovers comeback pls chain.)
i’m trying to finish the spooky sleepover… and honestly, i have to finish everything i need to finish oh my god. okay i’m going to stop rambling now 😭 how are u guys btw?? PRAY I FINISH MY BOOK SOON PLS OMG IM DYING. i lalala love uuu 💞💞🌬️🌬️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️ by @everwhcre_

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a year ago

hi angels, first of all i’m so sorry for disappearing without any warning? i think i’ve reached the stage of life where everything happens all at once, and honestly, i don’t know how many more unexpected events i can take. (seriously i’m holding onto my last thread right now) i wanted to say i’m really sorry for not being able to post the second sleepover post yet, it’s supposed to be done, but again… life happened, and i’m only 30% through colouring 🫠 i’ll catch up with your beautiful posts soon before i inevitably have to disappear again.
i just can’t wait for october to be over. earlier this week, i found out that my dog has cancer, and it’s been really, really hard. one of the scariest things about being away from home is how sudden death can feel, my mind keeps looping back to that thought. i’ve also been struggling with sleep lately; my nightmares have been the worst, which led to quite a few sleepovers :/ even on nights before class.
reading-wise, not much this month, but i did finish a song to drown rivers (more like it finished me) and ann liang liked my post yay!!! i’m also about 20% into every spiral of fate (special shoutout to @natalieesdiary for sending me a copy, i love u so so much). oh, and i saw twice live!! they were #hot.
i hope to come back properly soon, but for now, take care. what was your october highlights? enjoy recycled pictures for a bit longer, and i’m sending all the magic i have left. i lalala love uuuu 🌬️🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️💞 by @everwhcre_

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a year ago

⚠️spoilers on the last slide (it’s also just a half picture of me crying)⚠️
lowkey want to be so beautiful that fishes would forget to swim and sink below the surface upon seeing my reflection. well from what i know, this story was inspired by one of the four great beauties of ancient china, xishi who was sent to seduce a king as part of a political ploy bla bla bla you can look more into the history (spoiler alert though??).
my thoughts are all over the place right now, but i can just say that this was more than just a tragic love story, i’ve become so attached to every single one of them. they all felt so painfully human. there’s no villain here (not really) just people doing what they believe is right, and paying the price for it.
well, almost no villain. by the end, i realised not all men, but you can never trust a man. especially an insecure one. i had to apologise for my lack of annotations because i genuinely didn’t know how to annotate this book. i ended up just tabbing it and then crying so hard i couldn’t move past them.
fuchai… goodness was he charming. painfully so. i actually liked him. i wished he was an asshole. it would’ve been easier to hate him. but he wasn’t, and that’s what makes the story hurt even more. 😓 i cried, yes. in fact, i am crying as i type this out. on another note, i started every spiral of fate today yay😇 bye bye ilalalaloveuuu, read this book for extra goodluck and a yearner to come your way 🕯️🕯️🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️🧘🏻‍♀️

(pictures for the quotes were taken off pinterest, credits to owners) by @everwhcre_

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a year ago

october, october oh october. never have i wished i could go back to last year but i definitely had a better october then. this one feels strange. not bad exactly, just unfamiliar. like someone rearranged all the furniture in my life while i was asleep. everything is still here, technically, but it doesn’t quite fit the same anymore.
i keep thinking about how time folds on itself sometimes, how two weeks can somehow feel like ten different lifetimes. i’ve had so many small endings lately that i’ve stopped keeping count. every week feels like it’s asking for a new version of me and i’m lowkey tired of reinventing myself just to stay afloat. i miss when existing didn’t feel like a constant draft.
this month feels hollow in places i didn’t even know could echo. the world feels too fast and too quiet at the same time. my body’s moving through it, but my mind keeps pausing mid step, wondering what happened to all the colour.
i know it’s not the end of the world. it’s just a tired kind of in-between. kinda like the space between chapters when you’re not sure if you’ve outgrown the story or if it’s still being written. maybe that’s what this october is: a waiting room.
sometimes i catch myself comparing this version of me to who i was last october and i wonder if she’d still recognize me now.
maybe it’s okay that this october feels empty. maybe some months are meant to be empty to make room for something else.
enjoy the recycle pictures i lalala love uuuu 🧚‍♀️🧚‍♀️🌬️🌬️💞💞💞 by @everwhcre_

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a year ago