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——— 📖 GONE GIRL
once upon a time i was a 20-something y/o bookstagrammer

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how often do you reread books?

i go back to my favorites so much that i often regret when i donate any books, preferring to hold onto them, even if it means they live in boxes for a few years. i have been thinking of going back and reading this one and not just because it’s spooky season or because i absolutely love gillian flynn, but because it’s an intense depiction of female rage, insanity, and betrayal. it’s been long enough that i have forgotten the nuances and want to be thrilled again. so twisty, so dark, and just enough to get me back on the horror train. i wonder when i stopped reading primarily horror/psychological thrillers? how did i even deviate from my favorite genre like that? maybe in my classic lit phase, maybe once i gave more fantasy series a shot, or maybe when my fave genre started turning into commercial fluff with each new bestseller.
i guess what i’m really rambling about here is that i miss reading books that make me feel even remotely scared, or thrilled. please pass along any recommendations of your favorite nail-biters 🫶🏻

side note: i keep ignoring all of my fucking library books, all of which fit the bill for what i am seeking 🥺 by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

a few book titles that describe me as a person 📚

THE READER: need i say more? while the amount of books i’ve read since having my daughter has decreased, i am a reader. always. it is an integral part of who i am. i cannot and will not imagine a world without stories, without that escape or chance to learn and live and feel.

HOMEBODY: while i have been thriving in the sunlight, sometimes that just means basking in the sun at home. sometimes it means a walk around the neighborhood. sometimes it means finding somewhere quiet and crowd-free that feels like home. for years, i’ve felt such strong social anxiety that i typically put on a mask. a strong and believable mask; if you didn’t know me, you might believe i’m an extrovert. don’t be fooled by my defense mechanism — i am a homebody and introvert through and through. i am (sometimes oddly) selective with my outings, and you won’t often find me away from home for days on end. and if i am out, it’s often for someone (toddler) else. part of me wants to find a balance between finding pure enjoyment away from home and just being the homebody i’m comfortable as.

BURNED: burned out. burned with feelings and knowledge. burned and scarred. i burn with passion, with frustration and embarrassment. i burn in the sun. i burn red when i feel strongly. i’ve burnt myself, a past version of me that i hated and wanted to hurt. i feel burned out as i get stuck in the daily routine of motherhood, of finding myself, of trying to decide what to do as time weirdly pauses as i raise and take care of my daughter. i feel burned out here as i want to read, write, share, and connect, but still feel tired.

SENSE & SENSIBILITY: maybe a little more sensibility than sense, but that’s just my cancer moon talking. i know i’m self-aware even when i don’t always feel like myself. that sort of sense and logic sometimes pulls me out of my sensitive moments. but i try to recognize and love both parts. the part that knows and makes sense, and the part that just feels and surrenders to the senses.

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idk if i wanted to create a tag for this but please join if you want 💕 by @itsjessrianne

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4 years ago

I took this picture in August 2024 and finished this memoir in November 2024, and am posting the photo now in April 2025… if that’s at all indicative of how reading/bookstagram is going for me lately.
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5
Would recommend 👍🏻 by @itsjessrianne

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2 years ago

i’m back with books & body pt. 2 plus a discount code!! use ‘JESSICA20’ to save $$ on @galyna.co products 🤟🏻 also, let’s talk CATCHING FIRE and that horrendous first movie!

#currentlyreading #bookishthings #bookblogger #bookreviewer #bookstagrammer #bookishreel #momswhoread #bibliophiles #thehungergames #catchingfire #mockingjay #yabooks #moodreader #cbdskincare #selfcareroutines by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

sometimes i get back to rereading old favorites as a form of escapism and getting back to “my old self” even though she’s mostly dead and gone. besides, i love who i am now, even if it means less time for reading and more time for… housework??? by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

thinking I’ll close out spooky season (which goes through November, btw) by annotating the hell out of my copy of THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY

October was filled with halloween fun, pumpkins, family cuddles, organizing my bookshelves (finally!!), setting boundaries, renewing every late library checkout, and embracing the season.
Today is my 4th wedding anniversary (and 11 years together 😱) so I’m off to enjoy the day with my loves 🫶🏻🎃 by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

a photo from last october + a passage from my Notes/last substack, both still as relevant as ever

here, not here. writing, not writing. reading, not reading. sleeping, not sleeping. my life has been a combination of doing and not doing. and it seems simple when i write it out like that, but in the moments when i’m not doing, i feel like i am missing. then i remind myself that whatever is for me will not pass me by, i will not miss what is meant for me. so why do these moments of nothingness feel like i am also becoming nothing? i would tell anyone else it’s healthy to be doing something, just as it’s healthy to be still. but is this stillness? or is it procrastination, avoidance, disconnection? am i losing it, losing me, or am i just trying to breathe? step by step, day by day. do what’s needed and fit any extra in the spaces left. but where am i in those spaces? here, not here. writing, not writing. reading, not reading. sleeping, not sleeping. my life has been a combination of doing and not doing. by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

august was

long, listening to a not-pictured audiobook (happy place), thinking about my own happy place, some surprisingly cool mornings, long, sunshine selfies, long, starting spooky season early, rewatching one tree hill, toddler fun, long, tacos always, delicious home-cooked dinners, wishing for september. hi, how i missed you. welcome back, september. by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

lately: motherthing & mothering by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

sensing a theme among my library checkouts:

• MAEVE FLY
• TENDER IS THE FLESH
• WOMAN, EATING
• THE CRANE HUSBAND
• MOTHERTHING

clearly feeling something dark and unhinged 🙃
have you read any? where should i start? by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

just a little library haul to pile onto my never-ending tbr 📚 by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago

happy #pridemonth babes 🫶🏻 ilysm
send me all your book recs 🏳️‍🌈 by @itsjessrianne

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3 years ago