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completely unhinged twenty one pilots love + the other minor but major things that make me happy |-/ 🏃‍♀️🐶 ☕️ ⛰️ ✈️ 🎶 ⚾️

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weekend 2 of acl, 10/10. running on 40+ hours without sleep, nearly passing out in the texas heat multiple times, and somehow having the time of my life. 😭

weekends like this are what i live for.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, TYLER JOSEPHHHHH. 😭❤️‍🔥 also MET SOME OF THE SWEETESSTTTT CLIKKIES YESTERDAY. ILYSMMM!!! TØP ♾️ #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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i’m not okay. i need 3–5 business days to recover from this.

acl 2026. 😭❤️‍🔥 ILYSM TYLER #tylerjoseph #twentyonepilots #tøp #aclfest by @north.ofmaybe

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8.5 miles deep + a little rain + a dangerous runner’s high + Center Mass in my ears = yeah, I was having the time of my life 😂 #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #runner by @north.ofmaybe

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2 months ago

this song means SO much to me. I don’t think I could’ve picked a more fitting song for this post.

I’ve talked about my sobriety here before, but I’ve never explained parts of why Navigating means so much to me.

I have navigating on my arm in tyler’s handwriting permanently on my body for a reason.

there are songs you love, and then there are songs that somehow find the parts of you you don’t know how to explain.
this is one of those songs.

Because sobriety isn’t just “I got sober and everything is amazing now.”

It’s learning how to live in a life you spent years trying to escape.

It’s learning how to feel everything you used to numb.

It’s rebuilding yourself while still not knowing exactly who you’re rebuilding into.

And sometimes it’s HARD.

I’ve had plenty of moments where I thought I should be further along by now. Where starting over felt like proof that I failed.

But I’m learning that starting over isn’t failing.

Sometimes it’s choosing yourself again.

And again.

And again.

That’s what Navigating means to me.

You don’t have to know exactly where you’re going. You just have to keep moving. And then there’s “everybody leaves.”

That line hits somewhere completely different for me.

I have spent a lot of my life carrying abandonment wounds, expecting people to leave, and letting that fear shape the way i loved, trusted, and saw myself.

I am still healing from that.

still learning that someone leaving doesn’t mean i wasn’t enough. ❤️ #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #sober #music by @north.ofmaybe

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turns out caring deeply is kind of the whole point #twentyonepilots #tøp #sober #traveling #carousel by @north.ofmaybe

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the way he has somewhere to be for approximately 0.7 seconds 😭 ilysm tyler hahahah #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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a moment that will live rent free for the rest of my life. i fear i will never be normal about this. ever.

TYLER JOSEPH. RAWFEAR. ONE PERSON AWAY.

ILYSM. |-/ *not my video* but i am the one right next to @morganhood77 who was lucky enough to be on his shoulder LOL ❤️✨ #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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i don’t think people will ever fully understand what that means to some of us.

twenty one pilots found me in some of the darkest parts of my life. addiction, sobriety, the nights i didn’t know how to keep going, the versions of myself i was desperately trying to save. there were times when i didn’t know how to put what i was feeling into words, but somehow, these songs said it for me.

they didn’t magically fix everything. they couldn’t make the hard days disappear or do the work of getting better for me. but they gave me something to hold onto when i needed it most. they made me feel less alone in things i didn’t know how to explain. they reminded me that there was still something worth fighting for, even when i couldn’t see it for myself.

and somewhere along the way, the music became part of my sobriety, part of my healing, part of the reason i kept choosing to stay.

i know some people might think that’s dramatic. honestly, that’s okay. they don’t have to understand it. i know what those songs meant to me when i was struggling to find reasons to keep going. i know what they still mean to me now.

i genuinely believe there is a version of my story where i don’t make it here without them. and i will never take for granted that i got to stand in that crowd, sing along to those words, feeling that happiness intertwined with sadness and knowing i’m still here.

so when i see him standing there, smiling at thousands of people cheering for him, i hope he truly knows that some of those people are cheering for so much more than the music.

some of us are cheering for the songs that got us through the nights we thought we wouldn’t survive. for the words that made us feel understood. for the part of ourselves we managed to hold onto. for the lives we’re still here to live.

and for the chance to stand in a crowd like this and feel happy to be alive.

thank you, tyler. thank you, josh. thank you for making music that found me when i needed it most. ILYSM

|-/ #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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SHITTY KNEES WHO????? HAHAHAHAHA 😭😭😭

because WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT WEEKEND.

ACL!!!! best people, GENUINELY MET SOME OF THE SWEETEST SOULS EVER |-/ ♾️, the best music, the most insane memories, and twenty one pilots reminding me exactly why i love this band as much as i do. |-/

still recovering. still unwell. already want to go back.

ACL 2026, you have my whole heart. ❤️‍🔥 #twentyonepilots #tøp #clique #tylerjoseph #aclfest by @north.ofmaybe

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funny how a song can be so personal and still belong to all of us. ❤️‍🩹 #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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8 days ago

plz watch til the end. tyler sounds so beautiful. 😭🖤

backslide has always hit a little too close to home for me.

when i first got sober, i was terrified of backsliding. terrified of falling back into old habits, of losing the progress i was making, of becoming someone i had fought so hard to stop being.

i knew what it felt like to live in a way that i didn’t want to live anymore. and when i finally started building a life i actually wanted to be present for, the thought of losing that felt terrifying.

i think sometimes people assume that once you start getting better, you stop being afraid of going backwards. but at least for me, that fear was something i carried with me for a long time.

and maybe that’s why this song has always resonated with me the way it does.

getting to hear it live during the clancy tour, surrounded by thousands of people singing those words back to tyler, was something i’ll never forget.

because you never really know what someone standing next to you in that crowd has lived through. you don’t know what they’re fighting to leave behind, what they’re trying to hold onto, or how much it means to them to be standing there, singing those words, still here. STILL ALIVE |-/

and that’s one of the things i love most about twenty one pilots. somehow, a song can feel like the most personal thing in the world while thousands of other people are singing it right alongside you.

i don’t ever want to forget the versions of myself that got me here. not because i want to go back to them, but because i know how hard it was to get out.

and i’m really grateful i did. 🖤 #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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9 days ago

this song has no business hitting this hard live.

like actually, what the ffff

there are some songs you hear live and think, wow, this sounds incredible.

and then there are songs that somehow crawl directly into every part of you that you usually try not to think about and completely wreck you.

i spent basically this entire song with my eyes closed, crying my eyes out and singing every word like my life depended on it. 😂

i wasn’t even looking at the stage. i was just standing there, listening to him sing it, letting the song completely destroy me.

and honestly, that’s one of my favorite things about music.

sometimes a song doesn’t just sound good live.
sometimes you feel it differently when it’s happening right in front of you.

anyway, if you can listen to this song without having a full-blown emotional breakdown, i simply do not trust you.

center mass. you win. 😭 #twentyonepilots #tøp #tylerjoseph #music #concert by @north.ofmaybe

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