Andrea

A new old painting I’ve been working on 🌸

I think I want to start keeping track of what was going on in my life when I worked on certain art…

I’ve been in stuck in some kind of a meloncholic state the past 2 months since solar eclipse. (Better now) but I think the intensity of the increasing sun kinda burns my system ⚡️I end up scattering my energy and kinda freaking out mentally lol it’s hard to get anything done or concentrate on one activity at a time

I was denied a scholarship to be in the local art fair 💔really thought I’d get one! it’s been a big dream of mine… I thought this would be my first year 😭 the fair happened right outside my work where I wait tables, so that felt ironic and sad. I was originally not gonna tell anyone about it, but I decided that was silly. So here I am telling everyone 🤣 feels good to heal the shame. Idk why I take things so seriously anyways. I’m like the most and least serious person at the same time.

After finding out I didn’t get the scholarship, I stopped painting. I decided my art was a pointless waste of time… a delusional dream of an activity that meant nothing to anyone.. what is the point?!

Then one day, during one of my mental freak outs, instead of drinking I decided to pick up this old painting, bring it outside and start working on it.

I finally felt calm and remembered why I love art so much. It connects me back to myself. It grounds and calms my mind. It channels the intense feelings out and into a physical creation✨

Oh and I also gave myself bangs myself one night after a couple drinks 😂 cut a lot of my hair off!!

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