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Posted On: June 27th 2026, 01:18 am
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@originallandlords
Every year I’ve made a post on June 21st marking the anniversary of my release from a short bid in AZ State Prison. Nothing I’m proud of but it’s a stark reminder that I overcame some tremendous battles with myself that included all of the above when it comes to living a toxic life of self absorption. I can’t possibly list everyone I’ve done but every now and then a flashback or memory will hit me like a brick. The mind does what it wants and when it’s sober, it can be a very haunting place to live. That’s one of the reasons I kept it flooded with substances to keep the demons at bay until they learned to swim. I got to a point where nothing worked anymore. Alcohol, drugs, sex, or whatever. My mind just couldn’t process anything and my body was giving signs of shutting down. I had to take action or I might not be here writing this post today.
This year, I was too busy having an amazing time with my son and immediate family in San Diego and all but forgot this important event that changed my life to what you see now. It took some deep soul searching and a lot of work to get here. I’ve lost a lot of family and friends to alcohol and dope the past six years including my father. I can’t imagine leaving my son to find his way without me, it’s a nightmare to think about.
I broke the cycle. He’ll never see me drunk, high, angry and abusive and that is a gift in itself. I pray daily that the energy that flows through me passes down to him and teach him what I never learned. I learn more from him sometimes than I do from life itself. We’re in this together and I’m so proud to be his father. One day, he’ll read my story and understand where his pops came from and what he went through but until then, we live life to the fullest!
🪶
@originallandlords
Every year I’ve made a post on June 21st marking the anniversary of my release from a short bid in AZ State Prison. Nothing I’m proud of but it’s a stark reminder that I overcame some tremendous battles with myself that included all of the above when it comes to living a toxic life of self absorption. I can’t possibly list everyone I’ve done but every now and then a flashback or memory will hit me like a brick. The mind does what it wants and when it’s sober, it can be a very haunting place to live. That’s one of the reasons I kept it flooded with substances to keep the demons at bay until they learned to swim. I got to a point where nothing worked anymore. Alcohol, drugs, sex, or whatever. My mind just couldn’t process anything and my body was giving signs of shutting down. I had to take action or I might not be here writing this post today.
This year, I was too busy having an amazing time with my son and immediate family in San Diego and all but forgot this important event that changed my life to what you see now. It took some deep soul searching and a lot of work to get here. I’ve lost a lot of family and friends to alcohol and dope the past six years including my father. I can’t imagine leaving my son to find his way without me, it’s a nightmare to think about.
I broke the cycle. He’ll never see me drunk, high, angry and abusive and that is a gift in itself. I pray daily that the energy that flows through me passes down to him and teach him what I never learned. I learn more from him sometimes than I do from life itself. We’re in this together and I’m so proud to be his father. One day, he’ll read my story and understand where his pops came from and what he went through but until then, we live life to the fullest!
🪶
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4 days agosiouxxshi
Thank you for sharing your story/journey. I always feel like I’m being dragged by someone else pain …(my sons). But idk that he will get to where you are someday❤️🩹
18 days agonavajomylo
Bruh, thank you for sharing your experience! What a great reminder to everyone on how much of a difference you’ve made! Wow!!
a month agofstopngotraffic
Twenty three years clean and sober today, it has never not been worth it, not even one time. Thanks for your service to the recovery community.
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