Jennie Olivia

“Estrellita” - Manuel Ponce

“Estrellita del lejano cielo, que miras mi dolor, que sabes mi sufrir | Baja y dime si me quiere un poco, porque yo no puedo sin su amor vivir.”

“Little star of the distant sky, you see my pain, you know my anguish | Come down and tell me if he loves me a little, because I cannot live without his love”

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One of my favorite songs, though it’s probably been a decade since I’ve sung it. In the past, this one has been borderline impossible for me to sing. In both an emotional and technical sense, I always found it hard to navigate the melancholy of it all, thinking of loved ones who are so very far away now. You can definitely hear the voice flicker at times here, but the Jennie of days past would genuinely be so happy to know that she managed this.

Full disclaimer, I didn’t record this with the intention of posting - if you’ve followed me long enough, you might know I get a ton of anxiety when making audition videos, so this was just an exercise to get back into the swing of things - but it just felt kind of right to share today.

I feel like when we lose people, the love we had for them suddenly feels aimless, like we don’t know what to do with it. Like there was so much more to give that we no longer can hand off and it feels like, ‘well, now what do I do?” And even though the pain of loss doesn’t subside, time has given me a greater sense of stillness: I don’t feel like I’m wandering so much anymore. I carry that love and grace and let it both guide and inspire me, and I try my best to pass it on to others in turn. Thank you to all of those who helped shape me. I like to think that flowers are blooming in your wake. Hechas con amor.

As the veil thins, I hope that you, too, are feeling the presence of those crossing the marigold bridge to visit. 🌸❤️

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