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Photo by Phily Bowden on November 02, 2026. May be an image of text.
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Photo by Phily Bowden on November 02, 2026. May be an image of one or more people, track and field and text.
Photo by Phily Bowden on November 02, 2026. May be an image of one or more people, people racing vehicles, track and field and text.
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Posted On: November 2nd 2026, 01:12 pm
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The NYC Marathon 2026

I don’t really know how to post this. Sharing anything here feels strange right now, and so does carrying on with work and normal life. I almost feel guilty doing it, but I ran New York for Ciara, so I want to tell you about it.

I finished 17th, in a time of 2:30:45. It wasn’t the New York I’d dreamed of, but I’m proud of how I fought, rallying for 14 miles of solo running and closing the gap on the field in front of me in the last 10km. It’s my first marathon since London 2025 after being injured last year, and it feels good to be back. It’s a big step forward.

I’ll never be able to separate running the New York City Marathon from running it knowing I’d just lost an incredible friend. You can try to put it all in a box, to stay in athlete mode and focus on process over emotion for 26.2 miles and I did my best, but I’m human, and it’s never that simple.

Parts of the race are a blur, and at first I felt numb and indifferent about the result. It’s hard to care about a few seconds here or a few positions there when running a marathon seems so irrelevant right now. But I know that’s not how Ciara would see it. She was a fighter in everything she put her mind to, her sport especially, but also in how she showed up for those lucky enough to have her as a friend. So I fought for her.

Thank you to the women in the pro field who were there to catch me yesterday. I’m so appreciative of you for being there for me in those moments.

Carrying on feels hard and strange when someone has gone, and grief is cruel, but Ciara would want us to find joy amongst it all, to make the absolute most of the time we have and to laugh more than we cry. I’m keeping her with me by doing that as much as I possibly can.

Yesterday held so many emotions that seemed to conflict with one another. Sadness, shock, happiness, pride, love, fear. Its strange that they can all exist at the same time, but that is the reality of living.

This one was for you, Ciara 🤍

📸 @katrinagaisford
Comments (745)
myles_edwards_ a few seconds ago

myles_edwards_

👏❤️

runner_dontfollow 2 minutes ago

runner_dontfollow

Well done be so proud of yourself just coming back from injury lost dear friend went out sitting in your own thoughts just all those memories and fillings you put back of the mind focus on training you absolutely smashed it she will be so proud of you not giving up but kept fighting 🫶🫶went out and done it

slimegxrl 2 minutes ago

slimegxrl

You are incredibly strong, Phily. 🖤 And so was Ciara, she'd be proud of you for your first marathon back from injury, as we all are. Sending you much love for this season of life. ✨

juliafontgomez 3 minutes ago

juliafontgomez

❤️❤️🫂

sheisoutandabout 3 minutes ago

sheisoutandabout

Your mental strength is remarkable . Can’t imagine the pain you‘re navigating. I wish you all the best xx 🤍

cathy_atho 4 minutes ago

cathy_atho

❤️❤️

amonaghan__ 6 minutes ago

amonaghan__

She is so proud of you 🧡

mirabai_cuenca 7 minutes ago

mirabai_cuenca

I still had no clue when I shouted for you on km 28 but you seemed so much within your thoughts… I thought it was because you were running alone but now I am so sure you were with her 🪽 it was the best farewell she could have had

meghanrappleye 7 minutes ago

meghanrappleye

Your perseverance and strength is amazing to witness. So sorry for your loss, Ciara would’ve wanted you to run ❤️

for_the_love_of_running_ 7 minutes ago

for_the_love_of_running_

♥️♥️♥️♥️

candiceip.fitness 8 minutes ago

candiceip.fitness

I’m so sorry for your loss. You are incredible. Sending you so much love ❤️❤️

dorothyzimmers 9 minutes ago

dorothyzimmers

❤️😍 Phily I am so freaking proud of you!! She was right there with you, you wore her wings every step of the way you dedicated this race to her! Don't feel guilty girl she would be so proud of you 💗 💕 ❤️ 😘 💓 💛 💗 for doing this!

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