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Rozen Lalas

@rozenlalas

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a little humor, a little healing, a lot of romanticizing life as a single 30-something 🇵🇭✨
creative strategist • indie artist • @therozenpodcast

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okay, so story time… 🙈⤵

*My reel went viral then IG deleted my audio?? Rude. Here it is again — *

Lol how many of you thought I finally got my fairytale ending? 😆 look, I’m GLAD this was a first & last date. I haven’t gone on a lot but the average over the 3 years is like 1-2 first dates per month. I went on 3 first dates in a month and then I didn’t go on a first date in 8 months 🤷🏻‍♀️ When I was in boarding school one of my house parents, Mrs. Williams, said “you have to kiss many 🐸’s before you find your prince.” I hoped she wasn’t right but hey, here we are. This particular suitor (as my Mom likes to say) told me I needed more ‘meat on my bones’, that I had ‘no upper lip’, and that he ‘doesn’t believe in fast food’ because he treats his ‘body like a temple…’ (then proceeds to get jack in the box after our one and only date because “it was the only thing that was open” 🙃) Sharing this because if you’re single in your 30’s like me, ONE DAY we will go on our last first date. It’s terrifying putting ourselves out there but if your boundaries scare or anger people then it just means they’re working. I knew it was a “no” the second he peed on the beach before I could even turn around 🥴 (like girl he didn’t even run to a friendly bush or behind a rock) Cheers to getting to our “no’s” faster ✨ P.S. I have a whole podcast episode about this @therozenpodcast

#datinginyour30s #firstdatestories by @rozenlalas

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not everyone will understand this and if I’m being honest, I didn’t just have to grieve that last relationship. I had to grieve the version of me that existed in it… and in the ones before it too.

I’ll admit it — she stayed too long
she didn’t know how to self-soothe
she ignored red flags because she didn’t want to be alone

she kept quiet just to keep the peace
slowly choosing the relationship over herself… and over God

meeting that version of me, scooping her up, and bringing her to the forefront

that was the deepest healing and all the closure I’ll ever need

her broken heart paved the way for my new capacity to love deeper

I found an old video of me crying to God saying
“what’s the point of this pain if it doesn’t have a purpose?”

I wanted answers right then and there
but God said, “not yet”

now I see…
it was an invitation to lean on my faith more
to meet the girl I abandoned
and tell her: I understand. it’s okay. I forgive you

for the fear
for the self-abandonment
for not knowing better yet

healing isn’t pretty
it’s deeply uncomfortable

but don’t rob yourself of the opportunity to meet the woman on the other side of that pain

the bridge to get there is scary
and that bridge… is the healing 🌁

the purpose of the pain?
to meet who you become after God does the pruning 🤍

#healingjourney by @rozenlalas

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6 months ago

*boys, keep scrolling* — okay now LADIES:

k, now that it’s just us girls let me speak to the ones who have had their 💔:

I’ve waited to share more about this topic until I met the better more healed version of myself. Here we are 2 years later from that moment in the opening clip. *PLEASE don’t come for the girl that filmed that moment — afterwards she gently asked if she could send me ‘a video of me crying with my girls’ so that I could ‘look back at it one day & see how far I’ve come’, let this be that moment.* It’s funny because at the time I didn’t think I’d EVER be able to stomach that video “one day.” (but that was literally moments after ending a relationship & engagement that was almost 9 years of my life) If you’re still reading, then you’ve probably had your heart shattered into dust to where you genuinely don’t believe it’ll come back together. Don’t roll your eyes when you read this but it DOES GET BETTER. “Better” looks different for other people, but believe me sis, it does. get. BETTER. My “better” came in the form of friendships. To the girly pops that literally wiped away my tears, for the nights when you’d watch me drown myself in alcohol and hold my hair back while I cried in my own vomit, for giving me grace after making poor decisions, for deleting all the photos, for listening to me process my emotions with every 19 minute voice memo, for saying “no” to me when I wanted to numb, for reminding me to seek God, for going to church with me, for raising your hands in worship with me, for helping me to rediscover my cackle, for the squad of Aunties that never let me raise Noni 🐾 alone, THANK YOU. From the depths of my heart, thank you. I truly would not be here if it wasn’t for you.

So surround yourself with friends. Let them love on you. Don’t isolate. Let them show up for you. Don’t focus on years ahead or what you said goodbye to, focus on the present moment with those who never left you. I promise, it does get better. Just KEEP GOING. I love you. You got this. ❤️Matthew 6:34 taken in Los Angeles, California by @rozenlalas

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a year ago

Whitney Houston got me @jokoy merch 😆🇵🇭 by @rozenlalas

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you’re everywhere & no where at the same time 🤍🕊️

From 11 weeks to 11 beautiful years.

I wanted to wait until I had a house one day to get a big dog. But we ended up picking you up from a farm in Palmdale once upon an October’s day in 2015 and brought you home. We watched you take your first wobbly steps and grow into your floppy ears. We taught you tricks & traveled with you everywhere. One day, “we” became just me. And you were all mine 💛 you witnessed my heart break and I’m sure yours did too, but you still licked every tear and helped me get out of bed every single morning. You were the reason. You taught me the safest love. You taught me that I was always enough and that I was all you ever needed. I got to share you on your last year with family. My sister’s family took you in and suddenly you were a family dog. A big change from our LA studio apartment where it was just you and me. In the end, you experienced the life I always wanted to give you: a full happy family complete with a big house and big back yard. You were surrounded by family. I held you until your very last breath giving you kisses and telling you I love you as many times as I could until you crossed the rainbow bridge. Keep Dad company up there, okay? Thank you for being by my side for all of my biggest moments. I love you forever. by @rozenlalas

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11 days ago

“CMON PASTOR” taken in Los Angeles, California by @rozenlalas

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22 days ago

the accuracy 🥹

( IG do your thing & please help me find and tag the OG content creator coz she had me cacklinggggg ) by @rozenlalas

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she’s a runner she’s a track staaaar 🏃🏻‍♀️ by @rozenlalas

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photo every hour trend: bday sister edition 👯🏻‍♀️ by @rozenlalas

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a month ago

FOR MY FUTURE HUSBAND (ONLY)💌
For my birthday, I asked my friends to pitch me to the single, eligible men of the world and explain why I’m dating/wifey material….😂

The friends have spoken.
Now taking referrals.
Applicants will be heavily screened. by @rozenlalas

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short girlies need tall besties 👩🏽‍🐰‍👩🏻✨ taken in Chicago, Illinois by @rozenlalas

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work-life balance 🤝🏽✨ taken in The Salt Shed by @rozenlalas

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