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what’s with all the confetti?

not in short: the older I get, the more I long to connect to my heritage. if you’ve known me in any capacity longer than probably a week, we’ve probably had a convo about the feeling of being lost on the way to ā€œbelonging.ā€ what is it like to operate in this world/industry within the identities we’ve been told to carry or not carry. 
I’ve been itching to make a piece about my roots. the lack of things passed on through generations for whatever reason or another. can i fill in the gaps with who i am now? am i allowed to? who tells me i cant? do the sly jokes and comments from people justify me sacrificing one half of myself for another? and all of this to appease…. who? would my ancestors be proud of me? or view me as the no sabo kid. so the opportunity of @novellasshowcase came up and i knew it was time to try.
we sat on the rehearsal floor for the first hour just talking. conversations continued through the week. conversations that I’ve needed and still need more of. the process became more important to me than the product… but that’s how I’ve been operating as of late. this piece and this experience has meant so much to me. Alzheimer’s can take memories away. colonialism. assimilation. benchmarks. simply the sands of time. but maybe with all of these things, we can still return to things that the body can never un-remember. and maybe they’re set free again in a new/old way? Idk yall, buy me a coffee and ill sit down and give you an in depth explanation of the piece if you want it  hahahaaaaa BUT

This felt like the beginnings of a more accepting self. and equally as important: the beginnings of a community I’ve been too scared to reach out to.

Endless thank yous to @novellasshowcase @sash.rios @howverydianne for this chance to dance.

for this stellar cast @ravyn.rhiana @_y.maysonet @padillaemilio @julia.matoo @_raye_ramirez_ (honorary @elialfau) for giving so much of yourselves and the JOY you exude. you each know how much you mean to me so i wont word vomit too much here (but forreal im sick from how much they have my heart)

ā€œcHaRaNgAā€ choreo by meee

 @uriahroman @_y.maysonet @lulu.gradel for capturing šŸ“ø
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