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Lately I’ve been carrying a brutal feeling I can’t shake.

Gavin is 15 now.

My younger kids got a better version of me than he did.

Not because I loved him less.

Not because I cared less.

But because he was just the one teaching me.

A lot of what I know now about patience, presence, emotional regulation, and appreciation was learned while raising him.

His younger siblings got the benefit of lessons that cost him something.

And that fucking hurts.

I know that’s part of parenting.

I know none of us get it right.

But some days I look at him and wish the dad I am today could have met the little boy he used to be. 😔
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