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AMON.  ME. 2026.

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Many thanks to Peter for capturing my essence.  As a gay man, I have a very complicated relationship with my body.  It may not seem that way because of what I post.  Believe it or not, it’s started out as a dare to myself to be unapologetic about my body.  Whether I felt good about the pictures or not.  Because of learned survival mode and warped sense of self worth from a closeted teenager till a forty something out gay man, there’s always been performance.  Not Correy.  A lot of that has to do with growing up in a community where white ripped body aesthetics are considered the “standard”. Where their gaze means acceptance.  Also, a lot of that has to do with trying to fit in spaces that were never genuine.  I always tried to get people to notice me.  That I was worth knowing and being loved. 

In doing that, I’ve only lost myself further into my own void.  Instead of just being myself, I edited.  Reactions to me versus other people have reflected that over the years.  I always noticed the difference, and it always hurt because I knew why that was.  I was so groomed into performing that I didn’t know how else to be.  I was so self conscious doing these pictures.  I have gained weight.  My body isn’t what it used to be and, naturally, I felt like I’ve lost, what I thought was, my only currency. 

But seeing these pictures, even though I’m still a little self conscious looking at them, I’m starting to really see ME for the first time.  And I’m very grateful to Peter for capturing something I couldn’t see ❤️
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