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Josh Acosta

@thatonetwindad

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•Husband and Forever Twin Dad 👼🏼👶🏼
•Founder: @axelcrewfoundation
•@axeandsledge•@unherd.official • @theprimitivelabs•@feastmodeflavors | Code: J10

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My sweet baby Axel,

This picture means the world to me because this is the last picture we took together.

As the days go on, it doesn’t get easier. The memories of you fill our home, fill our cars, fill our minds, fill our hearts.

Some days are manageable and some days absolutely suck. But every day I get to be thankful that I am your dad. Every day I get to be blessed to know that I am your father.

I love you buddy. Thank you for all that you’ve done for so many people on this earth by just being you. by @thatonetwindad

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3 years ago

Grief, l’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, the hollows of your chest. Grief is just love, with no place to go.

It’s coming up on the day that Axel was diagnosed so emotions have been wild around here. Been harder to go workout, short tempered, feeling lost. These waves of emotions just really hit you unexpectedly.

I love you buddy. I’ll see you again one of these days. by @thatonetwindad

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2 years ago

Today we found out the results of Axel’s Autopsy.

It’s been a long time. His passing was a traumatic experience, not at all peaceful and we did not get to say goodbye until 40 minutes into CPR. It happened like a true horror movie that I replay over and over. This discussion with his team today is something I’ve dreaded but needed to finally face. Like being personally walked through your worst nightmare with commentary. It doesn’t bring healing or peace or closure, and it doesn’t answer why but it answered some much needed how’s.

I was afraid there was something I could have done, something that the doctors left out or could have done sooner. But I learned today they did all they could. I will forever be grateful to the wonderful people he had caring for him at Phoenix Children’s.

What caused the (essentially) heart attack was not something they or anyone saw coming. It’s not a common risk of bone marrow transplants or chemo. Axel fought long and hard until his last moments. He was the strongest boy. I’m so so proud of him. His case is being shared with many other providers and will forever be a part of future care considerations to possibly prevent this from happening and to prepare parents of the possible outcomes.

Axel’s events were repeatedly among the 5% chance category, over and over again. Like he was the unlucky one but I have to believe that he was chosen special. He was a warrior and in the end he won a place in heaven, his forever home. I’ll never understand why but I trust that he was just destined to make an everlasting impact on the world. by @thatonetwindad

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a year ago

Any other significant others be doin this? Love this woman to death but she killin me!! Even if she says “it’s subconsciously” 🤣🤣🤣 taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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20 hours ago

I don’t know about you, but there’s something about being able to share our story, our victories,our struggles, and our mission on a beautiful Friday evening to a couple hundred motivated and hard working athletes. Being able to share our son makes me whole.

This weekend will wrap up our last bodybuilding show of the year and couldn’t be more excited for it to be with our family over at @wjc_productions. The first show to ever make this possible

Good luck to all the competitors this weekend! Be Axel Strong. taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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3 days ago

We had the boys “room trained” before they were 6months old. Never had to share our bed with them. I hear stories of kids who have slept in their parents bed most of their entire childhood and I don’t know how yall do that 🤣

But when Haydn wakes me up and tells me he had a bad dream, most of the time when it’s super late I just put him back into bed. This morning he woke me up around 4:30 saying he had a bad dream and I told him to climb on in. Then he said it. The 5 words that gave me motivation to keep being the father that I am.

“You make me feel safe” that’s what it’s about. That’s what being a dad is. Making your child feel safe, making your wife feel protected. Making sure your house is in order to be able to trust and feel safe.

Joshua 24:15

Dads, men, step dads: protect your house, protect what’s yours taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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3 days ago

3 years of working hard through the ups and downs. Fighting mental and emotional battles of losing my son to cancer. 3 years and still hurts but have gotten stronger every day. Yes there were set backs no it wasn’t easy. And still isn’t. But I can’t stop. I won’t stop.

It’s up to you and only you. Quit making excuses. You’re only stopping yourself from being the best version of you.

It’s possible and I’m a perfect example of what can happen when you pull yourself out of that bag of excuses.

Be better, Don’t suck, be the HWMF in the room and never fxcking give up.

@axeandsledge J10
@wolfpak.official J10 taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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6 days ago

When the weather cools off, we take these things pretty serious around here.

Reeses, bacon s’mores 🤌🏽🤌🏽 tag your crew you’d want to share this with taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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9 days ago

First week of dipping our toes into homeschooling has been good so far. Today we learned about fabrication and inertia thanks to our friends at @diefreeco

Give me another 5 year old that knows exactly what inertia is. I’ll wait. ☕️🐸 taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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11 days ago

I will always and forever be their base. I will never crumble under pressure. I will never stray away from my family. I will never put them in harms way.

I am their protector. They are my priority. Everything I do, I do for them. I dare someone to hurt these two in any way because I promise that hell will reign and I will accept the consequences of my actions. taken in Arizona by @thatonetwindad

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13 days ago

What could be more special than family photos on Axel’s angel day. We are more than grateful for this gift from the sweet and talented @jessicaraisanenphotography and the sneak peeks are bursting with cuteness. You all will just have to deal with seeing them all posted for the next month 😍 by @thatonetwindad

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14 days ago

I’ve watched the sun rise 1,096 times without you here. 3 years. The sun set 1,096 times without being able to kiss you good night. I will continue to have faith that there is purpose in your leaving. Purpose in the pain. And I promise to do the best I can with this life that was chosen for us. For you, my angel. by @thatonetwindad

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14 days ago