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The original plan for this post was way better, but I didn’t know how drafts work lol..
so this is what y’all get😅

Overview:
This year didn’t have the storybook ending that at I had hoped for, to at least have a better December than I did the last..
Went from having a car with a shattered back window to having No car at all. yea.. shii sucks..

Last 3-4 months have been hella stressful but imma do my best from now on to keep looking forward and taking care of myself.

For years I have been living for other people, putting others above me, “spectating” and observing everyone & everything around me.
If you ask me who I am, what I enjoy doing, or Anything about me.. I have to think hard about it.

I haven’t been my own best friend, mostly been.. an acquaintance, so to speak.
That one person I feel awkward being around, I look in the mirror and don’t fully believe that, that is Me. (simulation mind lol)
Anyways, being *Myself* has been a difficult thing considering I’ve never thought about spending time with myself. Figure out who I truly am, my interests, physical/mental care..

I’m yappin alot.. my mind has always been a natural disaster of thoughts, feelings, and emotion.

Main thing is, Next year, I’m making it about myself.
I need it. and Realistically, I Deserve It.
I’ve been drained of all the energy I had by the Good Intentions I’ve expressed for so long and now is the time that I use it on myself and make me a better and happier me that I can be.

Done chatting to save time.

All Love. Respect. and Best Wishes.

I’ve never said this, but *2026 Is My Year*.

#LoveYourself by @zldjaylz

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10 months ago

it’s getting 𝖈𝖔𝖑𝖉 𝖔𝖚𝖙𝖘𝖎𝖎𝖎𝖎𝖎𝖎𝖎𝖉𝖊☠️

- 𝒟𝒥𝒶𝓎 by @zldjaylz

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I didn’t prepare anything for this year‘s post this was a last second thing and I do not have a paragraph either.
however there is not much to say except for this year was great for music. That’s the best thing I got. When it comes to how life was this year for me.. there is not much to say there either. Last year I learned a lot, this year I tried to apply what I learned into real life but I was not given the opportunity to showcase my newfound knowledge.

Honestly I don’t know what to say in this paragraph I’m probably going to keep this short however if I do figure out something to write maybe I will edit this but we shall see.

I hope everybody has a great new year.
i love you all❤️ by @zldjaylz

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2 years ago

i can't explain too much of what went on this year but it was one of the biggest lessons fr. my teens didn't end too well, though it was bittersweet, i try to stay true to myself but i just can't seem to figure out what i want. I've been told that many times and I've known this for a long while. i have so many wishes, hopes, regrets. i just can't put my feelings into words.

but other than the negatives, the positives are what i enjoy focusing on.

these key moments in life that i tried to capture. I'm so blessed to have a friend group like this, a family full of monkeys that truly care & have respect for me. i am more than appreciative of yall and wouldn't trade yall for another group.

I'll probly have somethin more meaningful next year.. we'll see🤷‍♂️

i love you.
~ 𝒟𝒥𝒶𝓎 by @zldjaylz

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3 years ago

"sometimes you just gotta think about things the way you dont wanna think about things" - my unborn neices grandmom i think

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tbh, i wanted to say sum abt graduation, the past, and the future ahead but.. idk, I'm more of in the moment so..💯💯

i appreciate yall, hope yall good, much love & respeck❤✌💯🚫🧢

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#explorepage #2022 #growth #confidence #life #idfk by @zldjaylz

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4 years ago

as i sit here and i think about who and what I'm thankful for.. you're the first one that comes to mind.

now that that's out the way..
vvvvvvvvvvvvvvv

as i continue on this journey by my lonesome, i come to many realizations.

some that i've already came to, but the depth of them expand.

the main one is that literally nothing matters.

when you focus on yourself, keep your head down, work towards your future, tune out what's happening around you and keep your attention on what you, yourself is putting on your plate.. you will become more successful.

there's no room for Destructive criticism, voices telling you that your lonely, social media telling you to care.

main point is, live for yourself. not other people. most of us are born on this earth in our own individual bodies, we die the same way. make yourself as happy as you can cuz it's not anyone else's job.

people are so focused on what others think about them, public opinion, parents' approval, peer pressure. if i can't tell you to not do something you want to do, why should anyone else?

Your life is about you. it's your story, nobody has the ability rip pages out.

(i could explain way better but it's like, 4 am.. idc rn😂) ~3:45 am by @zldjaylz

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