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🩵 “lala” • lvl 26 bard, tinker, storyteller
📍 Massachusett land (boston)
🌷 art: @fairygardencurio
🧝🏽 drag: @lorethemuppet
💌 #autizzy #pwME

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called an ambulance friday bc body stopped working. the stress of coordinating my own care (and harm) is so devastating and WILLLLL end me. this app is so triggering to be on right now but i need to keep crowdfunding my survival… pls SEND HELP!!! my body cannot rest. i am dy*ng. i hate having to turn to the internet like this to keep me safe but the people around me do NOT care what happens to me. the paid caregiver girl who was here during ambulance demanded pay and then quit same day bc of how stressful my health situation is and it’s not worth the money ($23/ hour mind you). im SICK. im trying to hang on until i get funding but idk if my body will make it i’m being so serious.

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pic from my once daily (if at all) bathroom trip in my wheelchair

also looking for homes for two of the kittens. calico and black one. they’re a few months old now 🐈‍⬛

also pls support my loves @vuthea_holistics CF & @ourlovemyrevolution search for housing. don’t have consent to repost their graphics on my own (too sick to message/coordinate) but their survival is also at risk and deserves care!!! by @loreoflala

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3 days ago

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photo dump of selfies + kin content for a good cause :•D

plz help my besties meet their rent goal! (5th slide) this is urgent! i know y’all be getting on your phone to self-flagellate and boost your ego talking about Black lives matter and whatever else but do you redistribute your monies to Black QT disabled folks even ? <3

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id: miscellaneous selfies and meme and cartoons along with a fundraiser graphic. the graphic text reads, “k+ care a disabled black queer couple fundraising to afford rent, groceries and essential living expenses! CA: cgab27 V: calebg727 if you don’t have ca/v send $$ to pp: lalashanks@gmail.com with note for k+c”

(too low spoons to do better image descriptions rn!) by @loreoflala

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2 months ago

with my pen, I wrote on and I tried to find words that described all the times I caught myself and realized there are good things just ahead of me 🏹

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i’ve accepted a full time job offer which has inspired a ton of conflicting emotions!

firstly, i am grateful to be employed after so much chronic unemployment and trying to sustain gig work as my ME baseline has fluctuated. i’m also excited to be employed in a creative workspace (i’ll share more about the job soon!)

secondly, i am concerned for the state of my body once i begin. as many folks should know, i have moderate-severe ME (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis) which causes unrelenting fatigue and so many other symptoms. in warmer seasons my fatigue tends to be less severe, though other symptoms still persist, and my conditions like anemia, POTS and hypermobility are exacerbated.

i need a job as a safety net, despite the risk it poses health-wise so i am hoping to get support in accessing disability aids. mutual aid alone simply isn’t sustainable for me right now.

i’ve been living below my needs, with expenses exceeding my income. i feel guilty when i buy groceries and stress about bills constantly. a part of me feels like this job could be against my better judgement, another part of me knows not working is no longer an option. so if i can accommodate to myself even somewhat, then i want to work.

the reality is, i spend of lot of my time depressed and anxious, the turmoil of which exacerbates my physical health. this job can potentially be a quality of life boost, not only financially, but by offering a well needed break from the eternal suffering of being trapped in my bedroom, mentally torturing myself.

i am lucky my ME is mild enough that i can even imagine working. but i also live with chronic sui ideation from so much compounding trauma. others with ME know how deadly pushing ourselves can be, but folks with chronic ideation know how crucial any sense of purpose is to not give up on ourselves.

i am very passionate about the work i’ll be doing, and i ask for your support to make this possible!

thank you so much for reading. please circulate the 2nd slide 🪽

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image descriptions in comments! by @loreoflala

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5 months ago

it’s a boy! 🩵

happy tdov or whatever! plz make your wallets visible by sending Black trans folks money; check my stories and past posts for folks you can donate to :•3

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I’ve been out as trans since 2014; I’ve gone through many terms for my identity and forms of expression since then, but I’ve been pretty settled on gender abundant for the past few years (a term I coined and have never seen out in the wild but anyone can use!) I started T on halloween of last year! and top surgery is in my future. I’m nonbinary as hell and being Black and autistic heavily informs my identity hence the former username “autie shawtie.” I’ve always embraced femininity in my expression because I revere it but also for safety, and I’m always learning how to balance it authentically with being masculine of center and not giving parts of myself away just to be digestible.

that said… it’s been a while since I’ve said some real shit on here and that’s cause this app feels like fucking squid game (surveillance, competitive, violent, etc) but we’re all grown and, like… this is MY “wall” so to keep it real with y’all… I need some gay guy dick. okay okay happy tdov! gonna go rot in bed! bye! 🐶

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image descriptions:

1 - lala outside wearing a grey, white, navy blue and red striped button up shirt.
2 - 2 side by side mirror selfies of lala wearing a green button up top over a white long sleeve, blue jeans and a brown belt with a heart shaped buckle.
3 - a meme of 3 tweets reading from top down “can a gay guy destroy my pussy” “need to fuck a gay guy” “i need gay guy dick lowkey” by @loreoflala

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6 months ago

redefining resting bitch face 🐶

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what are your current special interest(s), hyperfixations, or other things you’re enjoying lately?

mine is screenwriting! film + tv and writing are both longtime special interests but lately i’ve been trying to hone my own screenwriting skills in hopes of one day actually funding a project ~ currently juggling a book adaptation for film and a tv pilot!

plz engage w the second slide, cuties 🦋

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image descriptions:
1 - a selfie of lala, a biracial Black and white perpsn with lightened brown hair, wearing pink eye makeup, a brown lip combo and big silver hoop earrings.
2 - a multicolored graphic with text reading, “k and c are a disabled black queer couple fundraising to afford rent and catch up on credit debt built up after moving into safer housing! ca: cgab27, v: calebg727. if you don’t have ca/v. send $ to pp: lalashanks@gmail.com with note for k+c” by @loreoflala

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6 months ago

i can’t wait for the spring to defrost my joints and so i can sit in the sun and do nothing but rest and listen to the birds. 6 months of winter is not it 🤓

my pain levels are a lot lower in summer but fatigue fluctuates because i can’t tolerate any extreme temperatures; gonna be managing my exertion the best i can and still try to enjoy the weather when it warms up. tired of the forecasts lately 🌧️🌨️

🌷 are you looking forward to anything as spring approaches? 🌸

please engage with the 2nd slide :-D

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image descriptions:
1 - a mirror selfie of lala, a light skinned Black and white biracial person wearing a pink bikini top.
2. a blue graphic with text reading, “MUTUAL AID UPDATE FOR COMUNITY ADVOCATE/SPOONIE- AMARI. APRIL RENT & URGENT SURVIVAL NEEDS
$1,956. CashApp: $Amari111222, Venmo: @MrLeach111, PayPal: amarileach07@gmail.com, Zelle: leachamari7@gmail.com” by @loreoflala

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7 months ago

been feeling like a wild animal, lately. don’t know if i should feel grounded or frightened by that fact. either way, i’m riddled with grief and fatigue and am really needing to be held 🍂🌨️🩷

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image descriptions:

1 - lala wearing rainbow glasses, hoop earrings, a black headwrap and a fluffy black hoodie, sitting outside in front of trees with browning leaves.

2 - a mantle turned altar, with photos of a baby lala, lala’s grandmother and a young lala with their grandparents. beside the photos are a blue candle, nearly fully melted, selenite, rose quarts, twinkly lights, care bear figurines and other little trinkets and memorabilia. by @loreoflala

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10 months ago

🧛🏼 happy season of freaks :-3

how’ve y’all been enjoying gay christmas? do you plan to dress up or celebrate halloween this year? any other plans for the season?

I, personally, had my second in-person drag performance doing gay vampire activities ~ and I’ve been eating a lot of ham and cheese chowder 🥣

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image description:
1-3: a series of Lala in drag makeup and a black curly wig showing off their vampire fangs. by @loreoflala

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a year ago

goodbye, summer 🩵 i’ll miss you, dearly. thank you for blessing me with so much love. now, to ease into the tenderness of autumn 🧡

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feel free to tell me what love you’re surrounded by or filled with? or who/what you love :-)

i’ll start: my friends of course! but also, art. i’ve been writing so much, lately. mostly to cope with hard times but, writing, nonetheless and i am so proud of the love i’m able to create for myself through storytelling 📝🌷

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image descriptions:

1. A rocky shoreline.
2. A pink and purple graphic reading, “K+ and C are a Black queer couple asking for support in their move! Please help them attain safe, stable housing! Goal: $1000 CA: cgab27 V: calebg727”
3. Lala and Mari standing in dirt.
4. Lala with the rest of the cast of The Messenger by Cheyenne Wyzzard-Jones.
5. Lala holding a bouquet of flowers with Kiana, Nico, David and Tizzy after The Messenger.
6. Lala and Sapph sitting on the ground and hugging
7. Lala and Michaela sitting on the ground and hugging.
8. V, Nico and August smiling on the beach.
9. Nico and Kiana laughing in the living room.
10. Tizzy squatting by David and Lala sitting on the train.
11. A mirror selfie of Lala as lore the muppet, Niko as Fafa Fina and Des as Des Demonic, all in drag.
12. Kiana, Nico, Lala and Barakah sitting outside at the park.
13. V, Nico and Lala sitting in the car.
14. Tizzy smiling and screaming at Lala pointing a crab claw at them; August stands behind them, laughing.
15. V, Lala, Des and August try to fit into a photo booth together.
16. August, Des and Lux standing in the ocean.
17. Lala, Des, Tizzy and August pose for a toothy-smiled group selfie.
18. Tizzy and Lala at their 2000s themed rent party.
19. Nico, Lala, Des and V sitting on the grass at the summer Indigenous Art Market.
20. Another rocky shoreline. by @loreoflala

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a year ago

🍒 “There’s all these screaming hosts in my head, possessing me, and I can’t—will never—exile them.” - Model Home, Rivers Solomon

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Being an emo/scene kid saved my life. Being in community saved my life. Wearing the color pink after forcibly wearing it as a child and hating it but relearning to love it saved my life. Yelling, “Oh my god, look at that puppy!” every-time I see a puppy saved my life.

Living [for me] is just being saved over and over. I’ve made peace with it. I’m struggling and suffering constantly, and I’m pretty open about it but I’d also not be surprised if you didn’t know because I’m even more open about the fleeting joys I’m lucky enough to experience. Because, as hard as things are, they’re also so much easier now. Adulthood freed me from so much strife.

I’ll never forget all I’ve survived and the hosts in my head sure won’t let me. If belonging is where loneliness ends, I haven’t found it yet. And I’ll keep searching until my life is over. And I’ll keep making public diary entries and having public meltdowns. And I’ll keep delighting in the impermanence of sweetness which only makes it even sweeter.

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What makes life sweet [for you]?

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A sequence of photos of Lala outside wearing a floral blue, pink and yellow dress, a pastel pink keffiyah, and a pink respirator. A photo with friends also wearing respirators. A short video of Lala in a car. by @loreoflala

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a year ago

gender of the day: loverboi 💌

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image description:

video of Lala, a light skinned biracial Black and white person wearing a black respirator, a black long sleeve top, a knit long red skirt, a black silk scarf over their hair and big red heart shaped glasses, dancing a hold up a peace sign in a mirror. by @loreoflala

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2 years ago

loving you is easy cause you’re beautiful 💌

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image descriptions:

1 - A selfie of Lala, a light skinned biracial Black and white person with curly brunette hair with orange dye on the tips, sat beside David, a dark skinned Black person with brunette locs. They both wear black respirators. They sit in blue seats.
2 - Another selfie. They hold a program for the play “Haunted” between them. by @loreoflala

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2 years ago