✮ 𝙵𝚒𝚜𝚑 ✮

This is the first time in a long time I’m able to say I finally feel like I’ve found myself again. I haven’t felt the spark of creativity, passion, or motivation in years.

As a lot of you know already, I have been battling a lot with my health—especially in the past six months. Being hospitalized on and off has not been a vacation (even if the food was so good). Internal bleeding is kinda scary! And so is throwing up blood. Not to be bleak, but I almost lost my life entirely this past February, and I am incredibly grateful to be given another chance at life, because I’m not done here yet and I won’t be for a while. I am quite literally too stubborn to die.

The mental toll was just as bad. I want to thank everyone who has been there for me, no matter how little or how difficult. I could not have made it through without you. You all know who you are, and I love you all so, so much. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me and for still being here for me today.

The good news is things are looking better! But I still have some more procedures and testing lined up to really get to the bottom of everything and prevent any further decline.

I really don’t want to do another college term in a hospital bed 😭

That being said, I am so excited to be creating again, and I’m working even harder now in my passions because I will not let myself lose me like that again. I will live loudly and unapologetically me. And I will continue fighting with everything I have to keep this life and to keep my spark alive.

Things will not always be sunshine and rainbows, and things don’t just “get better.” Life is fluid, and part of being human is moving through all of the motions—forever! How scary, but that’s life, and a good show has its bad episodes. How else are we gonna get our cool dad lore?

The mask is made of old recycled food boxes and paper-mache, with fiber optic whiskers for that added whimsy. I couldn’t tell you what possessed me for this one, but I’m incredibly proud of it, all things considered! And I can’t wait to finish the rest of the outfit for the stage!

#papermachete #rabbit #magician #handmade #crafts #drag #ncdrag #circus #art #originalcharacter