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“You are Chosen”
𝟷 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝟸:𝟿 by @thatnotorious.b

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a year ago

Life’s been comin’ AT me these past few months.
My workout game is on. Then it’s off.

I’m takin’ two steps forward, then one step back.
I’m confident in where I’m going, but sometimes question the path to get there.

I believe in the grind, but afraid to get lost here.

Tonight…I’m reflecting.
On who I am.
Who I wanna be.
How I show up.
Where my heart is.
What’s its condition.

— I’m the mthrfknnnn girl that fights. That always shows up. Even when I’m crawling.

The one who’s afraid, but takes the step anyway.

The girl that trusts too easily and shamelessly believes in 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭 love.

The one who knows how to leave it all behind, and rebuild — one brick at a time. That rolls up her sleeves and whispers “This is where you start…again.”

History proves: every “setback” eventually slingshotted me forward.

At some point, I’ve got to start expecting & embracing the fight. Not running from it at first.

My courage and my armor are gifts from God.
The way I show up has been trained. It’s just who I am now. It’s something I’m proud of. A piece of me I don’t question.

If I’m here, I’m all the way Fkn here.
I don’t believe in living life half alive.

So ima continue to be the lion that hunts.
And the girl that believes she can have it all.
The one that loves really big, and stands on grace, trust, honesty, loyalty and compassion.

I wrapped up my Sunday run, to packages on my front porch. Which brought a huge smile to my face. I’m a retail therapy girl (I’m sure you never would’ve guessed that one 😉). Boxes filled with gifts for “my people”…just because.

Because life feels “blah” sometimes, I filled my cup with “this made me think of you” gifts.

So my heart check is in the green. I’m still the same ol’ me. I just had to remind myself.
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#motherrunner #fitness #healthymindhealthylife #latergram #shoptillyoudrop #beastmode by @thatnotorious.b

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a year ago

Reppin’ my faith roots with this baby!

My faith was planted and grew roots when I found @yourhopecity Church online back in 2018.

At the time, @jeremyfoster was lead pastor.
I held onto every word he preached.

Not because of him, but because of his conviction in what He believed. The heart and authenticity with which he shared.

He never claimed he was perfect. In fact he was raw about his story, and flaws. And he constantly encouraged using his Sunday’s messages to fuel faith but directed the people of the church to get IN God’s Word themselves. To make sure that God’s voice was the loudest, not his own.

The way he believed in God, made me believe in God.
The way he made me laugh and cry in the same hour, made me connect with what he was sharing.

It wasn’t his job to be our “perfect” example, but it was his job to share God’s word with everything he had and believed in. So that God could use the gift He placed inside of him to bring people to Jesus.

And for me, Jeremy did just that.
It was in that season, where I chose to give my family a second shot at success. Where I gave all of my doubt and all of my own insecurity and understanding to God…and said “here, take it.”

I remarried my children’s father a year later, after 1.5+ years of divorce and a year of “dating” again.

Unfortunately, the same toxic cycles resurfaced - and that put me in the same position I was previously in, almost exactly 7 years later.

But this time, I left standing on my solid foundation.
I walked confidently in the direction of emotional safety, with my God holding my hand and lighting my path one step at a time and paving the way.

That yes in 2018 was my first of many steps, of slowly handing each piece of my life to God and saying “here, have it.”

I have a story for each one that’ll blow your mind, and still does mine.

My finances.
My career.
My life.

The way I’ve seen God move in my life, there isn’t a question whether He’s real or not. It’s undeniable.

No one’s here to convince you God is real. That’s His job.
But if I can give anyone something, it’s the courage to hold onto Hope. Because sometimes that’s all we’ve got.

I promise you there’s always Hope. Always. #faith by @thatnotorious.b

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7 months ago

our story is but a blimp in the full God story

hold onto it
believe it
continue to walk it

if i believed in my year of “awakening”, why would i lose faith in HIS victory?

quiet your life
quiet your mind
and seek his complete guidance

listen to the nudges
hear His cry for repentance

surrender all
the pain. flesh. understanding. control.

thankful to the Godly women who have gone before me and now stand beside me, on this journey. 🤍🤍🤍

seek His name.
Matthew 18:20 “𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚐𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚗𝚊𝚖𝚎， 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝚊𝚖 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖”

fear you MUST GO
witch craft & evil spirits you MUST GO.
JEZEBEL. YOU. MUST. GO.

believe that the serpent is real.
lurking. plotting. waiting to strike.
…looking for any open door

thankful for my continuous commitment to God’s path for me. not because i’ve walked perfectly, because I haven’t.

His grace carries me
His love holds me

His all knowing wisdom protects and guides me

trust me, when i tell you that all He desires from us, is our complete surrender to HIS will

Matthew 6:10
𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚍𝚘𝚖 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎
𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚋𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚎
𝚘𝚗 𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚗

eyes on Him
the victory is 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 yours Father

xoxo

#faith of a mustard seed.
that’s all He needs

thankful my years of surrender are living proof of His work. His faithfulness. His hope.

there is joy in the believing.
there is joy in the valley.

it is the serpent who wants you to fear no way out.

just so happens that my crazy faith, believes my God is bigger than any Goliath that stands before me or any schemes formed against me.

maybe my “loud” voice was given, for such a time as this.
let me shout my surrender and healing, as much as i’ve always shouted and shared the calling God has placed on our lives. to be all He has called us to be.

i still don’t know who He’s called me “to be”, but He does call me by name “Rachel Lynn, I have made you

Esther 4:14 “𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚊 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜” by @thatnotorious.b

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2 hours ago

𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃, 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃

in HS, i used to think more negative than positive thoughts.
it was easier and quicker to go to the negative than the positive.

in this season, i find that (out of fear) my mind is doing the same thing to me

i’ve been living in “survival” mode for so long out of numbing pain, that my natural reaction is self protection. when in reality, my heart is warm, gentle and kind.

when my fear rises, so does my self protection.
i then lead with fear, rather than my heart.

my biggest lesson in this season is that exact perspective shift in me that is needed. but just because the perspective shift has been there, it’s still a process to get my reaction to change.

of course we all deserve kindness, grace & hopefully people who stand for you in rooms you aren’t in. but that’s not our job to wonder or have proven. it’s our job to put our faith in God and 𝙩𝙧𝙪𝙨𝙩 that He’s placed the right people in the right places on our behalf.

our trust is in things unseen, which is active faith.
as i walk (feels like crawling) this season, my constant prayer and reminder to myself is for God to show me and teach me every lesson along the way. humble me, as i know nothing without my Father. it is through him where wisdom comes. not through my own protection.

no matter what i’ve walked through in life, and wished i’d felt protection from, i need to give the little girl that learned to guard her heart through performance and tattoos, grace to say “it’s okay. forgive yourself for not loving yourself back then. you no longer need to self protect because you 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 the One that does.”

my “slavery” has always been my career in numbers.
the need “to prove”.

this need to prove, stemmed the moment my dad said my sister chose a better career path than me. he didn’t mean it with ill intent, but the little girl who wanted to make her dad proud, has held onto this my whole life.

i was okay with it bc i turned something that 𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 negative into something positive.

but was it?
i found purpose in my pain & lead it back to Christ, but maybe this wilderness is showing me that God has called me to a much higher purpose.

“Lord help me endure”

xoxo by @thatnotorious.b

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6 days ago

silly rabbit

i forgot who i was when i was listening to who they tried to say i was 😂🤣😂

what’s that famous line we all “hate” Kanye for ??

“i told you who i was….”

not God. but the woman who stands behind and beside my God, admitting my sins, flaws, transgressions

who are you behind the mask, or mark?
that one you pay $14.99 a month for 🤔

retire me.
send me back to Greece where the food is real. vibes are lit, and people stand behind generosity, love and welcoming.

if i “don’t belong”, someone should’ve said something

isn’t this Indiana?

Brave. Clear Vision…
Glory & Danger I’ll meet.

It’s ALWAYS been for His glory.
who you playin’ with?!

“One thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus” Philippians 3:13-14

i’m tired of worrying about who interprets me incorrectly.
so just so we’re clear. I’m FOR everybody. Just like I’m FOR me.

my posts are pep talks. to myself. and anyone else who wants to “listen”.

it’s not a self prop or promotion. i’ve always been for everyone reaching higher. their best. my best.

a note to you and to me, reel in the sensitivity and i’ll try to as well ♥️🫶🏼
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#indy #playball #balldontlie #intuition #b by @thatnotorious.b

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9 days ago

i could write a whole book.
and tbh, i tried and then IG told me i ran out of room 🙄

i’ll save all the details for the real deal.

but here’s my reminder to find that favorite quiet space and sit with God

He knows what you need.
and He’s always there to give it

my reminder in this season as i learn to step out as “me” again…not worrying about who i’m upsetting or who’s going to perceive my writing or my heart wrong

Psalm 19:12-13
But who can discern their own errors?
Forgive my hidden faults.
Keep your servant also from willful sins;
may they not rule over me
Then I will be blameless,
innocent of great transgression

(The green highlight from my study bible brought tears to my eyes. Guilt and shame are from the enemy. Give it to God and STOP worrying about other people’s wrongful interpretations)

k. love you. bye for now. 🤍
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#faithwalk #grace #kindness #growingrace by @thatnotorious.b

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9 days ago

saying “goodbye” is never easy

stepping away from a career & an industry i absolutely love has been more than heartbreaking

but i’m the type of girl who finds love & light in every season
y’all know my “loud” ways never really fit the box i grew up in

but i sure as hell performed the fk out of my craft ❤️‍🔥
that. is just who i am.

my heart bleeds in color
my mind creates stories of lessons & hope

no matter how dark, the darkness is

walking in the HARDEST season i’ve ever walked through
i’m still skippin’ and determined to find that yellow brick road

the one my mom always talked about

my dad said there’s safety in numbers. so i chose that.
my mom has a heart full of love, bad jokes, & creative vision.

i’m stepping into that.

whoever said we had to dream once…& stop there?
why not have it all?!

ima choose both
where my heart and my brain collide

where dollars & cents, just make sense without forcing it to

effortless
passion
life

everything in front of us can be scary.
it’s up to us to find our courage, even when it’s sometimes borrowed…and walk tall into the future we’re promised

the one without certainty, but with prosperity.
the one that lights our soul on fire

seasons can hurt and heal at the same time.
what’s your focus?

i tell you what…i sure in the hell wont ever stay stuck

stayin’ alive up in this B

and to all the ones who stop and stare, or mock …baby girl - or pretty woman hiding behind the mask of insecurity, Halloween is almost here but that bully mask does not look cute on you.

rock that crop top like you own it.
don’t forget the red 💋

pep talks for yourself, not from the “yes” people around you
‘cause when it’s just you, you sure better know how to keep going 👊🏼

do it with strength. but always with love. 🤍🖤🥊

there’s real battles to fight out here
check it

always thankful for the people who put themselves out there, and fill others with hope, courage and remind us of the internal baddie that lives there

@andyfrisella - you always keep me lit
but this season, it hits different. you’re God sent to my ears, heart and mental 🙏🏼

ima start #75hard as i walk into this next season. holla if you need accountability! by @thatnotorious.b

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10 days ago

it’s a long story.
but here we are.

like Fabolous says 👉🏼 you gotta come see ‘bout me. if you really want the truth, ask me about me.

embracing letting go of the world, so i can hang onto me 🤍
performance is for execs

ima heart full of art.
or feelings & emotions 😘

it’s a wild ride.
just the way i like it.
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#biggie #embrace #calling #musicismylife #beYOUtiful by @thatnotorious.b

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11 days ago

in a world that needs love… be love

protect your heart, don’t keep it hidden
protect your peace, but still be gentle and kind

oh, and don’t forget to smile

that’s the real game 🏀
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#MJ #justdoit #nike #heartandsoul #beYOUtiful by @thatnotorious.b

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12 days ago

there are four things in life that will change you.

love.
music.
art.
loss.

the first three will keep you wild and full of passion.
may you allow the last to make you brave.

one day at a time 🤍 by @thatnotorious.b

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24 days ago

every close of a chapter, means the start of a new.

once again, i’m not even sure of the next step…but i’m confident in the One who leads me

this past month, i have stood face to face with so many of my own fears…sometimes with just my eyes peeking over the blanket - but i’ll take that as credit for still “showing up” to fight the reflection in the mirror

the lessons are continuous, and i’m here to learn every single one of them. but my favorite so far, is learning to trust my heart with the One who will always hold it with gentleness and care.

feeling safe in the hands of Jesus, allows me to let down my own guard. one i wear like armor. to “protect” my broken heart.

but my heart is fulllll of love. and melody. and silly little dances.

joy.
hope.
faith.

and as much as i love “the game”, and always will…my game has always been people’s hearts. loving themselves. standing in their confidence. mental and physical strength. their fullness…whatever that means for each of us.

writing heals me. music heals me. touching people’s head and hearts…heals me.

my favorite saying is “love like Jesus”

so i’m learning to ditch the shell and expose my guarded heart, in hopes you will too ♥️ because that’s where there’s peace. and love. and healing.

i’ll share more about facing the girl in the mirror later.
but i wanted to “check in” - just in case y’all be missin’ me 🙃

p.s. talk about a cry sesh. woke up with my devotional, and a tucked in note my daughter had left me this AM - as she’s seen me crumble and still rise every day

reminder: never stop showing up. someone is watching you, and maybe even counting on you to make it…to help them get through another day. to teach them. to guide them. or maybe just to love them.

looking forward to letting go of the hamster wheel and fully living in my purpose 🫶🏼

it doesn’t have to make sense to anyone else.
but confidence in the step God is leading you to, will always prove prosperous. ✨
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#lovealwayswins #purpose #healing #testimony #faithwalk by @thatnotorious.b

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a month ago